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Hello all, I’m feeling pretty crappy right now because we just received extreme heat, high fire danger, and potential power outages notice from the city, through next Friday. It’s for Southern Santa Barbara county, where I am.
I totally panic when we have fires here, and I hate the heat, and I have a barely mobile 92-year old and 2 cats that are completely dependent on me. The high winds, extreme heat, and power outages tend to come at night…
To top it off, I can hardly believe I, personally, poor me, have to go through YET ANOTHER SEASON of weather warfare in my own back yard. I’m 100% sure this drought was engineered and the upcoming “weather” is also engineered.
So…when are things going to get better???
As for practical matters, we’re as prepared as we can be (bags are always packed for evac), we have 2 possible bolt holes with friends who don’t live quite as close to the hills as we do, the car is gassed up…yada yada yada.
You dear advanced souls could no doubt handle this all way better than me. I’m just so tired of this year after year. I really thought the cabal would be beat by now…
So really, I’m just complaining, and in fear, and nothing is actually even happening! I am well trained to be in fear the moment I’m threatened. Haven’t quite overcome that conditioning, yet.
I’ll say it, so you don’t have to: all is in divine order. 😘
Thank you for listening, dear friends.
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Hi Catherine,
I’m sorry to hear about your situation, which feels really distressing even from afar, and your feelings about it. I am sending you Ease and Tranquility from southern France, for what it’s worth! 😌
It’s started as a quite rainy year here, while it was mostly extreme dryness year after year before… no fires around here, luckily, it’s still a pretty green place even in scorching years. I’ll be holding and sending some of these energies to your area, if that’s okay with you! I may have to check a US map first… 🤭
Hay-making season is underway here, at it stopped raining recently 🌄Regarding fear (and anxiety) these are two recurring emotions of mine as well… I find that they’re quite difficult to clear as they can come so strongly and suddenly, seemingly out the blue, and exert such an intense “grip”.
Here’s how I now address it, although I really do not feel that I am among those advanced souls you’re talking about 😂
My own method is to thoroughly relax into fear and anxiety when I notice I’ve grasped them (yet again!) so that they may “poof out” in Light by themselves, deprived of sustained tension and aversion, the fuels I so conveniently give them.
When I’ve managed to release them to some extent, I then gently place my Awareness for some time on receiving and expressing Tranquility and Trust, Confidence or Ability, depending on which feels best.
Of course, fear usually comes back repeatedly and is still felt each and every time but I try to avoid grasping at it too hard when I can. That way it stays around as a boisterous friend, but gradually feels less and less personal and urgent.
In a sense, it’s all about becoming Aware of myself grasping at emotions and associated thoughts again and again and letting them be instead.
It’s a subtle dance, and an easy one to forget when faced with threatening situations… so this may be some quite unpractical (and also unsolicited) “advice”! It sure wasn’t “fail-proof” when I was experiencing a very heavy emotional situation a few months back…As to when things will get better, I must admit I got very tired after years of reading “soon”s and huge events predictions… as a result I’m now focusing a lot more on my Inner experiences and conscious co-Creations rather than expecting much to happen outwardly and “by itself”.
It seems to have released something in me… Maybe expectation, through its “future rather than Now” feeling, is somewhat stalling our collective and personal Manifestations: all we’d like to create, live and experience?I do realize that’s not much help but I hope it may be of some value to you in this difficult moment 😘
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Julien, your description of going “in” after tiring of all the “it’s happening soon!” repetitions parallels mine, and I bet many others’. Wouldn’t surprise me if that’s Spirit in Coyote trickster form, fooling us into “having” to go deeper in rather than peeking through the curtains hoping that Future is strolling toward us down the street, ice cream cones and helium balloons in hand.
Meh, I’m done waiting for “out there,” many seem to be saying. I’ll rely on Spirit, accessed from “in here.”
Your description of NOT grasping emotions when they show up is very reminiscent of something Dr. Peebles recently told me that I’ve started to write an article about…and now this gives me a nudge to keep writing it. Thanks!
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PS, OF COURSE it’s ok to hold and send positive energies to our area! All of CA is under similar warnings, I think, but as for where I am, it’s about 100 miles north of LA. 😻 We’re on the coast, which often protects us from the worst heat. Today the forecast inland, just over the mountains in the Santa Ynez Valley, is for 100+ and the coast is for 70-80, which is generally very optimistic, we actually get quite a bit hotter.
Thank you!
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Hello Catherine,
I feel you my dear friend, I truly do. What is the maximum I can offer you Now? Is it knowing you are fine, protected, loved? I don’t think so. Why? Because you have all the tools and amongst them the “knowing” you need.
So what else is there to offer? Possibly the “unknowing”? Is this something I could offer? I don’t think so either. Why? Because you already have this too … it is all part of the “Higher Knowing” and therefore within your presence.
So how do you get from one “knowing” to the next or the one outside your current one? Tuning In! Release the “former, lower, loud” one and replace it with the “current, higher, silent” one.
It is the everlasting cleansing, transmuting process all over again. You have done it many times before … it should get easier. You are stronger as before, you will be stronger yet again.
The part I recognize and sense is the “frustrating” part. The remembering part based on past experiences and equally the emotions and energies involved. It’s because of this “memory” projection in combination with your current knowing of physical strength or the “lack” of it … that you feel the way you feel … tired and possibly “fearful” you don’t have what it takes this time around.
You know what I say holds truth Catherine … to a degree of your own Creator Self you are Creating this … circular, lower self-fulfilling, “future reality”.
Let it go. Use the Universal Law of Elimination … transmute the “knowing” into trusting … Accept the inner un-knowing as your preferred New Knowing. Trust your past Light Work to have been sufficient and you do not need to go back to learn lessons you already Know!
Stay with the feeling and observe it as just being a memory of past … No “intuition” of future. Don’t let it hold power over you. It is only there for you to observe and offer it out into elimination. Bye old 👋 … hello New 🌈
If this doesn’t help … it is also always just fine to “complain” a little … just express your human self and get it off your chest.
Love you. 💓💞💕😘
Take care my friend,
Ralph
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Dear Julien and Ralph, you have both helped me immensely with your loving support and excellent ideas, observations, and “advice.” And by the way, I consider that I have “solicited” the advice simply by posting here. If I didn’t want help, including advice, I would just not say anything.🙂
It’s funny, what I’m learning about the merry go round of repeat emotions right now. In a literal sense, even though they are “energy” rather than, say, a two-by-four, they physically impact me in real life. I read the description of “panic” from the Emotion Code literature and was shocked at how exactly it described my experience of panic. “Sense of impending doom” particularly resonated.
I actually Asked (my higher self/God) if I could release a trapped emotion of panic this morning and got Yes. So I did.
I’ll let you know how that goes.
Ralph, I always enjoy your posts and get a lot from them, and I’m so pleased that you, Julien, are joining in with a similar vibration of kindness, support, and Light. The Forum offers an amazing alchemical experience—words to love to words, ad infinitum.
Plus, it’s wonderful to see hay being harvested! Thank you for the pic.
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Hello all…there’s a fire south of us. Please send love and cool moisture!
Hopefully it will be quickly under control and the winds don’t get crazy…https://www.noozhawk.com/article/wildfire_lake_casitas_ventura_during_red_flag_warning_santa_barbara
Thank you!
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Thank you, dear Sistah Pat! Your thoughts and love and support mean the world. And all the cool, moist thoughts and vibes.
It’s very quiet here right now and I am hopeful and prayerful for peace through the night.
It’s funny how lonely this kind of situation feels. I have my mom here, and it would be much worse without her, but for instance she doesn’t even know about this fire down south. I don’t tell her things that upset her unless she absolutely needs to know. There’s no point.
She also doesn’t know about Covid or understand why people are wearing masks and why we haven’t been to a restaurant in a year and a half. In a way it’s quite restful! I mean, I have told her, but she doesn’t remember.
I can hear my neighbor’s smoker’s hack through our open windows, which usually annoys me, but right now I find it comforting to know there’s another person not too far away. And my cat Wally just joined me on the chair to remind me that indeed, I am not alone. Thank you, Spirit!
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And here’s some more thoughts… I was chatting with Suzi and telling her that I realize my reaction to the fire or potential fires or even the darn winds is not “normal.“
Last year, during the summer and fall spate of giant wind-driven fires that attacked California and Oregon and Washington — and I know they were weather warfare – it finally occurred to me that not everybody felt or acted the way I did.
