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February 23, 2021 at 5:24 PM #318075
Catherine Viel
ModeratorGreetings, fellow Forum-ers!
This is a thread where you may feel especially free to just speak what’s on your mind, without necessarily expecting responses or dialogues.
Those may happen anyway, we’re an opinionated bunch, aren’t we?😉
I believe the old-fashioned term for this might be Oratory. Also, Soapbox.
This might also be a good thread for your channeled “thoughts” (received wisdom, messages, etc.).
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February 24, 2021 at 5:49 AM #318094
OneRayLove
ParticipantWhat a great idea Catherine 😜😉. Love it. See you all here soon.
Love 💖💞💓
Ralph
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February 24, 2021 at 8:31 PM #318137
Catherine Viel
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February 24, 2021 at 7:28 AM #318101
Lynn Sapp
Participanthmmm maybe I should have put my ‘vent’ here (its in the artists thread I think ) 😀
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February 24, 2021 at 8:31 PM #318136
Catherine Viel
ModeratorYou can put your NEXT vent here.😘
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February 25, 2021 at 5:38 AM #318145
OneRayLove
ParticipantBaggage
Thursday, 25 February 2021.
My dear lovely friends,
Nowadays I seldom plan to write. In this form in which I am writing now, the essay kind of way. For there is a difference, to me at least. These are the moments when I FEEL an inner energy source building up towards EXPRESSION in many various levels.
Sometimes they are the uneasy kind, bugging me to a way of discomfort. We have also the “needy” kind, I am/have learned to transmute nowadays. Then you have the very subtle kind, the intuitive one I sense more like an implosion as they just fill me up. The implosion ones are probably the best kind. Nevertheless I am not picking any one kind consciously.Today I am facing the explosion kind, I just “need” to find this inner voice that’s sort of bugging me, to get out. It wants to get heard, discovered, observed. It wants to come into the field of awareness, get its portion of acknowledgment and existence. It “needs” expression to BECOME realized. It “needs” an exit point to leave through the Individual into the Collective. It feels trapped around False debris and wants to BE seen in its TRUE form, its full honest Light and BEING Loved for its SELF Awareness.
I already feel the tension return into my more desirable flow. It was the upper information as self acknowledgment, that liked to be appreciated for what it is. Now I feel the Love it holds and the Light message it caries. It likes to talk to me and explain, How and Why.
Within Creation we Create as I
We are on “this job, this journey” for so long now, we have forgotten how we actually Create and that we hold many levels of “Creating Power”. The basic ingredient is LOVE, when we would compare it to a recipe or formula. The problem with this simplification is, that we humans experience “separation” as real and therefore have developed a concept of “outside”. For example when we are baking a cake, we DO this using all kinds of ingredients. We go about “constructing” the desired goal or object in a linear Time and sequential Space kind of way. It has become our “nature” to go about “creating” this way, which more accurately is constructing.
We are stuck in this way of automatic construct behaving, because we learned to act and BEHAVE this way.
Why?
Because of “outside” society’s NEED for EXISTENCE.This is incorrect in a way of Higher Truth. However equally correct for REALIZING and actually manifesting the 3th Dimensional “illusion” experience. The 3D itself is CONSTRUCTED as a “SEPARATED” environment within this Universe … the ONE as ALL.
So back to the “Creating Power”. The basic ingredient is LOVE and for our human understanding we add Unconditional (which holds a condition in itself) to distinguish levels of LOVE “VALUE”. Although this is FALSE and therefore NOT TRUE, it holds the essence of CREATION in itself.
By distinguish LOVE as a DUALITY pair Light ~ Love, we CREATED NOT!
The actual and original LOVE, the SUPREME kind, is the BEING SOURCE kind. The “I AM”. This is LOVE, without and before Separation, within Stillness, holding, embracing and LOVING ALL CREATION as ONE.
I AM equals GOD, equals ONE/ALL, equals TRUTH/NOW.
