Notice that when you stand up for something significant, like heading up a global project or being a financial wayshower, just as W.H. Murray said, all of Providence moves to assist you:
“Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth, the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too.
“All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favour all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no [person] could have dreamt would have come [their] way.” (1)
In this case, Providence, in the form of my guides, moved to assist me by telling me of the split in my personality and allowing me to uncover the rest. And, with a little help from my friends, I am uncovering it.
No one said it would be easy and no one said we’d find our reward at the end of it. No, they don’t call these “personal demons” and “dark sides” for nothing. Finding out what I found out hardly showed up like a reward to me. It was hard to accept and hard to manage. My first impulse was to try to hide it, but that never works. It simply ads to the skew. I’d rather “own it” and let the chips fall where they may.
Archangel Gabrielle said that “this cleansing is complete,” (2) but the process of uncovering our deficiencies remains, and will remain for as long as we exist and until we reunite with God. Only God is perfect.
You may say, if Steve is not perfect, then what hope is there for me? I’d rather you said, if Steve can lay himself bare to this extent, I suppose I can delve a little deeper into myself, like he’s doing.
No, I’m not perfect. I don’t choose to exaggerate, but using the term “Jekyll and Hyde” does highlight the circumstance and shows us how one generation’s physical abuse can be passed along to another generation.
Here is Archangel Michael’s original invitation to stand etherically naked in front of each other, to know each other deeply, truly as we are, warts and all.
“Yes, in many ways, what I am speaking of is standing etherically naked in front of each other and seeing the brilliant light that shines from each and every one of you! Do not hide any portion, any sliver of that light, of that brilliance. Do not fall, ever, into judgment or think that some piece of you is unloved or unlovable, because that is not of the truth.
“And if you bring my blue flame to this judgment, you will see what I speak of, and you will see the beauty, the magnificence of who you are.” (3)
In this case, standing etherically naked isn’t making lemons out of lemonade. It’s getting one’s life back, one’s aliveness and full satisfaction.
So I’m risking it all to stand “etherically naked” before you, not in love, as I have on some occasions, but as a man who developed a temper from his early life of physical abuse and now wants to be rid of it. And is taking the strong medicine that my guides have given me.
In my examination of the split that occurred, I had to go deeper and deeper inside me.
(To be continued tomorrow.)
(1) William Hutchinson Murray, The Scottish Himalayan Expedition (1951.)
(2) “Archangel Gabrielle Beckons Us: Come Fly with Me… You are Ready!,” Council of Love, September 21, 2014, at http://counciloflove.com/2014/09/archangel-gabrielle-beckons-us-come-fly-with-me-you-are-ready/.
(3) “Archangel Michael: I See You! I Love You! I Will Engage,” Nov. 7, 2013, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/spiritual-essays/the-role-of-twin-flames/archangel-michael-i-see-you-i-love-you-i-will-engage/.