Ute Possega Rudel has best illustrated the situation with the Self in the heart
I’ve been relating for many years how in meditation one day I entered into the heart chamber and found myself flying fast within it until I reached a cul de sac.
I shared how there, to my left, was a smaller antechamber with a ledge, upon which “sat” the radiant Self.
I told you how its light was translucent more than bright and how I wondered about that. My experience comprised mainly feeling pure and innocent in the presence of the Self. That was definitely enough of a consolation.
And I’ve related how I later spoke to the Divine Mother through Linda Dillon who confirmed that she had truncated the experience – toned it down – so I wouldn’t leave my soul contract.
I’m going to quote that conversation at length because I think it’s important for lightworkers to see how much the Mother and her archangels involve themselves in our spiritual unfoldment. I apologize to readers who’ve seen it before:
Steve: The experience at Xenia, Mother, was that truncated?
Divine Mother: Slightly, yes.
Steve: I had the thought [it was]. … The Light I saw should have been brighter than a thousand suns. The fact that it wasn’t suggests to me that the experience was truncated. …
DM: It was not is brilliant as possible, let us put it that way.
Steve: Alright… And again, the reason is to keep me in sync with my readers?
DM: To keep you in sync with your readers. But let me be very clear…. If you had seen the light as it actually is – yes, a million, billion suns – you would have simply departed. …
We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us – for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, ‘I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!’” (1)
So because of our service contracts, we’ve agreed to forego the senior levels of enlightenment – or indeed any levels – that would take us away from fulfilling our agreements. Enlightenment comes later.
Three times I’ve had experiences which have been moderated: Brahmajnana/God Realization (seventh chakra) and two experiences of the Oversoul (seventh dimension). (See 2)
In fact all higher-dimensional experiences of bliss, ecstasy, and exaltation must have been truncated or I wouldn’t still be here. The Mother would be right, as she always is: I’d be off on a rock somewhere, meditating and enjoying the bliss.
I’d like to start by looking at the rationale for the toning down of the Xenia experience. I think a lot of us – if we’re familiar with the stages of enlightenment – will find our experiences being moderated so we don’t drop our service contracts.
The more general question behind this is how much and in what other ways does the divine guide and oversee our spiritual unfoldment? Is our enlightenment due to our efforts, a Plan, or a mixture of both? I’ll leave that to another article.
Later in this series, I’d like to look at the words of terrestrial sages on the Self being “situated,” if such a thing were possible, in the heart.
In other words, the sages have not been romanticizing things. We stopped at their storefront and asked for directions to the Self. They told us “the Heart.” They weren’t kidding. They were just being explicitly accurate.
The heart really is the seat of the soul. “From the bottom of my heart” really does mean something.
(Continued in Part 2.)
Footnotes
(1) Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018. (Hereafter AAM.)
(2) Brahmajnana
Steve: [Emptiness of mind] was followed next by what appeared to be the kundalini completing its circuit at the seventh chakra. Is that in fact what happened?
Archangel Michael: Yes. …
Steve: Hmm, interesting! Ordinarily you would experience Brahmajnana at that point but I felt that it had been muted, toned down.
AAM: When you use the term “dramatic enlightenment experiences”[as I did earlier], you are talking about Nirvana. You are talking about the unity of all with One.
It is not to say that you will not experience that, but you cannot (well, you can if you wish; it is a choice to) simply remain in that state of unity, of One, or be fully conscious, in service, in action….
So, it is a toning down, if anything. It really is the middle ground. …
You know that enlightenment is right there in front of you. It is yours to access. But if you are in service, you will not choose to live there. …
You can think of it as keeping two feet firmly on the ground. (AAM, Feb. 14, 2012.)
First Experience of Oversoul
Steve: I had an experience at a meditation workshop in which I felt regal. It was a partial [truncated: no bliss] experience. Can you tell me what that part of me was that I accessed.
Archangel Michael: … Your Highest Self, your Oversoul, is very regal.
Steve: So that was an experience of the Oversoul.
AAM: Yes. (AAM, Sept. 13, 2011.)
Arcturians: Seventh [Dimension] is your Oversoul. (Arcturians in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Suzanne Lie, March 17, 2013.)
Second Experience of Oversoul
I had a vision of a man so noble that I could only stand there in awe. …
At first I gazed in wonder. The thought that humans could reach such a level woke me up. I was so buoyed up from the experience that I never inquired as to the identity of the man. …
Upon trying on the notion that the man I saw in my vision was actually a higher-dimensional version of me, it and I began to merge.
How can I describe merging? Let me look for a metaphor that both of us can agree on. Here’s my metaphor, aimed at the experiential level. Remember that a metaphor only captures some of the similarities, not others.
Imagine a large piece of all-white blotting paper. Pristine and pure. Suddenly wet patches begin to show on it. Gradually wetness pervades the whole of the blotting paper.
I was that blotting paper and my Higher Self was the water. When I was soaked through and through, who was I? The “water” or the “blotting paper”? Or water-and-blotting-paper?
All I know is that, before the merging, there had been a subject and an object, me and the man in the vision. After recognizing it as my Higher Self and merging with it, as I did with bliss and peace, there was only a subject.
It feels as if the everyday man is the one that remains. I hear Michael saying that I need to keep my feet on the ground. And, for many reasons, I do.
To return to the vision, when I saw my Higher Self, I was awestruck. I saw a knight in shining armor, mounted on a white horse and holding a lance. (“‘Is This What You’re Looking for?’ – Part 1/2, August 21, 2017, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/08/21/289210/.)