Luckily, last year there was not a nearby fire. At least nothing more than very small ones that didn’t even make the news. And oddly, I didn’t see other people walking around with their hearts pounding and their stomach roiling and eyes darting nervously every which way for days or weeks on end because horrific fires were happening in other parts of the state and the west.
There was so much smoke last year, do you remember? It blew from California and the West all the way across the US and ended up across oceans. So it was really impossible to forget that it was going on. Even without watching the news, I was very aware of the dozens of fires, some of them enormous, and I kept up with the online Cal fire and other fire news sources. I even subscribed to the San Francisco Chronicle just to keep up.
And one day the thought drifted across my mind: I think I might have PTSD about the fires.
Whoa! I know I have PTSD about stuff from my childhood (which I’m not going to get into). And after I thought about it a little bit I realized that having PTSD from one set of circumstances makes one prone to panicking any time things are out of control and/or are threatening.
So that was a really good insight to have. Because tonight when I noticed the smoke and frantically looked online to find out how close it was, my heart started racing and my stomach started jumping.
And this time I realized, I have PTSD. This is a programmed reaction that I’m having.
So what am I going to do about it? Probably a bunch of emotional release work. That’s where I’m at right now in my healing and spiritual journey.
This fear of fire and PTSD response goes all the way back to 1990 and the first huge wildfire in “recent” years in Santa Barbara, the Painted Cave fire. It burned what seemed a mind-boggling amount of homes at that time, over 400. I remember I lived downtown and worked downtown and I walked to the parking lot where my car was and from the time I started walking from my office till I reached my car these huge boiling clouds of smoke grew and grew and grew. It was like watching some kind of black magic trick.
I’d never seen anything like it and I had certainly never been anywhere near a huge wildfire. At that time we didn’t have much experience with the fires and nobody quite knew what was going on. I was incredulous that here in this city of 80,000 people (at that time), on the ocean, a grassland-mountain wildfire was threatening to come down into the city. There had been two really large front country-back country fires previously, the Coyote Fire in 1964 and I think it was the Sycamore Fire in 1977, and then really nothing major after that. Basically, nobody was prepared.
I didn’t know where to go or what to do. They didn’t know where the fire might be heading. I just stayed home and tried to figure out what to do and felt absolutely helpless and panicked. Remember — 1990 — no Internet, no cell phones. Just TV news, bless ’em.
They kept saying, it will never cross the 101, but guess what, it did. So it really felt like nowhere at all could be safe. It was literally possible that it would burn to the ocean.
There’s a very wealthy enclave on the bluffs above the ocean, called Hope Ranch, and there was a story in the paper about massive black moving vans that pulled up out of nowhere and loaded households of goods and carted them off to safety. Very surreal.
So that is a little bit of background for you on my long-term fire fear. The last 15+ years have been really horrible, frankly. And I’m very bitter about the cabal, and as a friend commented about her own fire-fear feelings, I am also occasionally filled with absolute rage. Really…HOW DARE THEY?!
I would dearly love to hear anybody’s PTSD or trauma stories and how you deal with it. Lots of prayer and remembrance of unity and oneness and Spirit, right? 🙏 tonight I found myself reciting the I AM the light, I AM the love, I AM the truth, I AM mantra. It was all I could think of and it was way better than nothing. Thank you, Blossom!
Love,
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Hello Catherine,
Let me start by saying I send you courage, tranquility, love and peace. Equally I send a desire for the most optimal outcome for all souls involved around this current horror threat. These are all the normal human things I send your way as part of our Light Worker mission.
Besides that I have accepted myself to be a little different from others and don’t mind expressing out this way. As always I set my intention to empower my inner knowing and offer a maximum amount of Light to the “outside”, while in this particular case I tune in to you and your current state of being.
Having said that … I receive No disturbing energy or information whatsoever!!! It isn’t that I don’t “get” anything … but I “get” … peace, healing and recovery!
Maybe this is only your higher current vibe and not necessarily the overall vibe for other souls involved. So anyway … you are Good and Grounded as well. Possibly this is part of your personal mission, being activated to hold your calm, peaceful ground in trust with your Higher Self … and yes the Blossom FOL mantra is assisting you to the max. It’s like you are standing in the eye of a tornado 🌪️Take it for what it’s worth … as always. Also read your own “informative” tekst … expressing out to us. Most info is about “old” information … memory and emotions. They belong to your “lower” knowing, while you equally are tuning in to “higher” knowing!
Let the old go, just observe it … it’s done … especially for you and your loved ones. So I challenge you to maximize your loved ones … your peaceful tornado eye … to a maximum Space around YourSelf!! Make yourself as big as you can with every breath you take, while reciting the mantra. Become your center, trust your inner Light.
While you do that … you can’t make yourself “small” simultaneously!! You could focus into your “human small past” and investigate a disorder called PTSD … I from my part however, wouldn’t encourage this direction.
Please keep us informed on each and every detail you are willing to share. The situation with the fire is interesting yes … your feelings, thoughts, sensations and any and all process around them are the prime element and focus for our prayers, love and compassion 💞💕💓🌈
Love you Catherine … you can do this 💦🌦️☁️🌨️🌧️💧🌈
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That’s so interesting, Ralph, because I just kind of roll my eyes at myself with the PTSD. It’s yet another label that has been put upon us and do I want to accept it? No.
Your tuning in and getting peace and calm is accurate. It helps because I think that fire is under control already. It’s really hazy out there but no big pyrocumulous clouds anywhere on the horizon. (Not sure of spelling on that…)
I feel such a special connection with you, Ralph, and your tuning in and wrapping your thoughts around me and our situation here is very, very appreciated. I feel the love.
It’s interesting about the word tranquility. This morning I was thinking, what can I do to best serve myself and all today? And I just repeated the words tranquility, calm, peace, over and over. I don’t use the word tranquility in my mantras but it really fits and I’m so glad Julien brought it up yesterday, and you again today.
Also as part of my stepping out of lower, smaller self, I asked myself, what can I do to be helpful today? To myself and others. And that was immediately calming. Just taking the focus off the worry.
Today is supposed to be the worst as far as heat and potential wind. I’ll keep visualizing dampness and calm and tranquility.🌨💦
Love,
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Thanks for these nice words Catherine … likewise 💓💕💞😘
Also I think “knowing” myself best … you and all around here help me to gain trust in me and Self. So in a sense you offer me an opportunity to (re-)discover myself and formerly hidden abilities.
Even so I guess it takes two to tango … don’t know if my “tuning in” works on everyone or all situations. I’ll keep believing though, while equally practicing strength and courage.
I have noticed something else … more and more people are starting to speak out from their intuition, which is a marvelous development. Anyway, glad you are in an upwards feeling and sensation again and California is right behind you hahahaha 🤣😉
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Thinking of you Catherine, all last night and this morning. I can feel your distress. Hang in there girl. You’ve got friends here with great understanding, compassion and love. Plus you are surrounded by guides and angels and helpers and friends from the other side. Just hang in there, please. Breathe deeply and go into periods of meditation for solace and rest. We’ll keep sending you lots of good thoughts and prayers.
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Hello dear friends, I’m happy to report that all of my panic and worry has panned out to a big fat nothing, at least at the moment. And that’s just the way I like it! As of late last night they had halted the forward progress of the Casitas fire. I haven’t checked Noozhawk (local online newspaper and best source of information) this morning and I kind of don’t want to, actually. It would just be a trigger if there is something going on.
So I’ve been a combination of Chicken Little saying the sky is falling, and the boy who cried wolf, seeing the big bad ravaging beast on the edge of the forest when nothing is there.
Ralph had great words of wisdom and advice about, that was then, this is now…My past is my past…and now I’m thinking, not only that, do I really want to call myself a PTSD “survivor”?
I had wanted to give this thread some background about why am the way I am about this and I think that has served as a kind of catharsis or purge. Thank you for being in the range of my spewing and being so accepting, loving, and supporting.
So as of today, nothing really to report. And I hope I have nothing further to report.🙏
Love,
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Hi Catherine and friends,
Tranquility sure is a nice Higher feeling and “operating base” in my opinion! I find it easy to keep flowing because it feels very soothing to me.
I’ve been regularly sending it your way, as well as moist and rainy energies to your area, these last days. I’m not that used to this kind of “energetic” sharing, so you are providing me with some very pertinent practice through your sharing and openness here… Thank you!I’m really glad to know everything’s fine on your end and that you feel this experience is being of service to you.
