I was walking along the Sea Wall in Vancouver, when I became aware that I was walking behind a smoker.
Until this time I was experiencing love – consciously. I was breathing love up from my heart.
Suddenly I found myself inhaling someone else’s smoke. And it was a vape device so the cloud of smoke was large. I felt annoyed.
And I pulled over and waited for him to go further along. And then I felt an errant wisp of love again.
But this time, rather than just carrying on, I saw that I had allowed myself to be deflected and distracted from my original experience of love into the experience of annoyance. I did it. No one else did.
He didn’t make me mad. He didn’t do anything except what he likes to do, which is have a smoke. I can take evasive action. No one is forcing me to walk behind him.
And I realized in a flash that the essence of spiritual growth for me right now was taking responsibility for and managing my internal states and experiences.
I allowed myself to be distracted by the man’s smoke. I gave up the experience of love for the experience of annoyance. And where annoyance leads to is in a counterproductive direction, which I give way to time and time again. I’m addicted to behavior which brings pain. So I led myself down the garden path; no one else did.
All of this causes the loss of my contact with sacred love. That is a high price.
We lightworkers are for the most part planning to be of service to the planet by working with the galactics after they arrive. I know I am. It may be of interest to some to hear part of my marching orders, the art the relates to the galactics:
Archangel Michael: You will tell humans of the agendas of your star brothers and sisters, which is very simple. It is to help. It is to form community. It is to enter into a situation that is significant and reliable. That is what you are going to do. …
There is a need for an independent voice, a voice that not only delivers the message of your star brothers and sisters, but takes into account the climate and the evolution, the spiritual, mental and emotional evolution of the beings upon the planet and Gaia herself, and in that acts as a translator for the highest good of all. … I will help you, obviously. (1)
That means, as the Arcturians said, that I – and perhaps you – would be well advised to master every thought and feeling. (2) The necessity of this task is what directs me overall.
And now I see their advice in an altogether-different light. Not only do I need to do it for future work, but I need to do it if I want to live in the experience of higher-dimensional states like sacred love.
Living in those states requires me to take responsibility for my internal states and feelings and begin to orchestrate them rather than being led, blindly stumbling forward, or reacting from vasanas.
How can I orchestrate things so that I’m able to maintain a loving, blissful state without threatening or disturbing others? How can I behave in an ascended way whether or not I’m ascended? And especially when I’m not ascended and would like to be?
I see focusing on experiencing sacred love as the key. The more I focus on experiencing it, the more I do experience it. And being in the experience of this kind of love – however fleeting – is what fuels and ignites me. It gives me the soul-energy and courage to move forward.
It allows me to take decisive steps towards – in this case – goals like managing my internal state. It’s the rise of this love that tells me I’m moving in the right direction.
So it’s focusing on maintaining the experience of love, the contact with love, the immersion in love that determines my progress in any spiritual work right now.
I’ve never attempted anything as audacious as assuming responsibility for and control over my internal states and feelings. My growth-movement alarm bells are going off. Any form of control was frowned on there. But they were not about to serve as galactic bridges. (3)
So what will I do with this gift and this responsibility, given that I know what’s coming down the pike? And given that I also want to live in the higher states now?
(1) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, April 26, 2011.
(2) “You will be called upon to master EVERY thought and feeling.” (Arcturians in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Suzanne Lie, Nov. 8, 2013.)
This is not a normal time on Planet Earth. And so I take the Arcturians seriously.
There are other factors which I tend not to talk about. Later it’ll be fine to discuss them but not now. But the “X Factors” do enter into my decision-making. I’m being transparent about areas where I’m not prepared to be transparent, where I’m consciously censoring myself.
(3) And I’m only discussing orchestration of myself. It isn’t orchestration of anyone else. We’re all independent queendoms and kingdoms. Each rules over itself, by the Law of Freewill, just not over its neighbor. That leads to war.
Each is responsible for this realm called a “self,” in any and all respects, cosmically speaking.