Musing over a minor incident in which I felt taken advantage of, I noticed that I assumed a gruff and defensive posture.
I reminded myself that it was my choice to be this way. What was I getting from it?
Back came the answer: I will never allow myself to be as vulnerable again as I was, as a child, with my Father. (1)
That sentence lies at the very base of my gruffness, my defensivness, my offensiveness, everything. Wow.
That’s the decision I made at age seven. That’s the point at which the twig was bent and the tree inclined.
I’m now just allowing that realization to ripple through my body.
Having gotten the knot in consciousness at the center of the vasana, I feel the grip of the vasana fall away.
I find myself back at the place of rechoosing and I now choose to be vulnerable again.
I want to shout to very cell of my body: The emergency is over, everyone. The all-clear has been sounded. It’s safe to come out of our hidey-holes.
It’s OK to be vulnerable again; in fact, it’s the order of the day. A new world has arrived, a world of peace.
Congratulations on surviving the war. You fought well as long as fighting was needed.
Now peace has been declared. The “enemy” is gone.
This is our part of the postwar reconstruction work: To clear ourselves of the residue of living in a world at emotional war.
We need to clear the debris that is damming up the river of love. We need to cut the knots in consciousness we’ve tied ourselves in trying to emotionally survive.
In our minds, we existed in a world where everyone seemed, at some basic level, to be at emotional war with each other – and with themselves. We were egos trying to survive in a dense and manipulated environment.
All that can be past now if we only commit to ourselves to wake up. The outer reality is changing. It’s only our consciousnesses that remain unnecessarily dense, as if in sleep.
Matthew Ward suggested some time ago:
“Although Earth and all of her residents are in fourth density location-wise, the majority of the populace still is within third density awareness-wise.” (2)
This is what basic-level waking up looks like for me: We stop building a reaction-based world.
We stop creating our lives as horror stories because we’re creating them in reaction to a vasana-born fear. A fear of strangers, foreigners, aliens. A fear of insects, wild animals, other life forms. We have so many fears.
A basic-level waking up would see us stop guiding our lives by the maxim “Excuse, justify and deny all my core issues.” The world we created by living like that was filled with drama and bad endings.
Bad endings is not where the future is going. As my vision in 1987 showed me, it all works out in the final reel. (3) And this is the final reel for The Birth of Fifth Dimensionality.
I’m going to count backwards from 10 to 1. And, on 1, you’ll wake up, not remembering very much of emotional warfare, but everything of world peace.
10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2….
(1) The mind is an obedient servant. Ask it what the originating incident for a vasana is and it obediently sends up a picture, a phrase, or some other identifier of it. But you have to take the very first picture or phrase that comes up. And it often comes up fast, racing across the screen of our awareness.
(2) Matthew’s Message, October 19, 2014, at https://www.matthewbooks.com/mattsmessage.htm.
(3) See “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/