I’m processing a non-directed vein of anger that’s arisen in me.
I’m processing it as anger itself rather than as something connected to just one incident or issue. I want to deal with anger as an impulse. I thought anger worked for me at some point in my life, even though it didn’t.
Now that I appreciate the universal Law of Freewill, I get that I’m trampling on other people’s rights in getting angry. And I see what damage it does and where it leads. I need to excise the condition once and for all.
Every time I look at this issue, I see, with my inner eye, a monk in a cell. What I interpret that as saying is that, if I want to get to the roots and excise anger, I need to give the same quality of attention to my inner process that a monk like St. John of the Cross or St. Francis would give to theirs alone in their cells.
I go into meditation.
I invoke the Laws of Intention, Sacred Purpose, As Above So Below, Attraction, and Karmic Dispensation and Archangel Michael and the Mother to assist me now to get to, observe, and release what lies at the roots of anger.
And impatience too. As I sink down into meditation, I see that impatience comes along with anger the way I have things wired up.
I note strong determination (I believe Buddhists call it adiktan) arising. Massively strong.
All at once, I find myself in an imaginary or virtual med bed.
I name all the conditions in my body and ask for them and any I’m not aware of to be healed.
And I ask to be restored to age 28.
The arthritis in my knee begins to release as I gently exercise it. I’m able to move the knee quite free of pain now. Same with the left knee.
Since we’re all angelics, I imagine myself retreating to the Transcendental realm and feeling myself free of all conditions, fully and permanently healed. At that moment, the pre-arranged signal with the Divine Mother goes off.
I interpret that to mean that the healing is done and I can leave the imaginary or virtual med bed, which I do.
I’m not sure who it was who said that we actually don’t need the physical med bed. We can work with an imaginary one since it’s all vibration. I’m game to try anything.
I get up and walk around. I walk gingerly and my knee muscles do ache a bit. But I’m not experiencing any pain from the actual knee joints. The rest I’ll check later. I’m impressed.
In focusing in on my anger with the strong determination that a monk has in meditating, I intend to identify earlier and earlier signals that tell me I’m starting to head down that path again.
Then I need to drop the anger impulse and the issue immediately as something that has burned me too many times in the past to want to proceed with it any further in the future. Been there. Done that. Hasn’t worked.
As a person who formerly manipulated through anger, if I succeed in this campaign, I have a chance of making a success of running several companies in the service of the Mother.
A day later
The lifting of the pain in my knees holds. I’d say it’s about 80% better, with pain only when I stand or sit.