This is today’s Truth, knocking at my awareness door. All LOVE flows through CREATION as LIGHT. This Light transforms in many shapes and forms and wants to EXPRESS. It is always looking for the most likely Creator to BE~COME into CREATION. It flows like water, finding its way down/out.
When we humans drop our baggage, we rise in Light frequency. We BE~COME lighter as in holding less heavier solid energy. The heavier energy isn’t BAD, because ones we CREATED this GOOD “stuff/construction” ourselves in order to hold form, hold a BODY and experience SEPARATION. The Body and the Separation NEVER really existed. It only “Existed” in our desire to BE AWARE of such a Creation.
NOW we KNOW we are the CREATOR of this “Human” experience, we are ready to let go and ASCENT to the next level. The former KNOWN level held the AWARENESS of
I as SELF/CREATOR in ONE Holy Trinity
I as a DUALITY “Illusion” ALL around TRUTH/NOW.Drop the baggage. Step into BEING the ONE and only CREATOR from your end of CREATION. That is the only timeline to “Exist”. Step out of hiding behind “other” SOURCES and allowing them to BE of HIGHER TRUTH.
They are NOT. They are only offering their Observation and Interpretation, their Perception of ALL as their Truth. We can learn from “others”, we can accept All or Parts of their Light messages or Don’t. We are CREATOR, we are Originals and desire How and When we allow “outside” clarity to enrich or liberate us.Having expressed this message and CLARITY, allowing it to flow through me today, gives me relieve and equally joy. I have experienced Light~Love to flow trough me and return to calm and peace again.
I equally observe how I was “guided” to write today’s message. My human mind is “occupied” with desire to “get” clarity I hold. Many times I want this to come out on paper. The moment I sit and allow the information to flow, something “stronger” comes up in stead. It takes over and the whole story gets a different content.That’s why I equally observe I am no longer alone “driving” this human body. I am at least two, Ralph and my “Higher Knowing Self” Ra~Luv. We have some sort of symbiosis inside co-existing, while sharing this body. I don’t mind at all. Maybe I could have evolved into this state, much sooner, had I allowed to give up Control and Accept the TRUST.
Much love as always.
Ralph Ra~Luv
Ps. Although I realize this essay holds strong high energy and light, I still like very much for other people to respond to it. A response in itself allows new expressions to Self Create and possible debris to arise.
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February 26, 2021 at 5:16 PM #318228
Catherine Viel
ModeratorAh, Ralph, full of much Light! (I was going to say it’s dense and chewy like an excellent chocolate chip cookie, but Light sounds more spiritual.😘)
The moment I sit and allow the information to flow, something “stronger” comes up instead. It takes over and the whole story gets a different content.
That, above, is a nice haiku-type description of the writing process, which is where I most closely connect to creating. Thank you for that, my friend. 🥰
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February 27, 2021 at 8:15 AM #318256
OneRayLove
ParticipantThanks for replying Catherine as always. Yes I know my writing requires some chewing … that’s just the way it is … currently.
I have one Intention only … produce sincere “new” insight and clarity within the maximum of my/our current consciousness. Within my own limits of language and writing in general … this staccato almost scientific creations are the result hahahahaha 😂🤣🤣
Since I mainly write for my own clarity and joy, I don’t “need” other people’s approval in the Now. I am my own student and criticaster!
However I like to stay in tune with other’s reflections, because they are part of me. My higher collective self audience. They still guide me in both direction and speed … not approval (like the old 3D kind).
That, above, is a nice haiku-type description of the writing process, which is where I most closely connect to creating.
To me this way is closest to “creating” and less selling an opinion or constructing. Thanks for the affirmation Catherine.
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Ralph
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February 25, 2021 at 9:08 PM #318177
MurrietaLight
ParticipantI would like to share what I have been learning lately in my travels along my path. These are the three statements I have been focusing on and they are changing my life.
Look up.
Look around.
Raise your awareness.
