Let’s hope I can make a few notes here, the bliss is so tangible.
(This illustrates what the Mother said about too much bliss incapacitating a person for this work.) (1)
I’ve just discovered that I can bring light up from my heart in the same way that I’ve been able to bring up love.
I breathe light up on the inbreath, allow it to fill me up, and send it out to the world on the outbreath.
Brightness fills my inner vision when I do this exercise and I feel expanded, confident, balanced. I get the benefit of the light, as with the love, as it flows through me.
It’s morphed into “lovelight” now.
I recall that this experience began when I asked the setting sun, as you see in the graphic, to fill me with light. I heard myself respond “I fill myself with light.”
Someone is whispering in my ear. Saying that was accompanied by the sensation of brilliance filling up my inner vision (through closed eyes).
I began to fill myself up with my own light on my inbreath and send it out to the world on my outbreath. It gave rise to a sublime feeling of bliss. Bliss so thick it was like honey.
Dog barking. Canada Geese honking.
In my mind’s eye, I see myself in a village “hotel” (a modest restaurant with benches) in southern India, with dogs and geese. All is well with the world.
My mind comes to stillness.
In meditation, I found myself following a pathway that I’d learned some time ago, designed to take one to the higher realms.
It involved being handed off from one master to another, one celestial to another. And I resisted.
I realized why. I’ve seen so many masters fall in my lifetime that I no longer want to do my ascending via a path of bhakti or devotion and a ladder of masters. I want to do it via a path of awareness and a ladder of the divine qualities.
Hand me off from love to bliss to ecstasy to exaltation and beyond. You could call it rising higher. Or going deeper. Or becoming more and more balanced.
Divine Mother, bless my reaching you by the path of awareness.
(1) “If you had seen the light as it actually is – yes, a million, billion suns – you would have simply departed. …
“We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us – for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, ‘I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!’” (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)