Why are we afraid of spending this when it doesn’t even cost a cent?
June 2, 2026, via email
KerryK.com
There are programs of the false matrix that run us so quietly we mistake them for personality, responsibility, duty, kindness, even adulthood. One of the most subtle is the self-abandonment program: the one that teaches us to withhold a precious resource from the only place it could actually heal us, restore us, and return us to the fully functioning human beings we came here to be.
That resource is time.
Not the time we lose to noise, demands, drama, doom scrolling, old wounds, or everyone else’s urgency. I mean the time we spend with ourselves, in presence, in stillness, in the living remembrance of who we are beyond the confines of the false matrix.
We know money is valuable. We measure it, guard it, plan around it, and do our best to spend it with wisdom, because we know it comes from a finite source.
Time is even more precious, yet we spend it with astonishing recklessness. We spend it on misery. We spend it on being triggered. We spend it reliving old trauma, sacrificing ourselves for the wellbeing of others, and giving our life force to conversations, distractions, and obligations that drain us instead of replenishing us.
And then, when the invitation comes to spend time on ourselves, something in us tightens.
Twenty minutes with you? Thirty minutes in stillness? A little space to meet the infinite nature of what you truly are? Suddenly the world has a thousand urgent reasons why that is too lavish, too difficult, too indulgent, too much.
That is the program.
It does not stop you from spending time. It simply trains you to spend it where it cannot free you.
A few weeks ago, I watched an interview with Richard Branson where a young journalist asked him what it was like to live in such luxury. Branson’s answer stayed with me. He said the young man had something far more valuable than all the things surrounding them. He had youth. He had time.
The young journalist could still become a billionaire, but the billionaire could not become young again.
That is the piece we have to see now. Time is not just something we pass through. It is a resource. It is a field. It is the place where our potential either gets drained away by the false matrix or returned to us through presence.
Half an hour arguing with a keyboard warrior on social media is the same half an hour you could spend meeting your own infinite nature and merging with the essence of you that transcends the walls of this realm.
One will empty you.
The other will remember you.
This is why so many people battle to meditate and meet themselves in the depth of their own Godliness. It exists. It is available. It is untapped. Mostly because the moment you spend time truly meeting yourself, you are directly disobeying the program that told you to remain loyal to the illusion.
Can you do it?
Can you spend 30 minutes with you?
Not in chatter. Not in debate. Not in performance. Just in presence, with the presence of All-That-Is, as the presence of All-That-Is.
That time will allow you to experience yourself beyond the false matrix, beyond the old programs, beyond the noise that convinced you life had to be spent everywhere except within the sanctuary of your own being.
Spend time on you, not with demand, expectation, or the need for a measurable outcome, but unconditionally, so that you can restore your link to unconditional love.
That is where it is.
I know you have it in you to do this because, like me, you come from the infinite realm, and you were born to return that realm here through your living presence.