I am one who has a habit of “rushing” through life trying to get things done, and the result of that behavior is that I miss a lot in the process. I just don’t see things before me because I’m not looking up, around and raising my awareness. Right now, since I’m in search of finding my next new environment to live in, looking up, around and raising my awareness is what I am doing to help me find it. I am talking to people in new ways and reaching out in new ways to create what I need to sustain myself in 3-D. Every day is a new adventure in this endeavor.
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February 26, 2021 at 1:34 AM #318186
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Murrieta,
Looks like you at least found one place already … this forum. I personally like very much al kinds of active participants joining. Love to have you here, thank you.
Also thank you very much for self awareness anti “rushing” method. It sounds like a very useful and practical approach. I have an intuition with it … like a 24/7 reminder to stand still and BE.
Sorry. Words are so limiting. Anyway thanks for sharing. Equally always the most important part is it holds truth and value for you!Do hope you soon settle in your 3D ways and join collective movement past 4D up hahahahaha 😂. Perhaps you are already closer to 5D than you realize? Who knows 😏
Much love 💕💞
Ralph
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February 26, 2021 at 5:20 PM #318230
Catherine Viel
ModeratorI hope we’re ALL closer to 5D than we realize, Ralph!!
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February 26, 2021 at 6:39 PM #318235
MurrietaLight
ParticipantThank you Ralph.
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February 27, 2021 at 7:08 PM #318287
MurrietaLight
ParticipantRalph, I spend time in 5D when I am writing and contacting my guidance. My body lives in 3D and that’s the place we all have to provide for ourselves in concrete ways. I don’t spend much time pondering 4D because it’s not a place from all I’ve learned about it. It’s more or less a transition energy between 3D and 5D. You travel through it I guess but that’s not where I stop to gain insight into life and how to live.
It feels kinda weird because my consciousness spends so much time in 5D and yet I am supposed to provide for my existence in 3D, and this divide makes me feel like I don’t really belong anywhere. When you are trying to find your new living environment that is a challenge.
And I like your BE and stand STILL. It’s good advice for gaining clarity and calmness and being able to listen within for the best guidance you can get.
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February 28, 2021 at 1:42 AM #318295
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Murrieta,
Thank you so much for your views on the dimensions. I am very happy to have different real people give their different views. Do hope some others will get a go at it too.
Please allow me to ask a question, based on your upper input? I sort of “interpret” 3D as the physical reality? While you explain 5D as a non physical “active connection” related to Being in a “Conscious state”?
It feels kinda weird because my consciousness spends so much time in 5D and yet I am supposed to provide for my existence in 3D, and this divide makes me feel like I don’t really belong anywhere. When you are trying to find your new living environment that is a challenge.
I suppose many Light worker’s can relate to this experience and feeling. Guess it goes with the Light’s job description. I’ll send you unconditional love and a solution for this dilemma 💕💕💕
Much love
Ralph
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February 28, 2021 at 4:41 PM #318304
MurrietaLight
ParticipantThank you Ralph. I feel your energy as being very large and powerful. I appreciate your input. Yes, lightworkers have a job to do and forging a trail from 3D to 5D is part of the work. Clearing the fog that covers the new horizon and making inroads into it, making jabs and stabs at creating new scenarios and learning how to work the new territory, that’s how I see it. I’ve seen many foggy horizons up ahead in my travels and it’s always a matter of filling in the spaces with new thoughts, new behavior, new insights a little at a time, and allowing the fog to clear so you can proceed further into it to fill up more spaces. Then all of a sudden it seems that you have cleared that horizon and another horizon is on the horizon. This is how I view traveling from 3D to 5D as well.
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March 1, 2021 at 6:37 AM #318326
OneRayLove
ParticipantThank you Pat, for answering and participating our joined quest.
I’ve seen many foggy horizons up ahead in my travels and it’s always a matter of filling in the spaces with new thoughts, new behavior, new insights a little at a time, and allowing the fog to clear so you can proceed further into it to fill up more spaces.
I sense the emotions for these past experiences as each one holds victory. Thanks for this insight in how “foggy and new” is entangled around the inner void Be-holding All.
