I was looking at this album cover (Suzanne, Leonard Cohen) the day I received the phone call that my Mother had died in a housefire: Traumatic event
We may be in the final push before the first wave of Ascension and core issues are flaring all over the place.
So many are in the thick of it that some things are becoming clearer. For instance, I’ve never seen more clearly the relationship between our scripts and our core issues.
A script is a set of conclusions, decisions and commands that we generate which come to define the way we live our lives.
What I’m seeing is that we take our core issues and project them out into the world and the world feeds back the results to us. We get, over and over again, the very thing we hate, fear, don’t want, etc.
But what I’m also seeing is that we make our cores issues into a script and then live out that script as if it was our assigned lines in a play, the character that we stay in, the plot we’re immersed in, etc.
I could cite other people’s cases but, if I did, I’d be perpetrating and it wouldn’t be fair. I’m going to have to stay with my own.
In my case, my Mother was beaten by my Father and I said, at age 8 or so, to myself: “I cannot help you now, Mother, but I will some day.” Store that away because there’s more.
Then my Mother left my Father and went downhill. Finally she ended up with a cigarette in bed and ten sleeping pills in her stomach and the house went up in flames.
As an aside, the day I received the news, I was listening to Leonard Cohen and holding the album cover on which “Suzanne” appears. That’s it in the upper-left-hand corner. My Mother had died in a housefire and I was holding this album cover when I received the news.
I looked out the window and all the buses were still running and people were walking the streets – and my Mom had just died! How could they continue as if nothing had happened?
At that moment I told myself that I had not done enough to rescue my Mother from her decline. So now we have an instance at age 8 when I said I’d help my Mother some day and her death at which I concluded that I hadn’t done enough to rescue her.
At that moment my script was born. My character became that of a rescuer of women.
I projected my script outwards onto the world. In personal relationships, I screened the women I met and, my compassion invoked, chose to relate to those whom I thought needed a rescuer. (None did of course. It was all my projection.)
Now I’m about to start a project which is about a global “rescue” of abused and persecuted women. (1)
While I find “rescuing” meets a need of mine, if I allow it to lock me in, then I become as cardboard a character as anyone else who lives from a script. (2)
In my case tragedy has served as the basis for my script. In other cases, it might be physical or sexual abuse. None of us are usually aware of our scripts although they’re crystal clear to others around us. We’re invisible only to ourselves.
In the worst cases, we can be totally ignorant or in denial of them.
Well, all the negative aspects of that will pass if events go as suggested on Sept. 28. Our vasanas in total won’t lift until later down the road – after Sahaja Samadhi. Sahaja comes some time after Ascension, (3) as the Divine Mother once made clear:
Steve Beckow: Can you talk a little bit more about the sudden aspect of ascension, please?
Divine Mother: It is that feeling — well, it is more than a feeling; it is knowing; it is ignition — it is that feeling that you have been switched on to a different frequency, and it happens suddenly. …
SB: But that is not Sahaja Samadhi, Mother, is it? When does Sahaja Samadhi occur?
DM: It occurs with a more gradual awakening and lifting up. So there is the abrupt “I am not the same,” then there is the working and the anchoring, the integration, then there is another jump, and another jump, and another jump. And you don’t know it — well, some of you do — but you are leap-frogging. And then you will be there.
SB: Now, are those jumps equivalent to sub-planes?
DM: You can think of it as sub-planes, dimensional sub-planes, yes. (4)
Each plane or dimension – such as the Fifth – is composed of subplanes. Ascension is our entry into the Fifth, but Sahaja comes one or more subplanes into the Fifth. So our issues will be with us, in a more relaxed way, for a little while yet.
So I now see how our core issues become our script. Now the work is to:
(1) raise that script to awareness,
(2) act it out thereafter from a point of awareness
(3) until I’ve finally had enough,
(4) let it go, and
(5) act spontaneously again, rather than from the conditioning of my script.
What I don’t get done before Sept. 28 will probably no longer be a barrier, but a very slight memory. I love the awareness game so I’ll likely work on my script until the last moment and then joyfully let it go.
Footnotes
(1) The Gender Equality Project, to start after the Reval.
(2) I can now joke about it. I told a friend yesterday that I would rescue her but she was my last one. I wouldn’t take on any more. We both laughed at that. It does help to be able to laugh at our scripts.
(3) Sahaja Samadhi is a permanent heart opening and happens deeper into the Fifth Dimension that we’ll be as of September 28, if reports prove accurate.
(4) Ignition is the “snap” at the moment of Ascension. “The Divine Mother: We are Creating a New Species of Humans,” channeled by Linda Dillon, July 10, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/07/12/the-divine-mother-we-are-creating-a-new-species-of-humans/.