(Concluded from Part 1, above.)
The life-altering decision I made long, long ago was that I wouldn’t keep the family’s secrets (domestic violence) any longer. I went through a phase of being inappropriate in what I shared, so much did I desire to be rid of secrets.
But what I didn’t see was that all of what I was doing comes from resisting. I’ve called it the career complainer. Same thing.
I was all about resisting and it showed if you put the fabric under the microscope. Ordinary detergents were having no effect, so to speak.
So I added to the density of Third Dimensionality and of the carbon-based human body my own brand of density, making my life be like walking through goo.
I’m surprised I survived it as intact as I hope I have.
I’d like to convey the irony of this. In Oct. I enjoyed my 70th birthday. A little after that, I began to see some of the really important elements of my constructed self.
The normal lifespan, according to the Bible, is threescore years and ten; i.e., seventy.
The irony for me is that I only got some of the critical elements of my facade after I’d passed the normal life-expectancy.
I could have died, if my life followed the cultural pattern of threescore years and ten, and I wouldn’t have accomplished even the one major karmic assignment I probably gave myself before birth. How slow is our evolution!
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The constructed self – in my case, built around the ridgepole of resistance – is like the ego’s recorded message. You think you’re talking to Steve or Mary or John but you’re really talking to them twice removed.
One remove is the recorded message (constructed self) you’re actually talking to.
A second remove is the ego who’s recording the messages and saying which message will play next. Behind that second remove is the being. That one you are normally not talking to. These other creations form a protective screen around that one.
We have to make it safe for beings to come out and talk to each other. That’s what the awareness game is all about.
Noticeing, sharing, comparing notes. Falling deeper and deeper into the center, the heart, the Self. Maintaining awareness of the ways of the self. Knowing that all we can do is remove the overburden. We already are the Self we unconceal.
I’ve experienced arising as the Self and the words that occurred to me to describe it was that arising as it was like an inversion in consciousness.
The closest I was ever able to come to a description was to compare it to someone taking our sweater off by quickly pulling it inside out, over our head and shoulders. Our consciousness is unconcealed in much the same inverted way.
Or I could describe the process as doing a backflip into the Self. That image also came to mind.
Completing our core issues; withdrawing from conditioned behavior; deconstructing the constructed self or facade; and revealing the natural Self underneath: Those are the steps we’ve followed as lightworkers listening to the channeled messages of the Company of Heaven – interdimensionally.
According to Sri Ramakrishna and I believe Shankara, the ego does not die. It simply becomes a willing servant when the being realizes the Self (1) and stops listening to the ego.
Everyone who’s lived a light-filled or decent life will, I believe, ascend. But the ones who do the extra work of assisting the process by walking out of their self-constructions will, I think, become the new leaders.
Don’t forget. What we do here sets the template for many other Ascensions. When at any time in our history or the world’s has it been possible to make such a difference?
So the conclusion of my personal review? Past tense. Future perfect. Let’s meet in the Fifth in 2017.
Footnotes
(1) I think they were referring to Brahmajnana, God-realization, seventh-chakra enlightenment. That experience causes a temporary heart opening and a transforming shower of bliss. Sahaja, when the heart opens permanently, is the culmination of our Ascension and is a higher state than Brahmajnana.