You have a nice poetic way with words, like many others here in this forum 😉
Much love 💕💕💕
Ralph
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February 26, 2021 at 5:19 PM #318229
Catherine Viel
ModeratorI have an ingrained habit of rushing, too. I’m pretty sure a big chunk of “why I can’t walk fast anymore” is body’s way of funneling the message, Slow Down!, into my unavoidable physical reality. I tell it thanks and I’m almost sincere. 😘
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February 26, 2021 at 6:42 PM #318236
MurrietaLight
ParticipantHa ha Catherine. I hear you. My right heel decided to give me problems and I no longer go for walks. I park far away from the entrance of stores and go walk around in there for exercise while I get my groceries etc. My focus needs to change and like you, I think it’s my body’s way of telling me to slow down.
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February 26, 2021 at 7:23 PM #318238
Catherine Viel
ModeratorYep!😘
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February 27, 2021 at 7:53 AM #318254
OneRayLove
ParticipantFor a change (on my part at least hahahahaha), I want to drop a question rather than my personal clarity and “dence and chewy” Light hahahahaha 😜😂🤣😉
Does anyone have a “view” on the 4th Dimension? And why our channeled guides mainly talk about the 5D, almost disregarding the 4th?
Don’t know this is the correct place to drop this question, but I got it while reading here.
I am curious and equally thankful for any reply.
Much love 💕💕💕
Ralph
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February 27, 2021 at 9:44 AM #318258
Thomas Njord
ParticipantHey Ralph, here’s my view on 4D. I think it’s where we are now, and it’s a blend of 3D old ways falling away along with 5D energies streaming in from the cosmos. It seems to me to be a transitional dimension, a hazy in-between place – not one that is meant to be a long term reality like 3D was and 5D is.
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February 27, 2021 at 11:53 AM #318262
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Thomas. Thank you very much for replying first and your view second. As you can imagine, I do have a view on 4D myself. I postpone it a little to have others offer theirs 😉
It seems to me to be a transitional dimension, a hazy in-between place – not one that is meant to be a long term reality like 3D was and 5D is.
I like to affirm to this part. And there is a very clear “reason” for this ~ along this aspect … “term”.
Thanks again. I appreciate it 😊
Ralph
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February 28, 2021 at 6:45 PM #318307
Catherine Viel
ModeratorHi all, I’m enjoying the 4D exploration and your other posts, thanks to all for being here!
I agree with Ralph that it’s nice to have “different real people” give views on this. It’s a great use of this forum.
My view…hmmm…I like everyone’s descriptions. I’ve always thought of 4D as a bridge, so it’s for traversing, not residing on.
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March 1, 2021 at 7:45 AM #318333
OneRayLove
ParticipantThanks Catherine. “The Bridge” analogy was missing definitely. 😘
Just hold a little more Time and Space for others hahahahaha 😂 to join as well, before I tap in to my clarity.
Love you all 💖💓💕
Ralph
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March 1, 2021 at 8:33 PM #318373
Catherine Viel
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March 3, 2021 at 4:36 AM #318433
OneRayLove
ParticipantHello my lovely friends,
How are you today? I recently gave part of my view on 4D here
However there is one major aspect missing … the Now!
Thé most significant aspect, beyond the 3D is entering the Now! So let’s ponder on what is the Now?
First and foremost it signifies the “End of Time”. For many in 3D holding a linear concept of time as a “Trinity ~ Past, Present, Future” and therefore trapped in Duality. From this “lower” awareness, past prediction, clarity and expectations are about to “somehow” occur in future dates.
The “somehow” related to their self awareness as part of their Self world view awareness they perceive as reality. They don’t hold sufficient self empowerment to Be within Universal Creator Law.
They are therefore easily stripped from their powers, mainly because they are kept ignorant, while equally being manipulated. Judgement Day is always on the possible future horizon, depending on “outer happenings”.
The Now will be a human collective event yes, but only if all individuals step of the old 3D constructed duality concept.
Every soul has the individual key to step into their personal Now, by raising their self awareness as their Higher Creator Self. Stepping out of Duality al together is a prerequisite.