I wouldn’t recommend the PTSD-“self-labeling” either, as it may increase and crystallize your focus on it. The “emotional signature” that you feel in relation to it is probably sufficient for most spiritual purposes, without densifying it further.
However, I’ve had few experiences I’d be tempted to categorize this way in my life, so I don’t really know…It’s funny, what I’m learning about the merry go round of repeat emotions right now. In a literal sense, even though they are “energy” rather than, say, a two-by-four, they physically impact me in real life.
I totally agree with this, repeat emotions (and thoughts) can feel a lot more real than anything physical in some cases. After all, we hold them a lot closer to ourselves than most other things.
It’s really no surprise that it sometimes takes great dedication to clear and release them… However, in my opinion, there are few things more liberating to experience than when such a “personal construct” evaporates! My associated imagery is often that of a dense cloud finally dissolving in flowing rainbow Light as I let go of the illusory “wall” I kept around it ⛅Now you got me really interested in reading your article about not grasping! 😄
I’ve also been writing some stuff about this lately. It may take a while because of my focus on exams, although it’s not very intense this year 🤭 I’m much more interested in experiencing my ongoing “flowing” state than in focusing on (or should I say obsessing about? ^^) mathematical physics, for once… and what a pleasant change that is!I hope everything will turn out fine for you and yours and will keep expressing that intent! 🙏 Take care.
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I really love all interaction in this thread. So I guess we have to thank you for that Catherine hahahaha 😂 … also laughing is much more easy when things actually have recovered or turn optimistic.
Anyway … I notice from a distance that the really interesting compassion here sort of always starts with someone “opening up” or asking for “help or support”.
So I in sense hope we keep continuing “trusting, expressing and interacting” this way. Feels like a true 5D thing to do 😉😘
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I’m overwhelmed by all your wonderful words, all of you. In a good way.
Been kind of in a quiet recovery mood today. I couldn’t even get too upset at the idiots still wearing masks outdoors now that CA has “opened up” (ha! Not hardly, there’s still so many restrictions…and I eagerly await 🤪 the vaccine passport rollout so I can’t fudge and say “of course I’ve had a vaccine!” They’ll be, “Papers, please…” 🙄)
Idiots because they’re either not vaccinated, and are obeying moronic rules to mask up still…or they’re vaxxed but still worried…or, sadly, they now believe that a mask makes them “safe” and they’ll keep wearing one pretty much forever.
Yep, I’m still working on compassion and acceptance for all, reminding myself, it’s all a mirror anyway.
Love,
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So just returned from my semi annual dentist routine. I knew it would be a “stupid madness” experience and surrounding … but it isn’t mine! I am just an observer passing by … “they” need to live and work in this horror world, while actually thinking and being convinced nonetheless they are “right”.
Not my place to “actively or verbally” confront them. This is “my way” based on the questions I asked myself.
Whenever there should come a time of renewed “apartheid” based on diversion between vaccinated and not … I already decided I will saw a “yellow Jew star” on one of those masks and will walk into any location where they require this new “apartheid” (which is a Dutch word by the way … not to proud on this invention or the slavery history my forefathers had).
You see if it ever comes this far, I would use their own warfare back on “them” in passive resistance.
Then again I truly hope we don’t need to go there.In the meantime I am more than happy to hold my peace, avoid any confrontation and do my Light work in plain “hidden” site.
Still to funny to wears a mask 😷 at the dentist, where the next minute they go more near “into me” than anyone else hahahaha 😂 … What a crazy world.
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Oh goodness, talk about synchronicity. I went to the dentist on June 17 and you’ll see my related post on the blog tomorrow.
I didn’t realize apartheid was a Dutch word.
I guess it would be better to have the mark on a mask than tattooed on our foreheads like the scarlet letter. I suppose it would have to be a scarlet U for “unvaccinated”? Let’s check with the spirit of Nathaniel Hawthorne.🤓
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Wow …. this was sooooooo funny 😂😂😂😂
Someone said, “You don’t need to take my temperature. I don’t have a fever, I don’t have a disease, I’m not sick.”
Whoa! Did that come out of my mouth? Since there wasn’t anyone else in the waiting room, apparently so.
Thanks Catherine 🙏
Who says ascension can’t be a funny … Uhhh Light experience 🤭😘😉
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Hello Catherine,
How lovely to read your current “victory” in this most recent post. You write in a beautiful poetic way, what appears to Be/have been … a life long “challenge”.
Possibly you “sneaked” through your “door” obstacle as well … just as many light workers currently appear to be doing. I would love to hear more … if and when you are ready to “share … express” your inner self with … us, your outer part.😉😘💞💓💕🌈
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Thanks Catherine for expressing.
Or so I have heard; I don’t personally know. I neither completely believe nor disbelieve information from any source—non-mainstream or mainstream.
Unless I have a direct way of assessing validity, how can I say with absolute certainty that anything is true? Or false?
Now you start to actually “see” what you hold in your mental body … as a subset of All awareness. Perfect. This is only possible to neutrally observe, ones you passed a marker to distance yourself from past chosen “truths” … claiming and needing to defend them … you allowed Acceptance from a state of Oneness, neutrality and peace.
If I’d never come across mainstream alternatives, my view would no doubt be similar to theirs. From that standpoint, empathy is easy and natural.
This is called Knowing … because you remember!! However, you hold multiple possible versions of truth and perception … while many others claim to only one … defending ground, status and ego with all their might.
You see how you are more powerful by stepping into neutral being and feeling genuine love for self, past self, collective self … from a position of Knowing to be (part of) One.
It becomes easier, doesn’t it? 🤭😉😘
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You see how you are more powerful by stepping into neutral being and feeling genuine love for self, past self, collective self … from a position of Knowing to be (part of) One.
It becomes easier, doesn’t it? 🤭😉😘
I hope it becomes easier, Ralph! I’m so grateful we have the forum to air our puzzlements and discoveries. 🤔😁
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Yes Catherine … it becomes easier!! Why? Because you figured out How to “drive” this life experience in a different manner.
You used the analogy of the horse race … I use “driving” here. You have upgraded your former Ford T into a UFO Rolls Royce variant 😂
None of those two are accurate for All you are … but they represent a comparison as to What you can do and How you can “steer” it. So the first thing you did … quite recently I presume … is actually “see, notice, become aware” of How you were “driving” life! You where driving it as a “human” trying to approach a “soul’s” memory … until you didn’t!!
When you stopped holding the “human T model” as the core interface … you allowed yourself to fly … and more importantly “look” at yourself, your self awareness, past and present, inner and outer and All Feelings and memory thereof “differently”.
Since you remember “how” you did this “awareness change” … you can do it again … and again … limitless times! Ohh hello “end of time” … hello actual present Now! You (K)Now … or … I AM
You are an alchemist. You transmute Light into Love back and forth. Ones you know Who you are and let go of old … you start to figure out How to “drive” the New.
This new isn’t actually new, but the old … very old … without the limitations of a self constructed model (T hahahaha 😂).Keep expressing dear Catherine. We are growing this awareness far beyond this forum … and we become ever more pure, solid, crystal, strong, aligned Light … awareness and radiate out/in(tension) 💓💕💞🌈😘
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Hello Catherine,
How to start … what I already feel I like to express? Let’s do it one step, one authentic step at a time … starting with the most direct one.
Why don’t you ask our help? … I am of course talking about today’s article.
Ok, this sounds like you are doing something wrong … which isn’t the case nor my intention!! So allow me to “explain” a little.
You know by now, how I express myself and what I am after, for me and everybody else. So again … I tune in … to the energy and the vibrations behind the words. Equally I hold the “image” of the person in mind/heart. We have developed a connection, just as I have with many others here.
Now, I know a large part of you is very happy with your current “position” as an editor in the blog. I am really happy for you and I always adore your honest personal articles!
However … there is a big difference between posting there and here. You should know … how it is different and why it is different. If you don’t … or others reading here too, don’t … I let you ponder about it.Anyway, back to the peace/pain article today. Beyond all the wording … it “holds” an energy … “my problem, my responsibility, don’t want to bother others to much with it, but can’t deny my daily reality either” … vibration.
It doesn’t matter, if you agree with my wordings or perception … just try to shine some “different new” light onto it. Next step …
So I … and strongly get the impression, you too … believe everything happens for a reason! So yes, the pain serves a purpose other than … liking to hurt you and be in a lower dark life enjoyment or punishment all the time.
