Apology to self, forgiveness of self — the importance of this — for the Mother Energy to rise in everyone, that remembrance of no judgement in the higher realms, truly helps create peace for Earth at this time.
In past lives we have all been involved in actions where we abused power; there is not one of us who is exempt (hence to be non-judgemental of everyone’s behaviour) but at the same time to take core responsibility for our part, the apology/forgiveness work, so it stops, so it doesn’t continue.
rectification | ˌrektəfəˈkāSH(ə)n |noun
1 the action of putting something right; correction
The Divine Mother to me, April 25th, 2015:
“A proper apology from the heart is a request for forgiveness.
“In the person receiving the apology, it is not only the transmutation and the rectification of an injury, it is an expansion of the receiver to then from a higher realm grant forgiveness & feel compassion.”
Here’s a quick breakdown of the work, from years of studies, the fastest, most efficient way I’ve found to release karma, to be in our heart consciousness, ‘out of the monkey mind’:
apology to self/others
“I’m so sorry for . . . to . . . “
forgiveness of self
“I Am Forgiveness of My Self/Others . . . “
deep non-judgement/compassion from the root, all lifetimes, abuse of power
“I Am So Sorry to the Universe. I Am Compassion.”
“I Am So Sorry to Whomever I Have Harmed. I Am Compassion.”
acknowledgement and acceptance of the past
“I acknowledge and accept . . . “
“I Am Acknowledgement and Acceptance of . . . “
gratitude for the courage it takes to do the work
“I Am Gratitude to My Self for the courage it takes to do this work”
(or whatever other form of gratitude you find for yourself.)
You, me, our families, came here
to help humanity evolve.
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December 2023, my daughter is recommending trauma therapy for me. I’ve never heard of this and am resistant. I’ve never had a proper therapy session in my life but I’m getting the sense that the higher realms have something to do with my daughter’s urging.
Friday, December 15th, I’m at my place of work where I give card readings, and first client of the day is Yasaman asking about personal issues.
Turns out she is the owner of Expressions Counseling and their area of expertise: trauma, incest, anxiety, depression.
Yasaman explains the rapid-eye technique that is used by her and her counselors.
Colin, the manager where I work, said that technique was used with him when he witnessed his mother’s boyfriend’s suicide. He wasn’t allowed back to school until he was treated. He said he didn’t understand it at the time but that he can see that it has worked, from his perspective at 28 now.
Later that day, I fill out Expressions’ online website form for a 20 minute free consultation, and also, emailed for an appointment. Sessions are $178.50 CAN an hour (including taxes). If you are in America, here is a link to find an EMDR counselor close to you.
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I had my 20 min session today with Expressions. Trauma therapy focuses on healing the Inner Child, validation/love.
Yasaman says with the amount of work I’ve done on myself I should be able to do her 12 weeks of protocols in 3, which is perfect because I received $600 from my Mum for Xmas — probably what it was meant for 🙂
We will be meeting on Zoom, headphones recommended, my first appointment January 10th, 2024.
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Healing EMDR Session #1
This session we chatted about my life, what I have been through.
There is tapping, sound or rapid eye movement healing techniques. One is chosen and it turns out I work the best with sound, ocean waves.
In conversation, I was taken into 2 deep traumas (Yasaman could see/feel the amount of work I’ve done and said we only need to focus on the 2).
Yasaman asked me to rate the old perspective 1-7 or 1-10:
standing back like a movie, 1-10
or through the thoughts/feelings/eyes of the inner child, 1-7.
She says I easily dissociate, go into “the movie” — hence, the standing back, to watch — people holding trauma tend do this.
My inner child is carrying old sorrow/grief and I have squashed her into my stomach area.
My spiritual side has taken over, and figured things out mentally/emotionally, but my inner child needs help letting go.
All this makes sense to me; deep sorrow came to the surface, I could feel it behind my eyes.
I have cried buckets of tears in this life, thought that was done, a little more to go . . .
(Concluded in Part 2, below.)