If I were to take a ride downtown on a bus for the first time, that would not equip me to write a treatise on the workings of the bus system.
By the same token, one or two experiences of the heart do not qualify me to write a treatise on the heart and its workings.
On Sept. 18, 2018, I journeyed to the seat of the soul, the deepest part of the heart (I think!), and there found the Self. And on March 13, 2015, I experienced the heart opening and landed up in the Ocean of Love. But neither experience equips me to say very much abut the workings of the heart.
In the first one, I was not really aware of my surroundings as I journeyed deeper and deeper into the heart. In the second one, I was so overwhelmed by the experience that I took little notice of my surroundings.
I’m tempted to compare the heart to a tunnel which, when followed, leads to the Self. And when followed further may lead to the One.
But not only do I not know that, but these limited experiences are not a solid-enough foundation to support such an assertion.
Moreover, it isn’t part of my contract to have experiences of the depth required for a deeper understanding of the heart. It is part of Bright Star’s contract, but not my own. (1)
While Bright Star will be modeling Ascension, I’m to push and shove the last remaining stragglers onto the train and then jump aboard myself. (2)
That which I’m shown, I believe I’m shown because the Company of Heaven wants me to write about it, to the extent that the experience reveals something significant – like the nature of higher-dimensional love!
So it’s a balance: enough is shown to allow me to comment but not enough to have me say – as the Mother quipped – “I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!” (3)
Most people reading this are angels, who, at the end of their tour of duty, have the option of returning to the Transcendental. So we have the comfort of knowing that the dearly-sought consummation (and more) is already assured us upon completion of our task.
That should allow us to simply settle in and do what appears to be our mission without worrying about whether or when we’ll be fed. (4)
You might say we have our meal in our shoulder bags and can concentrate on climbing, and helping others to climb, the mountain of Ascension.
Footnotes
(1) See “The Tide has Turned: Reading with the Divine Mother and Bright Star, Jan. 29, 2019,”
It isn’t my task to ascend early, as Michael makes clear here:
Steve: Should I be orienting toward ascending early or not? I have this sense that I’m supposed to be here.
Archangel Michael: You’re supposed to be here.
S: So it’s not my lot to go early. I’m going to stay at this post.
AAM: If you sit with me and you ask of me to come right away, then of course, I will work with you. Such is my love for you. That has not been our plan.
S: No … well, I understand that I’m supposed to be doing what I’m doing. I don’t want to be going against the plan.
AAM: Then stay put, dear heart. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Sept. 13, 2011.)
Or my experiences can be truncated, as the fourth-chakra experience of the Self at Xenia on Sept. 18, 2018 was:
Steve: The experience at Xenia, Mother, was that truncated?
Divine Mother: Slightly, yes.
Steve: I had the thought and, of course, I know I’m probably inaccurate on it, that the Light I saw should have been brighter than a thousand suns. And the fact that it wasn’t suggests to me that the experience was truncated. Am I correct in that?
DM: It was not as brilliant as possible, let us put it that way.
Steve: Alright… And again, the reason is to keep me in sync with my readers?
DM: It is to keep you in sync with your readers…. Let me be very clear…. If you had seen the light as it actually is – yes, a million, billion suns – you would have simply departed. …
We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us, for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, “I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!” (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)
(2) The role of a “pillar” is to assist everyone else aboard the train first and then jump on last.
“You are a pillar. You are an anchor. … What you have done is basically moved from the front of the line to the back of the line and you are very gently, and sometimes not so gently, nudging people along.” (AAM, Nov. 11, 2015.)
“A pillar [holds] the energy for the back of the line so that you can move them, move them, move them along.” (AAM, Sept. 21, 2015.)
(3) Divine Mother, ibid.
(4) Sri Ramakrishna: “All will surely realize God. All will be liberated. It may be that some get their meal in the morning, some at noon, and some in the evening; but none will go without food. All, without any exception, will certainly know the real Self.” (Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 818.)