My guess first of all is … get your attention. It’s a signal from your Higher Creator Self. So what is it signalling about? Emotions you say and peace! Perfect!! You figured this out and you appear to be onto something currently with the Emotion Code, very good.
However Catherine, we are connected here for a while and no one can Be here, while still in a position of hiding. We see, feel and sense each other here in this very remarkable place. So I noticed your “comments and your emotions” and adore your true heart and authenticity!!!
I also noticed, when you got “emotional” … and to pinpoint it to an “observation” … it is always when someone here is assisted, helped and “we all” managed to change the situation into an improved one … collectively.
This requires one major facet though … asking and opening up! The opening up part you do frequently when expressing yourself here and on the blog. It’s the asking part that is on a different level though.
You did do some asking, when you started this thread. You allowed yourself to step out of a “moderator role”. Others here, picked up on this immediately!
You my dear possibly have the hardest task … “allowing yourself to be vulnerable and be helped”!
This is a frequency Catherine within “appreciation, gratitude” but also within “acceptance and worthiness”. Very, very hard lessons indeed for a giver. You like to help rather than be helped. Maybe you are close to Pat’s obstacle of “trust”, but I rather think in your case it’s closer to “pride” (sorry 🥺).Maybe I am totally wrong about the whole observation … this doesn’t change anything to the fact I like to assist and help those I care for. My intention is to help you and everyone else to help yourself, empower yourself … always.
If I can “show” anyone a blind spot they themselves can’t see beyond … I’d rather be wrong in trying, than silence in passive security.
Just like with Pat and everyone else … ask yourself the question “What is my lesson?”
You will always get an answer that serves you!!! Even if it’s something “stupid” as … the pain is preventing you to “run” through life. Then it least you have your first answer and you ask again.
You already did all of this and it made you the lovely person you are today.Ask and you shall receive! …
I already sent you unconditional Love, Light, healing and courage Catherine. Just like many times before in this forum … I repeat,
I dare you to accept it … as much as you can.Love you … and sorry for this very unexpected post. 💕💞💓🌈🥰
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Ralph, no need to be sorry! It’s a lovely post, thank you.
I already know I have a difficult time asking for anything and also receiving anything, and I’m not actively “working” on improving it.
Regardless, I appreciate the reminder that it’s one of my blind spots, as you so aptly call it, and will see what rises up to the surface next with the reminder.
And thank you so much for your unconditional offerings of love and light and healing and courage. I will endeavor to be open to receive!
Love,
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Hi Catherine,
Thank you for receiving this post .. as I intended it. So allow me to express myself in relation to this, without to much attention to you this time hahahahaha 😂😉
I will tell you and everyone visiting here, how I felt … since this post yesterday. The feeling was one of “insecurity”! Why? Not so much about my intention, but because of Love for me as self and the larger Self … I was expressing at (more precise you Catherine, but also the forum and my part in it). I didn’t want to destroy something, but equally wanted to grow, improve and enhance.
Two parts are important to emphasize. One is free will and the other is memory. The free will part was “troubling” me, because I knew in a sense you were not asking for advice or comment in particular (that’s why you posted on the blog and not here). So I felt insecure about my “action” … not my intention.
The other is memory! How is memory related to “insecurity”? Very simple … all I see and/or feel with others is memory of self. So I can only recognize something if I feel it as memory of passed self! Therefore, the memory always allows a lesson for both the transmitter as well as the receiver.
Anyway, that’s what I liked to “open up” about myself … to acknowledge and for others to know.
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After this … in the night … I received a major clarity around this very event. This is related to this situation and all kind of “issues or pain” we experience as humans.
It all comes down to Oneness and Being Whole!
You see, when your awareness changes … All has to change with it … because all is One. As we are ever more shifting towards collective consciousness, we should approach “former perception” differently too. Ascension can only flow with and as part of descension (higher awareness flowing in and transmute lower in … flowing out, being neutralized, vaporized, eliminated).
So where we in past times, thought of an issue as a sole individual and personal obstacle … it possibly never was!!
You know how your body holds all fractals of the whole!? Like the meridians on your hands and feet, but also your ear shells and many many others parts of your body. With most certain the heart as the Highest connection to the All … in the universe and beyond.So wouldn’t it make sense, that the parts in our body that are out of alignment, in dis-ease aren’t only a representation of a single person’s health!?
And therefore, with new advanced awareness shouldn’t we try to heal the whole differently?
Maybe all people on earth carry a part of the whole dis-ease? I think we should try to help ourselves and others to assist in … opening up, expressing out and allow healing to flow in.
Anyway, thanks again for allowing me to express myself 💕💞💓🌈🙏
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I love this, Ralph! Healing the whole, not a “part” (apart).
So wouldn’t it make sense, that the parts in our body that are out of alignment, in dis-ease aren’t only a representation of a single person’s health!?
And therefore, with new advanced awareness shouldn’t we try to heal the whole differently?
Maybe all people on earth carry a part of the whole dis-ease? I think we should try to help ourselves and others to assist in … opening up, expressing out and allow healing to flow in.
One thing Dr. Peebles has told me more than once is to not separate out the “bad, painful” area for special consideration, but to always be mindful of the health and well-being of the entire body. In effect, to not “scold” the hurting part and act as if it ruins the entire body. Focus on what’s working well, not what isn’t.
Much food for thought as always, thank you, my dear friend. 😻
Love,
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You are most welcome Catherine,
I always intuitively felt “my bodies” (mental, emotional, etherical, physical and spiritual) are centered around my Light core, which is Love.
So … I AM … as One in the center of All.With that knowledge you can visualize “your whole ‘reality’ awareness” holds a single representation of the world, the universe … and is surrounded by “others” doing the same … creating the collective set of universes … and as such the Multi-verse Being we are from a Higher Awareness.
Anyway, not the average common understanding. But more importantly is if we as human collective accept a part of this awareness, we could heal ourselves differently … Becoming the Whole we Are … merge as One!
Equally it would help a lot of people to stop looking “only” inside the individual to solve an issue, a pain, disease or an emotional conflict in their “lower” self image.
Wonder what “others” in this forum sense, feel or think 🤔??
Much love 💕💞💓🌈🙏
Ralph
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Focus on what’s working well, not what isn’t.
Maybe people now understand why I developed an “allergy” against the continual focus on cabal and deep state.
To me … although perfectly sound for people just awakening … gives to much “focus” to one side … the “bad” side, while the self looking, observing and standing on the “other” side of it … claims their truth, being the “good” side of Light.
There is no good side of Light!!
So how do we “awakened” light workers do expect to “show” others, if even we can’t step away from this!?
I know everyone is on their path and feeling their current and next step, but still it doesn’t make sense to me if anyone considering themselves as spiritual and light worker … keeps pointing out “bad”!Thanks for allowing me to express myself … once more on this subject hahahahaha 😅🤭😂
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Hi Ralph, just catching up on forum…I like your posts here.
I suspect many of us go in and out of caring what the cabal is doing. If it’s right in my face, like a new lockdown, I’ll notice! Otherwise I try to focus on what I can do or change myself, or best yet, just BE!
Writing about Reiki last week I remembered what peaceful (although at times peculiar) times those were. It’s a great way to just “be” and also be in the energy of receiving, which I also benefit from practicing. So I’ve started doing Reiki again.
Hearing Alex and Lynn discuss Reiki also gave me a nudge.
Forum folks—helpful, even unintentionally!😁👏
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I’m feeling very sad and weary. I can’t seem to feel happy about any good news that I read about the alliance movements, or people rising up to take back their freedom. I seem to be deeply depressed. I’ve lost all motivation to do anything of a spiritual nature, like reiki or meditation. Do you have any ideas for how I can feel hopeful for the future again? I can’t seem to fully believe in what’s going on in the world, not since the last time we all suffered a huge blow in January. I was feeling suicidal at one point because of the inauguration. I don’t want to feel that pain again.
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Sounds like you are depressed, indeed, Alex, I’m so sorry.
I’m finding much emotional volatility in myself. I hope, and imagine, that you’re also roller-coaster-y and this is the downswing part…
I recall you’ve said you don’t like to get outside. But I’m going to suggest it anyway.
Walk around the block if the weather is bearable. Just one block. Maybe with Raven? Do you have differing work schedules so he’s not there now?…
Anyway. Move your body, in whatever way you can. You may not feel like moving, but it’s a gift to yourself.
Good luck with moving your body and moving your mood.
