I was in the middle of an article when I had a realization. I’ve usually written after the experience but I’ve seldom been able to capture one from its beginning.
The outstanding feature of it was what felt like a gentle ring of fire ascending, leaving the “me” that was below it in an altered, more expanded state.
This was not a major, but a minor, realization and the state subsided before I finished writing. Still it was a realization and I’ve seldom been able to capture one as it happened. This again is an entry in an Ascension ethnography. We join the article:
Michael recently said not to treat dimensionality as if it were a series of waystops only but to add in the experiential flow, like the river that it all is.
Steve: So any other help in trying to map it?
Archangel Michael: What we want you to do is to not map it and we mean it in this way. You love, Sweet One, to be able to…
Steve: To map!
AAM: …to map and to put things in their neat little corners and niches.
AAM: … But what this experience (and it is a beautiful experience …) what you are seeing and how we want you to see it is more how the river flows – the fluidity, the movement.
When you map it, what you tend to do is input Vancouver, Calgary, Toronto and say, “I will visit these places.” Rather create the rivers that join all the experiences. (1)
[Experience starts here.] I’m going with the flow in this moment, which is unusual for me – at least as something I consciously do.
[Conscious awareness dawns here; also called realization.]
Yes, I’ve just become consciously aware of it and am in the experience of realization in this moment.
Going with the flow here means going with the realization rather than the topic. Many experientialists say no one understands them because they flow from topic to topic. I’m in that flowing experiential space now.
Awareness is dawning. It’s as if a ring of fire started somewhere I wasn’t aware of but passed up through my head and off me and left me in an altered space. I feel “more” of everything at this moment.
I’m more peaceful, confident, stable. I’m more of who I really am, rather than the me that emerges when I’m beset with concerns and rushed for time.
I’m not expecting this state to last but I want to record it as it happens. I’d call this a peak moment or a dawning awareness. I don’t consider this a major realization (an enlightenment) although it could continue and I’m open to it.
It’s an experience of realization nonetheless.
OK, it’s subsiding. So it was more like a firecracker, an “Aha!” I called it a peak moment or dawning awareness. A minor realization. All are synonyms to me, as a dimensional mapmaker.
It has subsided and left me precisely where I was. But I do have the knowledge gained.
(1) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Jan. 18, 2020.