Credit: Ute Possega-Rudel.
I don’t even remember how life was before March 13, 2015, the day my heart exploded with love. (1)
But what I do remember of it is that there was always this fear – this fear that I somehow wouldn’t “get” love.
As a Sociology grad student, I did a study of the titles and lyrics of love songs. Mostly hidden in all of them was a prime failure to understand the situation.
Hidden in it was the belief that you bring me love. Therefore don’t take your love away from me.
Oh my.
I could have run with that forever and in fact almost all of us do, I think.
Yes, you can send me love and I may or may not accept and receive it. But for me that transmission has no more power than a drizzling rain compared to the strong and constant flow of love that comes from where?
From the opened heart. I could call “Ascension” the “Open Heart,” because a permanent and full opening of the interdimensional portal we call “the heart” is precisely what Ascension is. Therefore, as Jesus explains:
Jesus: The key to Ascension is not fully, intellectually, just understanding it, or not understanding it. It is the holding of love in your heart. This has always been the case. And it has always been the message. (2)
I think by “holding it in your heart” Jesus includes sharing it with others (love your neighbor as yourself). If so we’re again using the heart as the endless and eternal artesian well of love that it is.
Our heart door, which Vedantists call the hridayam, is ordinarily closed. When it opens, love flows, and, as the Divine Mother reminds us, “the love energy … is what Ascension is.” (3)
Closed and very little of this higher-dimensional love, what I call “transformative love,” gets out. OK, probably none at all.
But none of us knows this. It isn’t taught in school. Nothing of any of this is.
My entire positioning in life was about “getting love.” All my calculations (in real love, we feel no temptation to calculate; we already have everything we ever wanted) were based on getting love.
I equated giving love with doing things for people. I and my Mother were a defensive team against a violent father. So I positioned myself as her aide de camp. My life’s positioning was as a rescuer and helper.
It was a heartless, soulless life, “getting” and “giving” love when I felt nothing. I wondered, is there nothing more to life than this? What are the saints and sages always smiling about?
I’ve talked enough about the actual heart opening. (4) It’s life before that I’m wanting to remember today.
(Continued in Part 2, below.)
Footnotes
(1) For a description of the heart opening itself, see “Submerged in Love,” March 14, 2015, in An Ascension Ethnography – Part 1 at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/An-Ascension-Ethnography-5.pdf, and after.
(2) “Transcript of An Hour with an Angel, with Jesus, Jan. 9, 2012,” January 10, 2012, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2012/01/10/transcript-of-an-hour-with-an-angel-with-jesus-jan-9-2012/.
(3) “Universal Mother Mary’s Ascension Splash!,”channeled by Linda Dillon, May 31, 2017 at https://counciloflove.com/2017/05/universal-mother-marys-ascension-splash/.
(4) See everything after March 14, 2015, in An Ascension Ethnography – Part 1, ibid.