Life as lived is not simply engaging these days. It’s engrossing. I find myself turning aside from many ongoing topics and saying to myself that, compared to what life as lived is like for me, these ongoing controversies carry little interest.
Often these days I have the feeling that I can take a step into life, I can lean into life, and the next step I take will not only be rewarding but will lead to the next step beyond that.
And always my inner guidance provides me with a good and timely answer to the next question I have and the next.
I keep reminding myself to remember neither to close down to what life is teaching me nor to attach to anything Third Dimensional but to remain open and detached and move from one insight to the next.
When I asked my inner guidance yesterday how life shows up or proceeds in 4D, back came the answer “by flow.” That doesn’t mean that I know life proceeds in the Fourth Dimension that way. It does mean that that’s what my inner guidance suggested to me.
So yesterday I tried out being in flow and noticed several things.
First the constructed self is characteristic of the Third Dimension. Third-Dimensional life proceeds not by flow, but by strategy, planning, manipulation, forcing, backing away from, hiding, excusing, justifying, defending, etc. Life showing up this way keeps us in unconscious awareness.
There’s little or no flow involved in living life out of our conditioning, stage-managing and promoting our image in Third Dimensionality.
Fourth-dimensional life goes on outside the constructed self and goes on by and through flow. There’s no anxiety, no struggle in life lived outside the constructed self. Life goes on within conscious awareness if I allow life to flow.
All the struggle and anxiety is generated by and in the constructed self. It’s generated by trying to shoehorn life into a box, a preconstruction, trying to make life fit our pictures of it.
Life in the Fourth Dimension is by nature fully functioning. Totally, completely functioning as the floor of experience, the reliable character of life if left to its own devices. It isn’t the case in 4D that we’re partially responsible or self-expressive or self-sourcing. We’re fully, completely, totally responsible, self-expressive and self-sourcing.
To be anything less than totally responsible is not to be responsible. Partly responsible, responsible some of the time and not at other times is not being responsible. But not like I saw that before. I have to keep excusing myself for what I haven’t seen until now.
All of this shows up for me like a very hard saying because I’m not aware of ever having been totally anything in my life and perhaps that’s why I’ve remained in Third-Dimensional consciousness, unconscious awareness.
When interfered with, life in 4D may see an interruption in flow but otherwise, if not interfered with, I assume that life goes on as a flow.
Having these thoughts does not imply mastery. Even a realization does not imply mastery. It seems more to imply having an hypothesis for testing.
The path to mastery of these notions awaits my effort and application. It doesn’t come about by a mere act of “seeing.” As long as I’m energetically at least part in 3D, it’ll require effort to keep my attention on flowing. Once in the energies of 4D, once my consciousness has centered and anchored in 4D, I presume I won’t need effort to flow.