Hugs,
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Thank you for offering your ideas. Maybe when it gets cooler I’ll start going on walks with Raven. I overheat easily and it’s still summer. Also, I’m experiencing tendonitis in my achilles tendons, that’s been going on since February. I finally got it checked out by a doctor, and they were going to connect me to a podiatrist. The pandemic has been making me very nervous to go to the doctor, especially now that doctors keep asking their patients if they have gotten vaccinated. I don’t know if I should be walking right now until a doctor takes a closer look at my heels.
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Great on the podiatrist! I’ve gone to them off and on for decades. Very helpful in my experience.
If they ask if you’re vaxxed, a simple “I haven’t gotten it and I’m not interested in getting it,” repeated as often as needed, should work. You need not explain ANYTHING. Feel free to direct them to America’s Frontline Doctors if they’re pushy.
I do understand wanting to avoid unpleasantness…but it’s still your choice, remember.
Go to TheHealthyAmerican.com to fortify yourself about your rights beforehand, if needed.
Good luck!
Xo 💓💞🌈💞💓
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Hi Alex,
Seems like you found some “lower debris” emotions inside yourself and your physical body. Do you “allow yourself” to feel “less high”? I deliberately choose “less high” rather than “bad” … because we have free will to define our inner emotions, thoughts and feelings any way we like to … they are all Love.
So if I allow myself to be attracted to something “supposedly bad” for me or others, what am I actually doing? I am creating within the electromagnetic fields of thought and bodies.
You have shifted a lot lately. Do you allow yourself to have progressed? For if you do … you ones did hold “lower” awareness … on which you acted both In and Out.
A memory of past “lower” in a dream or awake state .. needs to flow. Allow yourself to flow. You are an energy Being. You are movement. Move out of “self judgement” … this only grounds in victimhood and therefore requires perpetrators.
Reading about the alliance and their outside progress against the cabal elite is a strong part of your past energy. I don’t know if you help yourself if you return to these energies.It’s up to you, to study these feelings and show you the way out of the “dark and depressed” ones, still resisting to … go with the flow.
Much love and extra hugs 💕💓💞🌈🙏😘
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Thank you both for your support. I forgot to mention that my mood is definitely a roller coaster right now. Normally I can steer the coaster into higher moods and keep myself there with positivity, but because my entire world is changing too quickly for me to keep up, I have lost my grip on the controls, and the coaster is going through nauseating twists very low to the ground. It seems like the only two emotions that I have easy access to right now are anxiety and depression. It’s a constant struggle to squeeze out any laughter or joy in my day.
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Believe me when I say “Been there .. experienced that” Alex.
Therefore I suggest to temporarily allow to “sit in it”. Accept to Be in a transition that isn’t “funny” … and holds very little positive or laughing energy.
Observe this temporary “state” as a “healing … Whole-ing” state. It’s a lot like “fasting” … it possibly isn’t the “nicest thing to Do” … but it’s the Best … giving “alternatives”.
It’s part of the human experience to sometimes “clean up” inner and outer mess. Just do yourself a favor of not “judging” it as “unworthiness of self … because of how you feel”.
The sooner you allow to be in it … go within the very flow of it … the sooner you will see and feel it pass.
Based on my own “hard” experience.
I’ll send you all the Good “unconditional” stuff 💓💕💞🌈😘
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The newest channeled message from Matthew Ward helped lift my spirits a bit. The part about assistance expanding was especially comforting. It sounded much like what was said in the message that I channeled.
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… and yes the Matthew message is extremely wonderful too. It holds a very high “comforting” energy that transforms a person’s doubt in the direction of hopium … to Be transmuted into Knowing.
Love it💓💞💕🌈🙏
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Sorry about the roller coaster, Alex. The inability to get out of the lows reminds me strongly of clinical depression. Not trying to diagnose, just relating my own experience. I’m not sure I would go this route now, but at the time I did the western medical/psychiatric thing and briefly saw a psychiatrist and took antidepressants for a while. And after a while I tapered off of them and stopped.
Again, just relaying my experience. I have to say the “mechanical“ change effected by the chemical in the antidepressant did help me out of the absolute funk that I was not able to rise from by myself. That was early in my recovery from alcoholism. Depression and alcoholism frequently go together.
Again, not suggesting or diagnosing, just relating what happened and what I did. Overall it was a positive and helpful thing for me to do at that time (this was 25 or 30 years ago) because I do believe the chemical imbalance is real.
There may have been a way to successfully heal my undesired experience with some kind of energy work, but I didn’t know very much about alternative modalities and it was increasingly difficult to do my job so I needed to do something. I had good insurance and that was another incentive to accept the conventional assistance that was available.
Like I said, I am not at all sure I would go that route now!
I realize this is now a couple of days later and your rollercoaster has probably risen and dipped a couple of times. Good luck with the whole ride. I think most of us are experiencing some version of this right now and I am sure you are not alone in it.
Xo💓💞🌈💞💓
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I really appreciate you sharing how you dealt with your own depression. I think my dad was diagnosed with clinical depression at some point; is it hereditary? I have no clue. I have always been very wary of becoming beholden to big pharma through prescription pills. I haven’t even used over-the-counter melatonin for my insomnia until this week, despite having sleep troubles since I was a teen.
I have an addictive personality (I was addicted to video games when I was younger, it helped me escape into more fun worlds), so I try my best to stay away from allopathic medicine. Luckily I never got addicted to weed or alcohol despite having full access to those things. As of right now, I don’t have any interest in marijuana, and I only drink cocktails when I go out to eat at a restaurant. I think what helped me the most to not become addicted to anything besides video games was waking up before I was old enough to indulge in addictive substances or activities. I learned relatively easy (and free!) methods for healing my traumas, so I never used drinking or smoking as a crutch.
It’s inspiring to see that you have found a happy place after going through so much though, it makes me feel hopeful about my health situation. I am going to start getting regular massages, take better care of my sleep routine, get new custom orthotics and new work shoes, and start reading that book about eating that you recommended.
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Hi Catherine,
Went back and looked for this thread. Reading your recent post directly reminded me of this “time”. I also thought to myself “How peculiar … why is she having this similar experience??” … as I somehow got the impression, you passed this lesson!?
Anyway, can’t really answer that. Maybe in “future time” we’ll have a better understanding about that.
Now I wasn’t going to write about this … until I had this connection in there
We love connecting with the consciousness of the ant there on Earth, and while the consciousness of the ant may not be as fascinating as human consciousness, it is still an aspect of Source and an aspect of ourselves.
That’s when I got “confused”. You see … if there is “too much coincidence” … I can’t help myself, but to give it extra attention and focus.
Still don’t know currently, but at least it got me writing this post. Maybe the post triggers something or someone and we get a new energy flow from there??!
Anyway, my dear friend. Good luck with observing and transmuting your current “fire anxieties”. I’ll send you courage, strength, hugs and much Light 💓💞💕🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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As I said before Catherine, I do like to tune your “temperature” whenever I read your posts. You are few of many Lightworkers I can interact with. That alone is a huge support my dear friend 🥰
Reading …
… this I had two moments. The first was this …
“An inability to choose; wavering back and forth between one choice and another. Stems from distrust of the self or doubting the ability to make a good decision.”
and the second one at the end …
Until I’ve rooted out any embedded reasons for drifting about without accomplishing much, I don’t think I can determine the truth here.
I would like to ask a question?
Do you consider your Mental self “higher” than your Emotional self?? Or maybe in a linear fashion … do you believe your Thoughts first and your Feelings second?? Does one trigger the other?Now allow me to go a little deeper on this … to the phenomenon of truth. Is truth a Mental concept? Can something only be true if the “self exploring and observing” becomes aware and understands?
Because this is the main human understanding … it’s a Mental one … and stands on itself, alone and separated from the rest of existence!
This is Not True Catherine 😘🙏
Separation, duality, many, time … are concepts and they exist for a reason. They all enable us to observe and experience the One … because the One can’t observe itself without movement out of the One and needs therefore the All to Be aware! So both the Being as well as the Becoming are states within the I or the Highest Self.
Anyway, back to you and the article. You “take on a human position” to explore and understand … the many feelings in the body. You “do” that from a mental state of observation, holding a concept of perception … your Mental truth … and try to explain and possibly heal “another lower part” of you.
In “doing so” you observe, identify and label “what you feel and experience”.
Again this is the “human” approach. We try to “control and alter” the part “outside, lower and separated” from us.
What we Lightworkers have learned and are still mastering is the intelligence of the heart. We learn to align differently our awareness fields and balance our electro magnetic chakra field.
