Again, time for me to think of a few more things than Coronavirus….
I’ve been talking endlessly about love five years after experiencing it in its higher-dimensional form.
But something I very seldom talk about is the experience of our natural purity and innocence, that happened for me in late 2018.
How liberating it is to know that we are, underneath it all, innocent and pure!
We may by now have a hard outer shell around us, but, when the shell comes off, what’s inside is innocence and purity.
I was at Xenia on Sept. 18, 2018, by the kindness of a reader, and I’d watched something horrible on Youtube the night before. I don’t even want to talk about it, I was so shocked by what I saw and heard. (1)
The next morning, we were due to leave Xenia in a couple of hours. I was meditating, trying to get to the origin of the horror I was feeling so as to complete that vasana.
I imagined myself going down an elevator of a hundred floors. But strangely enough, as an aside, when we were perhaps a quarter of the way down, we left the realm emotionally connected to the vasanas far above us. I said to myself that vasanas are only “skin deep.” And so it seemed as we went deeper.
Finally I was let off at the bottom and immediately found myself in a tunnel which again went on and on. How we were travelling I know not. We just were.
And it ended at a place where shone … now I’m about to describe a truncated or toned-down experience so be prepared … a translucent Light. No, for me it was not brighter than a thousand suns. The Mother wanted to keep me here, on the planet and in my chosen role, she later told me, and so toned the experience down. (See 2)
The sight of the Light was not what impressed itself on me as much as the way I felt. It was as if this was the Light’s communication to me: I felt innocent and pure. I was swept away by feeling these states. I never knew this about myself – that I was innocent and pure. I was overwhelmingly relieved by the realization, by the certain knowledge.
It answered the age-old fear that we all have that we were born in evil, in original sin. No. We’re born in original innocence. In the Middle Ages, I could be burned at the stake for saying this.
We are originally innocent and pure. And you could usefully choose to see Ascension as climbing out of the density we’ve been in, mounting the stairway to a better vibrational place. (3)
It was so wonderful to have that question be settled. And it wasn’t until it was answered that I became aware of it how universally there had been a “nagging self-doubt” or a “lack of self-worth” in the back of my mind. It had colored everything, but I never noticed it before.
Now I see that there are no grounds for either nagging self-doubt or a lack of self-worth. Both are truly unnecessary.
The truth is that, underneath our protective shell, we are, all of us, innocent and pure. (4) And in going forward, we are in fact agreeing to return to that original innocence and purity.
I need to keep getting this at a deeper and deeper level. Not just as an idea, but as an experience and a realization: We are, all of us, innocent and pure.
(1) I think I can at least get up the stomach to refer to it now: It was a video of really horrible things being done to a child, allegedly taken from Anthony Wiener’s laptop.
(2) Steve: The experience at Xenia, Mother, was that truncated?
Divine Mother: Slightly, yes.
Steve: I had the thought [it was]. … The Light I saw should have been brighter than a thousand suns. The fact that it wasn’t suggests to me that the experience was truncated. …
DM: It was not is brilliant as possible, let us put it that way.
Steve: Alright… And again, the reason is to keep me in sync with my readers?
DM: It is to keep you in sync with your readers… But let me be very clear about that. If you had seen the light as it actually is, yes, a million, billion suns… You would have simply departed. … We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us, for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, “I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!” (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)
(3) Let me not forget to add that the Light of the Self resided at the deepest part of the heart – the bottom of the heart or the seat of the soul, aptly named. Seek it inside the heart.
(4) Both innocence and purity are divine states of being or divine qualities. Both words have other meanings that aren’t useful here but they’re still the best words I could find to describe how I felt in the presence of the Self.