When I “go into” the stillness, what is it that stills?
As far as I can see, it’s the mind.
It’s the thoughts and the feelings they call up. It’s the chatter, the hopes, and worries, and fears.
And who is the “I” whose will/intention stills it?
I have to digress for a moment. The very deepest form of that “I” is filtered down through each form or body that it inhabits.
The “I” that stills it is a higher version of my everyday consciousness but it’s not as high, so to speak, in the very deepest “I” or “Self” that I and you are.
Nonetheless the will originates in that deepest Self – the impulse, the intention.
Imagine a Babushka doll. The “I” that stills is the very outermost doll. The next one in is the one who wills to still it, but that next one and its will are ultimately to be found as the very smallest doll at the center of the Babushka nested figure, or the Void at the center of our Being.
That smallest doll is the source of the will that stills the mind. But again it’s will is expressed through all the bodies it’s using to experience new aspects of life.
It becomes filtered along the way by our attitudes, feelings, trauma and other circumstances that go to make up the manifestation of the Self at any one level.
At least that’s the way I see it.
So when I go to still the mind, I’m simply matching up to life at the highest realms. There I’m still, in terms of material things, but not still in terms of love and the divine qualities.
They flow and change, allowing me to experience life at many levels, even if I’m not usually conscious of doing so. Together they form what Sue Lie would call “the multidimensional Self.”
The truth is what’s so, Werner Erhard used to say; it’s also so what?
Well, here’s what. I remember when I didn’t know how to dance and I was as clumsy as could be. Then I learned how to dance and suddenly a whole new area of life opened up for me.
By the same token, when I know who is stilling what, I know how to dance in that arena as well. I know what I’m doing. I know who is doing it. I know where it all fits in.
The truth, on any level, has the power to set me free. In this case, knowing the truth of who stills the mind sets me from from the forced inaction of not knowing.
I can now conduct the process of stilling the mind knowingly. I can do the cosmic dance a great deal easier.