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Processing the Sleeping Volcano and Moving On

Each time a vasana (or sleeping volcano) goes off, I learn a little more about the process of clearing.

The disappointment I felt yesterday when NASA scientists joked about extraterrestrials in their interview when ETs surround our planet and are about to change the course of human history triggered a vasana.

Were I unaware of how the process worked, I would probably rail on and on about NASA and make it the new bogeyman.

But I know how vasanas work. This one is connected to other disappointments in my life and connected by the common thread of disappointment itself. The largest upset in this connection was the discovery in 2000 that my own spiritual teacher of 25 years was a child molester.

But before that was a spiritual teacher that I worked for at a school for children sent by the state for rehabilitation. That teacher was sleeping with the female students who were trapped at his school by court order.

And before that lay one teacher after another who had in some way violated a trust – beating students, demanding money from them, spreading AIDS among them, on and on the thread went.

Back I went through high school encounters with teachers, vice-principals and principals who had, according to me, disappointed me. Back I went until reaching again, not surprisingly, my father.

And with that the vasana stopped.

This Werner Erhard would have called “sourcing” the vasana – he actually would have called it a “record.”

I am returned to peace again and NASA will not become a constant theme of these pages. Moreover, the rightful contours of what just happened are visible now. I’ve stopped my forward motion, saved myself from becoming more of a reactivation machine, and saved you hearing endlessly about this issue. I’m “returned to Self.”

And of course reactivation is only going to happen more and more commonly in the weeks and months ahead. So if I fool myself that any one incident I face is the source of my upset, rather than a string of earlier, similar incidents, then I become more and more self-righteous and more and more imprisoned in my vasanas.

This way I get to complete each incident and move on without being trapped in the quicksand of my reactivity.

OK, enough said. Time to pick up where we left off. NASA does not become a new focal point and I do not become more sclerotic.

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  1. One thing that bothers me is that maybe just maybe soon or imminent means another 5 years…

  2. Thanks Steve, I relate! All the writing lately, to you and others, is a clear sign there are things here at home for me to work on. I stay honest about my life and myself, usually, but I still get blindsided, you know? I took care of one thing that still needed some work this morning. I’ll have to wait and see what’s next because I thought I was done with the clearing work. I wonder how many more times I will need to eat those words?

  3. Greetings Steve,

    An excellent example of how our perceptions of our external reality can trigger memories and lead us to personal resolutions (provided we are willing to look.) There must be some truth in the statement about… everything being connected.

  4. I too was disappointed in NASA, but immediately realized that I didn’t expect more anyway and stayed out of a vasana. As a matter of fact when a friend of mine was all excited over the announcement coming up in the nightly news…….. I just laughed. Until we have real disclosure there won’t be much forthcoming.

  5. Steve, After I got over NASA”s breathtaking news about the bacteria in the mud at the bottom of beautiful Mono Lake, I heard about an upcoming news release by a National Institute of Something-or Other (the commentator mumbled the last words—they do that a lot as I get older) so I listened. The Good News is that they have found irrefutable facts to prove that reincarnation is really real. When a person dies, that person comes back sometime later as a brand spanking new body to live again. Hallejlu-Yeah!!! The Bad News is that This Is It. Here we are, again. Malcolm.

  6. Steve: Bravo, and olay! This means so much to me. You have turned lead to gold. This is the frontline of the internal refinement process and hearing you write these words fills me with warm, loving joy and deep appreciation. You are wise and making that wisdom work for you! Well done <3

  7. Very much appreciate the transparency, Steve. A great explanation of such an important process… that I have yet to nail down ;)

    Morpheus, what were you saying about that blue pill? This red one has wayyyy too many emotional side effects…