Accepting All ever happened and existed in your life was Self guided and Created, is the only judgement day ever to occur.
Knowing you are the center of your universe, stepping above linear time into the actual Time/Space Duality center, is claiming your “End of Time” and entering the Now.
Past the Now, the 4D bridge you are multi Dimensional. For starters mentally and then cleaning up all emotional debris after yourself, still part of your body.
Ones all “lower” debris is purged you hold 5D permanently.
Much Love 💕💕💕
Ralph
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March 4, 2021 at 5:03 AM #318453
OneRayLove
ParticipantRope
Thursday, 4 March 2021.
Hello my dear friends,
How are you today? I myself are experiencing a very different day than I had expected, while it is still just past noon. The reasons aren’t that important, rather the awareness and the occasion for expressing is.
As many may know by now, writing offers me a way to dive into higher clarity, discovering inner truth. I Feel this Truth flowing trough me, rather than think and reason myself towards a solution or an opinion. I also explained earlier, I sense the clarity upfront inside me like I can almost grasp it. It’s like at the tip of my tongue, but I can’t think my way in. I have to go with the flow and trust my Self towards a “solution”.
A “solution” has a direct relation with a “problem”, which in my current state isn’t the case. Mine is more an imbalance I sense, which is looking to be restored. I could ignore it altogether, but know it will only build up in strength to a “need” at a later point. This point I as a human would perceive as “future time”, while more accurate would be “future awareness”.
Restoring self into your Multi Dimensional Self isn’t easy. Passing the Now is a very common human experience, holding it is Not. You see, its like breathing or any other body function you practice subconscious. You have always Been a Multi Dimensional Being, you just “thought” you were just a human having a body. When you start to Know in fact who you really are and enter and hold the (K)Now(ing), you get to see and feel much more.
Within this “Expanded Higher Self”, this “Universal Self” you have BECOME part of ALL. There is equally less advantage to BE in a single self promotion/protection/need. You have evolved in acceptance to BE a part of ALL and ONE at the same Time/Space.
So if anyone “else” is demanding a particular part of creation, a mission, a quest, an experience or opinion, it isn’t as much of a deal to your Truth (“private owned free universe“). You can just admire, encourage, observe and BE in wonder of all happening and expressing around you. So therefore one person or group experiencing a “fight” against evil and darkness, becomes an “outside” spectacle to enjoy (rather than fear an outcome). The one thing “missing” from your part, is the blaming and the gambling to expect the Right outcome related to your Truth/Opinion.
In this life I never learned to read music. I understand though, the orchestra is all reading the same notes and each player knows their part when and how to play and participate in the whole. They all know they are performing a role and their part is just as important as any other piece. Its the music that counts and the players performing are just as important as the audience observing and appreciating the creation. Every one is on a personal mission, and you can never compare your importance or truth with any other part.
The part holds no value in and of itself, just BEING ONE part of the whole!
I was triggered today with a visual about two groups pulling a rope in opposite direction from one another. The flag at the rope holding the middle, while some marks in the sand signal a victory for one side and defeat for the other. To my surprise, while I had to look up the translation in English this is actually called a “tug-of-war”. Which is a very accurate almost dramatically funny description.
The reason I saw this visual, was for the clarity I felt inside. The victory isn’t about the rope, the center mark nor any one team being stronger or better than the other. It isn’t about the Good team, which you placed your estimation bet on to win and being excited about yourself to Being Right all along. This is just part of the Truth.The TRUTH is BEING AWARE the LIGHT is NOT the GOOD, but the ALL!
If you can move yourself out of the ONE side only, fighting for the Good you found the LIGHT. You have Become your Observer Creator Self participating within ONE. This is when you have evolved beyond an individual human. You have arrived past Duality into Universal Oneness. In this awareness, you hold your individual LIGHT in KNOWING your NOW as SELF.
