I’m convinced that the Company of Heaven gives me spiritual experiences because they know I’ll write about them.
So much is unfolding from this last experience of the divine state of confidence. It shows how the Company of Heaven works with lightworkers so I’d like to revisit it, if you’d permit me.
You remember that on Sept. 17, 2018 I watched Frazzledrip while on a retreat. That so threw me that it took a strong spiritual experience to jackhammer me out of it.
I don’t recommend anyone watch that video. It took me way past where I ever want to go in life and I’ve listened to tales of torture and execution in my refugee hearing room. This was way beyond anything I’d ever heard.
It took a first-order experience to pull me out of my dismay. And Michael later acknowledged that he had engineered that.
“We have unplugged you [and sent you on retreat to Xenia]. … But what you have done is you have journeyed to the depths of your soul, to the depths of your core. …
“And you have discovered, not lack, not criticism, not error, but beauty. Underneath the dross is the full beauty, the power, the gentleness, the sweetness of who you are. ” (1)
Beauty for sure. The beauty of the Self, who I am.
It was a fourth-chakra experience of the Self – the most junior of our Self-realizations. (2) And even then it was toned down. (3)
But it was enough to restore me from my deep despondency.
So Michael has caught me when I was falling, are we agreed?
He’s actually told me on another occasion that he won’t let me fall into such a funk again as I did a few years back (private matter). Count that instance as well. And he acknowledged that, to keep me in the hospital for a longer rest during my triple bypass, he gave me MSSA, a recoverable cousin of MRSA. I think the archangels intervene in our lives a great deal more than we suspect. (4)
Ok, if you’re with me so far, then, here I was dismayed last week about possible executions and what happens within days? A very uplifting experience of yet another divine state – this time, confidence. (5)
It has the scent of an archangel. It reminds me of Xenia. And I wouldn’t want the mechanism to go unnoticed: usually it’s the Mother or an archangel who gives us an experience, but in this case the mechanism, the process is that I become aware of a strange feeling, tried it on, and it expanded to fill the space. This time it was confidence. Another time peace. Another time bliss.
I’ve also spoken about this by saying that I feel a wisp of bliss and I surf it to the big wave. That’s another metaphorical description of the same process.
How do I know it’s a divine state? A feeling is usually localized within our body but we are localized within a divine state: we’re immersed in it, drenched in it, awash in it, etc. I was immersed in confidence. It was if I could breathe it in.
I feel so amazingly well feeling confident. I feel so sad that I missed 67 years of my life, since the shattering of my personality at age seven, outside the experience of confidence. It feels like such an ancient reunion that I want to cry.
This is another stage in the recovery of the Humpty Dumpty Man. (6) What’s next?
I stray. With the return of confidence to my life, I’d say perhaps ninety percent of all my personal strategizing has just been rendered unnecessary. I don’t need to manage my image. Having confidence in myself is enough. I don’t need anything else or more from other people – like validation or control or manipulation.
In just the short time since this experience I see the arising or restoration of confidence as a major contribution to my effectiveness in the roles I’ll be playing. I’m amazed that I even considered playing them prior to feeling confident.
Why am I telling you this? Because you may find yourself in real emotional (or other) trouble at some point. And, if you’re in genuine difficulty and it’s going to impact the success of your mission, my experience should suggest to you that the archangels have the ability and willingness to intervene to pull you out of it.
Either you yourself can surf on a wisp of a divine state to the big wave or else the Mother and the archangels can bestow an experience on you that will (A) inspire you at its peak and then (2) leave a residue which will help you perform your assignment.
If the situation is serious enough, they can intervene even though we didn’t request it. In the hospital case of MSSA, Michael said he consulted with my Higher Self and both agreed I needed a rest. I’ve already told him that anything he does with me is fine so he has my blanket permission.
A low point one week and an uplifting experience the next? We have strong allies watching over us.
Footnotes
(1) “Archangel Michael Explains What Happened at Xenia,” Sept. 22, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/22/archangel-michael-explains-what-happened-at-xenia/ See also “Original Innocence,” Sept. 21, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/21/original-innocence-2/ for the experience itself.
(2) Steve: Was the sight of the Self at the Xenia retreat a fourth-chakra event?
Archangel Michael: Yes, it was.
Steve: So it’s possible to have two fourth-chakra events [the heart opening as well] or maybe even more possibly?
AAM: It is possible to have multiple chakra events throughout your lifetimes, Sweet One. Again, what you are thinking of is a limitation. Something is activated or not activated. Think in terms of open, open, open, open, bigger, bigger, bigger. So yes, you might have several (fourth-chakra) events. You should have several events! (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon on June 12, 2019.)
(3) And not enough to take me off course, as the Mother discusses here:
Steve: The experience at Xenia, Mother, was that truncated?
Divine Mother: Slightly, yes.
Steve: I had the thought [it was]. … The Light I saw should have been brighter than a thousand suns. The fact that it wasn’t suggests to me that the experience was truncated. …
DM: It was not is brilliant as possible, let us put it that way.
Steve: Alright… And again, the reason is to keep me in sync with my readers?
DM: To keep you in sync with your readers. But let me be very clear…. [if you had seen] the light as it actually is – yes, a million, billion suns – you would have simply departed. …
We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us – for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, ‘I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!’” (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)
Notice that the Mother is implying that she has the ability and the willingness to make the Light brighter and dimmer. Of course. Why would she not?
What she says of me I think she’d say of any lightworker so expect to have our experiences toned down until we finish our service contracts.
(4) Well, heck, if we’re talking about interventions, how about an electrocution deflected, a toxic chemical rendered harmless, making a heavy object weightless, putting out two kitchen fires, getting me this apartment when it didn’t look likely. On and on the miracles go so I don’t need any more convincing that the archangels intervene in our lives when needed.
(5) My memory is appalling but I recall experiences of the divine states of love, bliss, peace, purity, innocence, mastery, abundance, and now confidence. And of course all experiences are written up here on the blog.
Our everyday experience of any of these states does not match their higher-dimensional correlates. Imagine the difference between freshly-squeezed Florida orange juice and Tang or Kool-Aid (orange crystals). That about conveys the extent of the difference.
(6) See “From the Humpty Dumpty Man to Here: Completing the Fear of Being Wrong,” June 5, 2019, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2019/06/05/300939/