That is also why we were guided into meditation … not for the practice of meditation itself … but to shift into our heart center and our Being, rather than our constant manipulated Becoming. We learned to explore the Now … connect to our True core.
So what we Lightworkers learned is to “alter our mind” and our “lower mind self” rather than the “outside World and others”.
It is the same with our body. Humans hold false concepts of cures and medicine to fix the physical body … or any “part” in it. We have developed many “specialists” in all kind of areas having “knowledge soled as knowing” and claiming all humans are identical and science and anatomy is king.
This is all part of the Matrix construct.
Lightworkers are on the path of exploring the Feeling first and adjust the “believe” in the Mental awareness of all second. That’s our mission, that is the path out of the matrix, out of false narratives of separation … into Oneness.
My dear friend, your Feelings are your Higher Awareness in Truth. Your mental interpretation and understanding is part of your observation and creation.
When we learn to honor our Feelings for what they are, what they tell us, what they hold in knowing and in memory … then we can start to “fix and cure” the Mental understanding of us. We need to align the Mental according to the Emotional Truth … Not the other way around.
Then we will also automatically Be in an Inside-Out awareness and energy field. Then we also are returned to our Now, the beginning of our time/space and our Core Source connection … our Soul. Spreading out all across the Universe.
Thank you for inspiring me again Catherine 🙏😘💕💞💓🌈🙏
Love Ralph
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I had a nice “clarity” afterwards the upper message. Sort of an overview as to connect and interpret as human beings.
I am the Light ~ (K)Now your Feelings
I am the Love ~ Compass your Thoughts
I am the Truth ~ Observe your Be-Li(e)ves
I AM ~ Be LiveLove 💕😘🤗
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I like to give you something Catherine,
A reflection of my personal observation … Light!? Now while I’m at it, I immediately receive some clarity about Love. Because what I am about to give you (still in progress … be patient) … can only be “felt as love” when the receiving party, considers it as valuable! … if it is seen as uplifting and a complement to the whole this self already contains … if it is openly received in gratitude! 💓
Ok, that wasn’t planned but just occurred.
Back to the initial gift and intention. What I want to “give you” is the gratitude on my part … for the progress you are making!! I can tell from your posts and what your expressions hold … there is a change going on (for quite some time).
I want to thank you for that, because it warms my heart to see and feel progress. On the front of this blog, there are some people expressing their “expanded self awareness” … and go in circles, without really have the courage or the empowerment to go into self observation and self “correction”. That’s why I see and feel how they are stuck, which isn’t very uplifting to observe from my personal point of desire.
You my dear friend … currently are the exception. You are changing … and your expressions and their energies with it.
Thank you so much 💞💕💓🌈🙏😘
In gratitude Ralph
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Wow, Ralph, I’m teary with gratitude. I wholly receive and appreciate your words, your love, your beingness. And your understanding of my process, which I think you, as an “outsider,” actually see more clearly than I do.
Thank you so very much.
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Thanks Catherine, to truly feel my honest heartfelt gratitude and appreciation. 💞💕💓🌈🙏😘
I do have an advantage over you as a self. I only observe you in pieces and moments of expression! You see and feel yourself all the time as a full creator being.
However, because you write and express about You and your all observations, teachings, feelings and learning … to become more! … this is the part I am able to see and feel.
I can therefore more easily see the “grass grow” … because to me you are fragmented. I glue the missing pieces together myself, to make a whole image of the you … on the other side of your own expressions.
Therefore you are part actually you, part sec expressing you, part me observing you and part me gluing you together 😂😂😅
Now the last parts … observing and gluing together, that is the part where the “universal human” is born. Because if you Know … how much the self is In the “other”, than people start waking up for true.
It’s a choice to just glue others together on a mental interpretation level … or go deeper into feeling, appreciating, admiring and actually loving the “other as part of the self”.
Love you 💓💕💞🌈🙏😘
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What a wonderful article Catherine, thank you for expressing and feeling! I loved the whole experience of “sadness” you described around the murder. How you relate to it … being empathic … with all involved!
How you describe your observations of your feelings and notice how you like to resist them. How you normally declare them “trauma”. This article perfectly describes our normal human “social victim expected behavior”.
But you my dear friend … are observing yourself Being with the feelings!! You are aware of “them” being your part of the creation … for you!!
I congratulate and applause you my dear 🙏👏👏🥰
You have evolved beyond the collective normal “sympathy expectations” from all humans around you … currently physically and in (perceived) past time.
I don’t know if you can “step back” from what you have written AS truly felt, even more … now??
But if you could and would like to … please read your article again? Now don’t read it as a writer! Don’t even read it as a true journal and representation of what you know you felt.
Try to read it as a “spiritual student”! What do you see? From what position, do you observe it?
If you allow yourself to openly look back, you could see … you are observing first from a “human individual” perspective. Secondly you are observing from the actual center of the creation itself … the One … who has left her physical body!
Thirdly, you semi automatically attach … involuntarily and against her will to it! This is because of the “normal collective” awareness around … death in general.Now the words … death, murder and suicide … are All drenched in grief, victimhood, injustice and pain. They are in fact “lower emotional” physical stored memory!
You my dear friend, are in the process of “accepting” what I state here. You have evolved so much, to actually Know this to be true and allow this “higher” understanding to Become part of the New you … and the New pair of eyes to look into the World and yourself … Now and in the future.
You could, as a spiritual student … even start to see this and similar “future” experiences … as a gift for you to clear, feel and observe differently!
What you did, was perfect!! You stayed with your feelings and feel them … Not suppress them or mentally “command and control” them … what they should be and how you should “feel” them!
Your mental self can’t define your feelings … they are one … and should be love! If they don’t feel like love … you are most probably interpreting something “wrong”, clearing or learning.
This was a most interesting observation Catherine, thank you so much for your service 💕💞💓🌈🙏😘
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Gosh, Ralph, that’s so nice, can I quote you in the Amazon review? 🤣
Seriously…thank you so much for seeing me, my friend. More clearly than I see myself.
Funny you should suggest I look at this article as a “spiritual student.” Not the writer or editor, creating and polishing the prose.
I am probably going to take a break from posting for a few days because I, the writer, am missing the human / spiritual experience of reading my own words. I move on to writing the next article before I’ve absorbed what I just posted.
You perfectly expressed why I want to take a break. I hadn’t analyzed it, just knew I wanted to “not see me on the blog” for a few days.
So, thank you!😘🥰🙏
Xo💓💞🌈💞💓
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Hi Catherine,
Was having a short time off the grid myself. Glad you take the “spiritual student” observation in gratitude and consideration. I do like your posts on the blog a lot … they are showing people to look different at things. As I told you before … you are progressing, you are learning to look, think and feel differently. You are teaching without necessarily, a “dark side” to show your “inner light”.
Maybe you aren’t always consciously aware of it, because you are an inspired and talented writer, willing to present a piece of art … but in this light, in this intent … you and your creation at work carry an energy without an agenda … very close to simply unconditionally offering and expressing.
Surely, others will pick up this energy too. So probably best to write, absorb and re-read your work for study and learning. I always re-read and learn from my own writings too.
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Something else I observed and maybe you or others too … at times I’m sort of charged with energy and awareness … that has build inside like a Vulcano … because it is looking for a way out. It needs to be expressed. Once it has, my inner peace and calm returns.
Don’t know who ever it is meant for reading, but … I had to release it, see it, observe it, love it into creation. It isn’t as explosive as a sneeze, but the overall effect on my inner comfort is often very similar.
Anyway, thank you all for being on this most fascinating spiritual journey … I’m truly glad we can help and support each other here 😜💞💕🌈🙏😘
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Hi Catherine,
As always I enjoy reading your posts. This one today “confused me”. What is it about? I don’t understand if this is … you describing your pondering and awareness?? … or you allow yourself to slide into a position, as to not “understanding where and how to connect to spirit”, in order to write an artistic awareness wake up?
My connections with you are much “higher” than what you express in this article. So that’s why I am confused … is this you truly wondering and pondering? .. or you desiring to be an artistic writer and spiritual wayshower?
Are the questions in this article real? or do you use them as an example, while knowing the answers?
You see … in one version I would be gladly willing to offer some personal clarity, while in the other version I could more easily passively observe you … knowing you aren’t “really” asking … only expressing.
Much love and hugs 💞💕💓🌈🙏😘
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Interesting, Ralph! The questions are absolutely real, not made up as an exercise.