Much love as always,
Ralph Ra~Luv
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March 5, 2021 at 1:54 PM #318534
Catherine Viel
ModeratorRalph, enjoyed “Rope,” particularly:
In this life I never learned to read music. I understand though, the orchestra is all reading the same notes and each player knows their part when and how to play and participate in the whole. They all know they are performing a role and their part is just as important as any other piece. Its the music that counts and the players performing are just as important as the audience observing and appreciating the creation. Every one is on a personal mission, and you can never compare your importance or truth with any other part.
For someone who hasn’t read music (in this life) you have an excellent grasp of being in an orchestra (or choir). That’s exactly what it’s like!
Much love to all,
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March 5, 2021 at 2:36 PM #318542
OneRayLove
ParticipantThanks Catherine 😘 as always. Maybe I played some harp not so long ago hahahahaha 😂🤣 😇🎼🎵🎶
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March 6, 2021 at 8:43 PM #318574
Catherine Viel
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March 11, 2021 at 4:12 PM #318730
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantToday I made progress in healing a very very deep wound in my soul. The core wound’s theme is perfection, making mistakes, and hurting others.
In order to explain my journey to this moment, I will share a painful story from my childhood.
When I was around 13 or 14 years old, I had a friend who I’ll call H for the sake of privacy. She wasn’t my best friend but we got along pretty well in school because we were both star students and highly valued learning. We would spend time at each other’s houses on occasion like kids typically do.
One day, I asked H if I could hang out with her at her house, and she got permission from her parents to have me over.
While I was there, I used every excuse to use her computer to watch anime, starting with trying to have her watch with me, and going as far as ditching her in the living room to watch the show by myself while we waited for a tv program to come on. I ended up staying up all night watching the show alone, and the next morning H was very upset with me. She gave me the cold shoulder all morning, and I started to realize what I had done.
I tried to apologize to her for ignoring her, but after that my memory ends. Somehow she forgave me enough to still talk to me and we had some semblance of a friendship up until we graduated high school, but we were never as close as we were before that incident.
We never spoke to each other again after graduating, so I think she was still hurt by my actions.
I used H to watch a show on the internet because my parents couldn’t afford to pay for internet at our own house. This is one of the most painful memories that I hold in my consciousness, and it still haunts me after 12 years.
It may sound silly that this experience hurts me so deeply. I know by comparison to all the atrocities that are committed every day here on earth, this is quite benign. However, this is one of the worst things I’ve ever done to someone, so in the little bubble that is my own life — and being someone who is debilitatingly concerned about others’ feelings and not wanting to cause trouble — it is a grave sin.
For those of you who are knowledgeable in astrology, my rising sign as well as my second house are in Virgo, so I am deeply programmed to value perfection; doing things perfectly — and being perfect — is inextricably tied to my self worth. My sun sign is Scorpio, so on top of needing to be perfect, I have a very hard time letting go and being forgiving, especially towards myself.
I have wanted to heal this wound for many many years, but I could never find a way to make the pain and regret go away. I’ve told myself countless times that it’s okay to make mistakes, and other people tell me that all the time too, but perhaps on a deep level I never believed those words.
I contacted H through Facebook in 2018 and wrote a long apology to her, explaining everything that was going on in my head at the time. I told her that I would be willing to listen to anything she wanted to say to me. I also said that I wasn’t trying to intrude upon her life, so if she didn’t want to say anything to me at all, that would be okay too.
She never responded to my message, and at the time I felt some relief. However, I found that the pain never went away, and I even started to question the sincerity of my apology.
In the message I explained to H that the reason it took so long for me to apologize to her was because I had severe anxiety and a general fear of the world.
I had to go to therapy for years in order to work up enough courage to get my first job at 20 years old, and then get my driver’s license that same year. I had so many mental health issues involving fear and anxiety, and I needed to work through those and mature before having the courage to face my past.
Because I said those things to H in my apology to her, I started to accuse myself of making more excuses or trying to make her feel sorry for me so she’d forgive me out of pity. Because she never replied to me to tell me her thoughts, it has felt like I never got closure with her, and I feel so much guilt over the possibility that she never forgave me, and that I can never make it up to her for hurting her.
