by Anael, January 27, 2021, Posted on the GAoG Forum
Yesterday, I read a message from a lightworker who was saying that most people have been totally floundering and missing the point of the Mother’s Pause, not utilizing the timeout properly. Naturally, I started to question if I was one of those oblivious people.
I noticed that I was falling into the old habit of criticizing myself and feeling completely useless, when I suddenly snapped myself out of it. What surprises me still is that I got angry. I said to the judgmental part of me, “Are you serious?! I have been SO devoted to my path as a lightworker for EIGHT YEARS! Not a day has gone by since I learned about lightwork that my mission has not been on my mind. Every day my mission is at least somewhat the focus of my day. And you’re going to tell me that I’m lazy?! Are you kidding me?! I’m done! I’m not going to let you bully me anymore! I know I’m important!”
I’ve always made clearing my shadow and sending Light to Humanity and to Gaia top priority as far as my mission goes. That, as well as keeping my vibrations high by doing what I love and what’s fun to me.
My secondary mission is to keep informed about global changes from a Divine perspective as well as from a political one, and integrating both as a neutral observer.
From a Human perspective, my life is very simple and mundane; I work full time at a fast food restaurant, and when I’m not working, I stay inside my apartment because it’s my favorite place to be. I play video games or watch anime with my husband, and I also sometimes like to do macramé.
I think this is precisely why I’ve struggled to understand just how important I am to this ascension process, because externally, I don’t do much. Most people still put too much emphasis on the external and on ‘doing’… including me. Well…until yesterday.
I want to clarify that if your heart sings at the thought of actively engaging in something that you feel is beneficial to the liberation of Humanity, then absolutely go for it. That’s obviously something that you’re meant to do. This plan needs all kinds of people to get it done.
What I want to share with you is how I keep myself from judging my own path in life. I realized that I really don’t have a damn clue what I’m doing to help this Ascension. If the totality of my role is equal to 100%, then I consciously understand maybe 1% of it. I think that goes for everyone else too. I think that even people who claim that they’ve got it all figured out really only know 10% of their role at best; and that’s not a jab at them, I just feel in my heart that we overestimate our ability to comprehend a plan that involves ALL of creation.
I know at a soul level that I AM unimaginably important to this process, exactly when I was born, where I was born; exactly as I am, and who I interact with. Just because I don’t know why I needed to be born where and when I was doesn’t make it any less perfect for my exact skill set. The Divine Mother placed me where I needed to be, and I completely trust her judgment.
Sometimes I envy lightworkers who have been doing all of this for way longer than I have, thinking that they’re somehow stronger or more important because they’ve created a following and have become very influential. That’s just a lack of faith in the Divine Mother’s infinite wisdom. She knows better than I do where I’m needed the most. No one else could fulfill the role that I play, and that’s just a fact that equally applies to you.
My point in all of this is that I think you’re all fantastic, and you’re doing exactly what you came here to do. Even if you know 0% of your mission and you’re totally clueless, that changes nothing. You’re still performing 100% of your role, just at an unconscious level. I bet most of what we do is in our sleep, anyway. Just give yourself some slack and some love. You deserve it.
If you want to understand your mission more deeply and follow your joy, opening your heart to your guides’ messages is the quickest way to learn. Just do some research online. There are lots of ways to get messages from the Divine and you’ll find the way that works best for you.
I love you all, you’re doing a fantastic job. Thank you for being here.