One thing I notice about lightworkers bringing their subjects to their audiences and non-lightworkers is that lightworkers, though they’re serving some narrative (the Divine Mother’s Plan), are not after profile.

They don’t wait for the laugh. They don’t capitalize on moments. Their attention is on asking and answering the question and not on how it may be received – well, except for etiquette.

They’re not “playing” their audience. They’re not focused on their audience at all, unless the audience interrupts with raucous laughter or a sudden gasp.

But even then they don’t spin the moment (necessarily or often), but bring the discussion back to the point at hand rather than themselves.

Funny to use the word “etiquette,” but that’s one of the things we’ll have to recover on the long road back from a public discourse in deep-state ruin.

If a person is after profile, they’re serving the ego. The Divine Mother calls it a “scenic detour.” (1)

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Serving the ego…. Hmmmm…. That phrase interrupts my train of thought and I feel sad.

What does it mean, to serve the ego? Let me take a scenic detour here and talk about my experience of the ego.

As I’ve mentioned on other occasions, I saw my ego in a vision once, with my wife sitting across the table from me.  It was a fire-breathing Satanic figure, red with horns. Scared the living daylights out of me!

Meanwhile my wife, sitting across from me, shrieked. Which brought me back to reality. WHAT WAS THAT? we both said.

I never saw what she saw. What I saw was way enough for me.

In all our representations, we show demons or devils as smiling or in some other way disarming, often causing us to laugh.

That is not what I saw. There was nothing laughable about this character.  No sense of humor, black or otherwise.

I saw a very threatening, angry, destructive face, menacing and breathing fire in my direction.  If I was a soldier, I’d hightail it out of there and never return. The Valley of the Red Devil.

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THAT, that I saw, in my opinion, was hatred, jealousy, envy, backstabbing, you name it, congealed. As far as I was concerned, that was a personification of every evil thought I’d had, lifetime after lifetime.

The precipitate of every inner movie of every injustice and my frustration when not able to strike back. Every battle, nation against nation, for the basest of motives. Every war, every act of “justice” or retribution.

Sadly, at the time, I just regarded it as the wierdest thing that ever happened to me, but did not really get the message down to my bones. I probably still don’t. That evil lives inside of me.

You remember the tale of the two wolves – one bad, one good? Which will win? The one we feed?

As far as I can see, we all feed the bad wolf with every evil thought we have – and it persists.

I feel like Morley visiting Scrooge, dragging his chains behind him.

OK, OK, back to work. But that was how it was like.

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That personification of evil, which for convenience I call my “ego” (what do I really know about egos? Nothing), lives inside me. It’s a part of me. Worse than the troll. The troll is positively discerning compared to my “ego,” the devil.

I have a signal with Michael when he says “yes.” And it’s going off repeatedly.

Rest assured I’ll send the ego love until the factory reset that Ascension is. And I’ll send me love too. Just remembering that incident rattles me.

When we say we’ve all done good and all done evil, the precipitate of all the evil I’ve done was staring me in the face and breathing fire on me that day. There’s no denying it. It’s all a mental creation, but it’s real on its own plane of existence – a thought-form, well, like we are.

That side of me, that precipitate of evil, will be burned to a crisp in the fire of Ascension (Sahaja Samadhi, Vijnana). (2)

The precipitate of evil…. What a sobering thought that is….

Footnotes

(1) Divine Mother: Yes, there are such things as ‘incorrect steps’. There are many scenic detours, as you well know because you’ve taken some of them, and that is a good thing because people have need to understand the range of their free-choice/free-will decisions. But there are times in human lives when they veer so far into ego, into abuse, and control, and power-seeking that they lose sight that they are part of me. (“Linda Dillon: Divine Mother – A New Realm of Consciousness,” July 26, 2020, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2020/07/26/linda-dillon-divine-mother-a-new-realm-of-consciousness/.)

(2) The Divine Mother confirms:

Steve Beckow: I think [Ascension] is what is called — and I’ll make this clear to readers — Sahaja Samadhi. Am I correct?

Divine Mother: Yes, it is beyond what you think of with your seven chakras. … We have emerged from the Third-Dimensional realm, which is that reference point for the chakra system, into the new. So yes, you are correct, in this question and in this statement. 
 (“The Divine Mother: Come to Me as I Come to You – Part 1/2,” Oct. 17, 2012, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2012/10/17/the-divine-mother-come-to-me-as-i-come-to-you-part-12/.)

On vijnana, Sri Ramakrishna says:

“What is vijnana? It is knowing God in a special way. The awareness and conviction that fire exists in wood is jnana [i.e., Brahmajnana, God Realization, 7th-chakra enlightenment], knowledge. But to cook rice on that fire, eat the rice, and get nourishment from it is vijnana [Ascension, a full and complete heart opening]. To know by one’s inner experience that God exists is jnana. But to talk to Him, to enjoy Him as Child, as Friend, as Master, as Beloved, is vijnana. The realization that God alone has become the universe and all living beings is vijnana.” (Paramahansa Ramakrishna (PR) in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 288. )

Our leftover issues and upsets (vasanas) are burned away, Sri Ramana says:

“As a heated iron-ball appears as a ball of fire, this (body) heated in the fire of Self-enquiry shines as the Self.

“The old vasanas pertaining to the body, (mind and so on) are destroyed. …

“Once the knot is cut, one is never bound again. This is considered the state of power supreme and peace supreme.” (Sri Ramana Maharshi in Vasistha Ganapathi, ed., Sri Ramana Gita. Tiruvannamalai: Sri Ramanashramam, 1977, 55.)

And Sri Shankara affirms

“The flame of illumination [Sahaja] … is kindled by discrimination between Atman [Self] and non-Atman. [It] will burn away the effects of ignorance [i.e., the vasanas], down to their very roots.” (Shankara in Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher lsherwood, Shankara’s Crest-Jewel of Discrimination. Hollywood: Vedanta Press, 1975; c1947, 39.)