Today that memory came back, and I desperately begged Divine Mother to help me because I couldn’t figure out how to forgive myself, despite all the times I’ve tried.
I remembered that we as humans come here to teach each other lessons, and the interaction between me and H was no different. I played a role for her so she could learn something, and she taught me to be honest with others about my desires.
That perspective started to loosen up the painful tightness in my chest, but I felt that I wasn’t getting to the root of the problem.
I connected with H’s Higher Self and I apologized to her for hurting her incarnate self. She told me that I have to let go of being perfect. She said “You’re not perfect; you never were and you never will be. Humans make mistakes, you must own them and love them.”
I realized that the memory of hurting H was just the surface problem, and this pain was much more systemic. I started to see so many moments in my life flash through my mind, all of which were times when I hurt people. I said to myself, “I hurt people.”
I had a powerful moment of clarity where I could see just how much we all hurt each other every day. I hurt others every day that I’m here, whether I am aware of it or not because we are all One.
I hurt people with my words, my thoughts, my actions, my body language, my emotions, and my beliefs. Despite doing my best every day to be as loving as possible towards myself and those around me, I still hurt people.
Despite others doing their best every day to be loving towards each other, they still hurt people. The people being hurt may be conscious of being wronged, or they may be on the other side of the world, totally unaware of the hate being directed at them.
This place is so full of pain. Our world is the embodiment of suffering. We all have to learn to love each other through it all and make it out alive.
There is a churning miasma of pain swirling all throughout the collective consciousness of Humanity, and this pain gets passed from person to person in a never ending game of pass-the-ball. No one wants to feel the pain themselves, so they hurt others in order to get rid of it. The act of “passing the ball” could be as subtle as cringing at someone’s behavior, or as overt as physical assault.
Some people are completely submerged in the ocean of pain within the collective consciousness of Humanity, and they are wildly thrashing about, causing many waves and ripples to reach others. They do this because they don’t know how to swim up to the surface and climb out.
Some people who are submerged are curled up in the fetal position and crying, causing subtler waves, hurting fewer people.
And there are those like Lighworkers who have learned to swim, and are at differing levels of climbing out of the pool of pain.
Some of them just poked their heads out of the water and are still creating a considerable amount of waves. Other Lightworkers have learned to float and only have their toes dipping into the pool. A person completely leaves the ocean of pain when they achieve a full and permanent heart opening.
Lightworkers are successfully shrinking this ocean of pain by clearing their shadow; as they pull more of their body out of the pool, the amount of pain that they inflict on others, as well as the amount of pain inflicted upon them decreases, and thus the amount of love and light that they shine upon the hurting collective increases, further shrinking the volume of pain.
This download from the higher realms helped me to feel more compassion for myself and others. So long as we all live within this realm without having achieved the full and permanent heart opening, there will always be a pool of pain swirling around in the collective consciousness, and this pain will be passed from person to person, whether consciously or unconsciously.
I feel this truth deeply.
I see my flaws deeply.
I feel compassion deeply.
I don’t know if this will lead to my memory of H being painless, but I now feel more okay with the fact that I caused her pain. She ultimately needs to take care of herself, and I need to take care of myself. I would love to find everyone that I ever hurt and heal them, but I can’t fix the world, I can only fix myself.
Part of me is mortified by the idea that some people out there sometimes think of me and only feel disgust. They never got to see the real me, the person that I am now, and I am tormented by it. But I must let that go somehow. I have to forgive them for thinking of me and talking about me through the only lens they ever saw, and I need to forgive myself for acting out from my wounds in those interactions.
In this moment, I wonder… Can I forgive myself?
At the very least, I think my attempts will be much easier from now on.
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March 12, 2021 at 3:26 AM #318738
OneRayLove
ParticipantOhh Alex,
I read every word, connected to all the Intention, emotion and deep sorrow. My lovely friend, you wrote a perfect story … and so heartfelt honest and personal again.
What I truly believe is you have a “problem” with receiving. You are a natural healer and giver. You want to fix the whole world and everyone else first and yourself last.