The article is a snapshot of a mood, and as a snapshot, is valid at that moment.
Writing about something usually changes my understanding of it. I “knew” more after finishing the article than I did before I started writing it.
All is still evolving. I change from moment to moment in my certainty about anything or everything.
Barring absolute proof of Spirit, i.e., tangible physical EVIDENCE, wavering in belief is my natural state of being. I’m fine with the need to question and vacillate. I don’t think I’d be interested in writing anything if I “knew with 100% certainty” everything about a chosen topic.
It’d be like already knowing what’s behind the 3 doors on Let’s Make a Deal. No suspense, no excitement in making the choice. “Oh, I already knew what’s behind Door Number 2, Monty, but for the audience, I pretended.”
In some sense, OF COURSE I already “know everything,” as do we all. We’re pretending for our audience of one, ourselves, that we DON’T know.
Because I doubt we’re here just to confirm what our Higher Self already knows. Where would be the fun in that? I write to learn myself, here and now. There’s always more to find out when I pretend I’m clueless on all the answers. I have to feel genuinely clueless for this to work, so I actually welcome the confusion, on some level. 😻
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Thank you for clearing this to me Catherine 🥰😘🙏
Writing about something usually changes my understanding of it. I “knew” more after finishing the article than I did before I started writing it.
Likewise here! But I still have two major “aspects” to this, I guess. One is the “Steve Beckow” way hahahahaha (sorry Steve, with the utmost respect) … and there is another one.
The Steve method is writing about something “you know about as knowledge or did happen and you became aware of” (for lack of a better definition).
The other method is you “sense a knowing, but use the writing as guidance to express in and of itself”. This writing is closer to the now and your inner guides, while the previous “Steve” one is mostly based around a topic, an agenda or past linear time.
I do flow myself in between these writing styles. Sometimes I just want to write something to “observe and learn from” for myself. The writing allows me to express and mirror in one.
But there is something else I notice … since I started or better allowed myself … to tune into energy and become aware of the awareness behind them. Nowadays I sense for example the “extremes” between “asking and telling” energy. And I tell you something else, many write in a semi asking manner … but are actually telling!
Never earlier in my life I noticed this, as I fell for the meaning of the words. I did notice inconsistencies between words and body language, but not a sec the language’s energy.
What you can tell and sense is if people are really creating a “void” in between their expressing. If they truly do … they are asking and allow answers to openly come and flow towards them. This can happen in the same post and then you notice it goes full circle … leaving a balanced reading experience and neutral energy.
When the energy is “pulling and closed minded”, people are often in a telling energy. This energy isn’t open to receive anything other than the current truth they protect. It doesn’t matter how many asking sentences they put in between the writing, because they work backwards … they start in the mind with the message they hold and want to “teach or sell” and from there they drop a question as to introduce the answer they already had!
Once you see this phenomenon, you can’t unsee it. Better yet is feel it, because when you allow yourself to learn that … a totally new world opens up. A world much more simple in terms of truth.
Anyway Catherine, as always … thank you for your open and honest writings and responses. I guess when you really would be asking something about spirit, you wouldn’t ask it on a closer blog anyway hahahahaha 😜😂😅😄😘
Much Love 💕💓💞🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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Wow, Ralph, very insightful.
Did I already write here about the difference between showing and telling? I can’t remember. Anyway it’s just very interesting that you’re using that terminology.
All I know is that when an article is uncovering something that needs to be uncovered or wants to be expressed, it feels a certain way to me. Sometimes it’s stop and go and a lot of times I have to edit out much of the “telling“ or the part that I already think I know or have some sort of agenda for. And really, if I didn’t have some kind of idea or nudge to begin with, why would I even start writing?
But there is an integrity with what wants to be said. When I am able to step out of the way and allow that which wants to be said to come through, I have very little to do with the outcome personally. It’s really more like being an instrument.
Most of the time whatever I start writing about and have a general idea of what the article might be or where it might be headed, doesn’t turn out where the article goes. It can be disturbing if, as a writer, you have a mental outline or a certain point you want to make. That’s not usually the case with me, I am interested in discovery, not trying to persuade people or solidify a position of some sort. I really do just want to show what / how my real life is because that’s what I want to know about other people. I am giving that which I wish to receive.
I usually feel a bit as if I’m chasing after a helium balloon that’s bobbing just ahead of me and I’m trying to grab the string. If I manage to grab the string and bring the balloon down so I can see what it is, voila! I feel very lucky to discover what’s in the balloon.
Not sure that I’m making sense, tired… It’s fun having these dialogs with you.
Xo💓💞🌈💞💓-
Quote – “Most of the time whatever I start writing about and have a general idea of what the article might be or where it might be headed, doesn’t turn out where the article goes.”
This is exactly what I experience too and to some extent prefer, as I know I am in a flow with my higher creating self … it has become more channeling than constructing. In these cases I learn the most from my own writing too, reading and breathing into it … let it become your new higher expanded ground level.
Quote – “But there is an integrity with what wants to be said. When I am able to step out of the way and allow that which wants to be said to come through, I have very little to do with the outcome personally. It’s really more like being an instrument.”
This actually refers to the same. Why? Because in a sense you are allowing yourself to Be the instrument! You want to learn, you love to be able to be one with your higher intelligent self, you want to receive!!
This is a totally different energy, you as a soul and creator “step into”. This requires a level of surrender. You also know that you can trust this energy to be pure and higher than your “own resisting self”! Why? Because you feel you aren’t controlling, no need for an outcome of perceived or preferred “good” expression.
So if you know this form of creation yourself, you can also recognize similar energy within the creations, expressions of others! Now when you start looking and feeling their creations, expressions too … you feel the “level” their at.
This way, you will not only manage to grasp your own balloon more easy, but also the actual balloons others are creating.
Much love 💕💞💓🌈🙏😘
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Love it when we actually have these interactions Catherine … nowadays I can only find these here in the forum, to some extent with my friend Marc and of course my inner self conversations.
What you describe makes perfect sense to me … and yes in many ways it is the same. I think the most important part is that you as a creator, explorer and observer, have distinguished two variations on both end of duality.
You name them X and Y … and I have observed them Y and Z. I see one creator version mostly performing in a certain style and recognize it and label it as … a Steve style. It matters not. Duality is part of the Holy Trinity … as the appearance between Good and Bad, if observed on the outside! However if you would rise your vibration and Become aware of an In Out, contracting and expanding creation flow … like breathing, than you would see yourself in the center.
So it isn’t a question as to defeat duality itself, but to become aligned with it.
Much Love 💓💕💞🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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I like aligning with duality! If you can’t beat ’em, join ’em…
Funny thing about writing. There’s really nothing good or bad to write about, though I might subjectively label something as one or the other. What matters to me is describing / portraying my perception of whatever-it-is as carefully and clearly as I can.
I’m glad I’ve been doing this so long, I don’t have to be deliberate except during editing, and even that is its own flow. The writing and editing become a seamless process, drifting from one to the other, creating a sparkling gem of truth when complete. Stephen King has eloquently described when to STOP editing. It’s very much an art to know when to put away the red pen.
I like your description of your writing as “more channeling than constructing.” That nails it perfectly. 😻
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I’ve been having some depression recently as here in Erie County, NY, the mask mandate was brought back by our Erie County executive who has always been fearmongering and breaking rules but no one here criticizes him. WNY is a purple area depending on political conditions. I am now channeling my anger in writing to be calm now.
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Thanks Catherine! It’s just another reminder for me to continue channeling. It’s just a reminder that our work is not done. But sometimes I’m doubting things here in the world. I’m reading too much from some right-wingers here in America who think the Christian End Times are here when Revelation was written about the Roman Empire in that time. I think I was also absorbing some of their vibes when they complain about someone who comes from a different background, life style or different religious beliefs.
Also, seeing people I hung out talking about getting booster shots when I am staying away from it. I feel alone some days when most of my family has had at least one shot and I’m the only one that hasn’t (don’t know about anyone else).
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Hi Catherine,
I was a little behind in reading the front of the blog … including your most interesting and lovely posts.
First of all … sorry for the constant hip pain and uncomfort you experience with your human body. It must be exhausting to feel and overcome something that is a constant negative painful reality.
Still, at times I’m guided to listen to my inner voice, intuition, knowing … and freely speak up … offering my truth in honest pure intention. I do have some of these you know, when reading your creations! As they are written in authentic pure observation, they should carry the equal energy as the creator who wrote them!?
As such I can pick up and tune into your beingness and actually see and feel you .
