My shares may be out of chronological sequence due to my impatience to get a post out and on the record. This is a red-hot share for me for reasons that apply only to myself. – The Humpty Dumpty Man.
I’m watching to see what difference having dropped my suit of (character) armor makes in everyday life.
Then this occurred.
Normally I make a payment on the 10th but I was out to the world that day and never gave it a thought until today.
So I wrote an email acknowledging it and promising to get it there right away.
Reaction? Kick my butt? Want to overcompensate?
Nothing. Not a twinge of a response to my mistake. Just normal.
Just normal.
But do you know what that word means to the Humpty Dumpty Man, who hasn’t known the ground under his feet for his dissociation and ungroundedness, all his life? Who has lived, unknowingly, just at the edge of the emotional and intellectual envelope the whole of his life, and been regularly slammed for it? (1)
Not to react?
From that day when I was seven, when Dad shouted at me from right in front of my face and my personality shattered into a million pieces until April 9, 2026, I have been recovering from the effects of that experience.
And finally Humpty Dumpty is coming back together. Feeling normal for me is a monstrous-huge milestone, monstrous-huge.
It took 72 years – completing one core issue (or vasana) at a time. A lot of it with you, in these pages (search on “vasanas”), going through the whole process, one core issue after another. (2)
And then dropping the whole apparatus itself. Not like I’d ever dreamed that such a thing could happen or was even possible.
For this outcome, my thanks go out to an army of geniuses and friends, in both western and eastern spirituality and the Growth Movement.
And to our unseen partners who are managing the whole drama backstage in line with our missions.
Footnotes
(1) Two Ph.D’s denied as being outside the envelope. Unable to parlay contract employment into permanent employment because the boss felt threatened, an article redefining the field turned down by the very people whom my redefinition defined out (I guess it makes sense). Nearly losing a Ph.d. oral because I said I didn’t care to read Marx. On and on. What it took to get here.
(2) See Vasanas: Preparing For Ascension by Clearing Old Issues at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/05/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R16.pdf