One observation I recognize is the … “beyond expectation role” one. What do I mean with this?
Imagine a character, a role in a play … and not desiring this “part” … as you are more than aware of what is “possible and desirable”. So what happens is, you are mostly in the “desire awareness” of what you expect and want, rather than in experiencing in what is.
I know this because of “doing” the same often. Part of this has been initiated, since I started this spiritual journey and learned to return to my real Self and powers.
Ever since I have desired to alter my world, my body, my self … beyond the normal human reality and acceptation. I will not go into details, but there are plenty.One main part in my “healing creations” … is the transformation … of the existing human body. The most important part here is the “transformation”! It’s the approach of the VW automobile wanting to Become a Ferrari!
In this “transformation healing” approach, there are included some limitations you can’t escape. The most important one is the fact you need to be aware of the parts you like to alter, you don’t like, you want to change and heal into something else!
I hope you start to see the conflict of loving the self … if you are constantly focussing on what it should be! … you are trapped in “Not Being”!
One thing I have learned is surrender and accept. For me this is the only “healing” to be in a state of “whole” with One and the All.
Truth is … I do not Know if my best outcome is a Ferrari! I don’t even Know, if this was the lesson and mission I challenged myself with?
Maybe my True challenge was “discover Who I am … and fully surrender to it … and in such overcome the fear of death”?
So I am in a process as to stop myself contributing to a certain “outcome” for both myself as also this World. Ever since I started this approach I feel relieved, free and in peace.
I can live in the Now and experience life differently. I stopped observing my life, my part or my role as an unwanted, unimportant or undesired one. Since then I started to feed it with the maximum honest appreciation I am daily capable of. That’s it … for Now!
Do I still limit myself as a divine being and all I am capable of!? … I like to believe I am … but I currently hold this Highest Self awareness! … I am authentic in my constant Being Now … and observe the Now and me being in the flow with it, holding my maximum mastered self awareness in the core of my human/world body.
Maybe, you recognize parts of this in your own daily challenge and spiritual mastering?
Much love and appreciation my dear friend 💓💕💞🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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Thank you, Ralph, wonderful observations.
Dr. Peebles more than once said something like, you can’t use the energy of what you don’t want to get what you do want. I can’t use the desire to not have pain as a method to eliminate pain. Apparently that would be using the law of attraction by focusing on what I don’t want and bringing more of it.
I do know that at least one of the keys to being peaceful and in the now is that very simple but very large word, acceptance.
In one sense, I will never “accept“ that pain is normal and I am supposed to be limited and incapable. To me, that’s telling the universe, this is just fine and I’ll stay like this forever.
No no no.
The definition of acceptance that I can accept — ha ha — is more on the level of acknowledging that something is.
I’m not sure that I’m even willing to do that at this point. I’ve spent years knowing that I’ve been diagnosed with arthritis but thinking, “not really.”
I also fully believe that our thinking and our intention can literally change our cells and change our physical reality.
So apparently I’m at a crossroads of acknowledging that at least according to the medical profession, I “have arthritis.“ and at the same time, my response is, “maybe so – for now.”
I hope that all of the difficulties and unpleasantness so many of us are going through are in large part so we appreciate the ease and peacefulness of what is to come. And I don’t mean after death, but after… Something. I’m also assuming that much of it is the final hurrah of balancing our karmic experiences. It’s like it has to be a really big bang to finish it off properly!
At any rate, those are my thoughts at the moment.
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Dear Catherine, thank you again for presenting yourself, your truth and your believes. If you don’t mind, this conversation … I would like to follow up on it?
I also fully believe that our thinking and our intention can literally change our cells and change our physical reality.
This isn’t just a believe … but IS TRUE! What is the difference, between believe and Knowing? … doubt!
You see, Knowing exists in the vibration of BEING … while believing “exists” out of this “area” in the field of Not!
Furthermore, everything that “exists” is created! Therefore, every feeling you are aware of is your creation … if you like it or not. Equally, everything that happens … happens for a reason.
These two “higher truths” allow you to directly connect with your higher self and step into the Now. They also allow you to leave the “separation existence field, or matrix” … thus leave “controlled over, victimhood and powerless”!
So what is quite normal human behavior, is to hold high regards to the medical profession and all “egos” who dwell there. Based on human history and “lower” self awareness and disempowerment of the Self, freely offering to “others” … this has become part of the collective human “accepted” awareness!
So back to you Catherine. You are a mult dimensional Being and create on All levels simultaneously. You create a very strong “No no no”, in combination with a … physical body, in combination with an outside-in … diagnosis of illness, in combination with … spiritual Self awareness, in combination with … self “physical body” healing, in combination with “partly” outer healing and being rescued beings and devices … Med-beds, in combination with inner human doubts.
The result of these part conflicting creations … manifest into an out of alignment field, concentrated into a weak spot in your physical body … resulting in feeling pain.
If I may still offer some personal gained wisdom? Most important is to truly become aware of the spiritual fact that “reality” and “physicality” … are an outcome of creation! Pain is also an outcome, not a cause. The medical profession project their truth, cause and solution on to you!
The “problem” is, you do have the strength to fight their level of truth … but simultaneously lack the faith to fully trust in God, your Higher Self and surrender (which I do many times too, so absolutely no judgement here!)
We are in a situation, where we know we are “swimming” inside water and a current, peddling, struggling to keep our heads above the water. We have difficulty to let go and trust the flow to hold us and bring us to the shore. We have trust issues! We have been in control so long, been the warrior against the outside threat and danger we constantly feel as both the … water, the current and our physical weak body … we can not be unaware of it!
The main reason is we “still” self identify with the body part only … in this creation. If we could also identify with all the other parts, we are aware of … the water, the current and the whole space around the sec human body … we would Know we are the Creator of All, not just the physical human body.
Dr. Peebles is pointing in this direction too. Many of us have been warriors for such a long “time” … stopping fighting feels like giving up, losing and surrendering.
The mind that can think of the problem, isn’t able to truly see the solution.My personal “believe” is the Light Holder is the next advanced level and challenge for every Light Warrior.
Thank you Catherine. I wish you total “Whole-ing” and love and hugs too 💓💕💞🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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In addition to the above. Many of us … love a part of creation … which is perfectly fine. Please allow yourselves when possible … to look beyond the “containers, space, body, circumstances” that define them.
For example … take a book, a story, a movie, a person, a character … you like or possibly even love.
Now ask your own awareness the question … “can the part I love exist on its own? Or does it need the outer parts to actually become?”
A hero can’t exist on it’s own! Just like a rescue operation or a mission!
At one time I held high regards of professions like … doctors, healers, teachers, politicians, journalist, presidents and kings … until I became aware they all need “many subjects” to ultimately become and be in this “admired status”. They need patients, sick people, students and citizens!
Therefore from a creator point of view … many, enable the few to exist! Also, this “reality” can only be constructed in a separation dimension, an outside-in accepted one … by All contributing!
Much love 💞💕💓🌈🙏😘
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HOLY MOSES…
“I”´m being literally PULLED here today… “I” register myself whilst almost being AFRAID of what “I” have to go thru next… only to find an exchange of interesting thoughts/observations/resonances that “I” can hardly follow anymore without getting sucked into it…
“I” am sorry for having to name myself “Beingness” but MY “REAL” NAME was taken from me due to “THE EVENT” that happened to me some +6 yrs ago when “MY” “EGO” WAS ERAZED by showing me “MY OWN GOLDEN BOOK” where my life up to this point was scripted out into every detail.
So “I” have to always “put me in quotes” “FOR REASONS OF CORRECTNESS” at the expense of comming across like a weirdo. “Being Jesus” must have been a piece of cake “compared to this journey”.
“Since connecting here” “I” have reasons to believe “this NDE” is TRULY NOW ENDING SOON.
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Hello “beingness” … welcome to this forum.
I have to say … your post triggers some questionable thoughts on my side. Please don’t get me wrong, this is a place for being authentic and share yourself.
I myself have shared parts here … never shared with others. Still, we are blessed with human individual personality … and our names are a gift and assist us to explore the All from One angle 😇
To my personal understanding … the ego isn’t something you loose, but more a level of vibration and self awareness you leave behind … you upgrade into being in your higher self constantly!?
So I wonder about your introduction here, in the way you did. Possibly you are willing to share more about yourself … from a human ground level of interacting and being? Possibly that will help and assist us the most?
Much love and hugs 💕💞💓🌈🙏😘
Ralph
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