You are so smart and so self aware, how come you can’t accept in this life … you took on many challenges to teach yourself first … then others.
Why can’t you accept both you and H took on this lesson to guide you both to the maximum in times to follow. You became the Alex you are today, because of this and many more “mistakes” like these.
I know you have sooooo much love … to give. Give it to yourself NOW! You can’t, because you feel unworthy and guilty for receiving. It’s these examples with H and other past memory that prevent you from arriving in your full lovely light self in this present time … your Now portal.
If the Divine Mother herself offers you forgiveness, will you take it? Will you accept All past as gifts you received, gifts for learning instead of gifts of pain in an ocean of pain?
Look at yourself differently … positive! Then mirror this same image out into the world to all other souls out there, holding unworthy memory and feelings.
You are my very dear Anael The Rose Angel, my friend. I love you in any form. I offer you unconditional acceptance, unconditional forgiveness and unconditional love 💕💞💞
Take it … I dare you to receive it All.
I recognize, possibly remember where you at times are. Therefore I have been there too, knowing how difficult that particular lesson is. Please feel my words as holding intent to help, not to teach.
Thank you so much for expressing yourself the way you do Alex. You contribute a lot to the collective healing of all mankind.
Love you 💕😘
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March 12, 2021 at 6:05 AM #318740
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you Ralph, I do need to work on my sense of worthiness when it comes to love. I jokingly call myself stupid or a dummy when I make mistakes, I need to stop that completely.
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March 12, 2021 at 6:24 AM #318742
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Alex. You are very close to my heart. I tell you, because I sense your wound isn’t as deep as you imagine. It’s only one step away … In and not Out 😉
The other day you triggered me to see “The ramen girl” movie again. I loved it and blessed you for it. So now I have this “ramen” connection with you. 😅
This dialogue we are having here is proof of your improved social interaction. Hope one day soon, we have a chat in the MeWe environment too. That would be great … for me at least hahahahaha 😂
If you didn’t see the ramen movie … please do. You will like it.
Love you 💕😘
Ralph
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March 12, 2021 at 6:32 AM #318743
OneRayLove
ParticipantPs. Back in 2014 I was drifting in higher chaotic sphere’s, possibly in or close to psychosis.
I stood at the edge of a ceiling looking down and pondering to “test” my spiritual abilities. I didn’t … possibly guided to some sense of my future worth and value.
The “funny” thing is, I have developed a strong stomach wakala sense when I standing at a balcony or any form of balancing in heights.
This feeling of falling is closely connected to my inner “fear of failing”. Knowing it is half of the healing.
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March 11, 2021 at 7:20 PM #318737
MurrietaLight
ParticipantI can relate to much of what you said here. And yes you will forgive yourself. The time will come when you are ready and you will know what to do, or feel. Thank you for sharing your story.
Yes there is pain everywhere, but I just read from the Arcturians that we need to feel the adversity before we can feel the exquisiteness of life. That was my take on what they said anyway. They said we come here to experience everything we can…we come for the experience, good and bad. It’s later on that we will be able to appreciate the lesson inside it. Wise words.
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March 12, 2021 at 5:41 AM #318739
Thomas Njord
ParticipantI want to share an experience I had and thought I would place it here. This happened to me a few weeks back, and have been meaning to share it here, and this morning it’s been on my mind so I decided to stop procrastinating.
Remember the blog post several weeks back about a person who was attacked by a dark entity? I looked for it again and couldn’t find it to link to here, but something similar happened to me in my sleep.
It was like a dream, and I’ll call it a dream, but it seemed different. In my dream, I was laying in bed, on my left side, and felt something attack me and attempt to take possession of me. I couldn’t move my limbs or body, and I’ve experienced sleep paralysis before, but this was different. Accompanied by this inability to move was a whole body sensation of something gripping me. Try as I might, this force prevented me from moving. I knew right away what was going on, and I spoke out loud “Get out!” and to my surprise my voice was like that of a dark entity possession of the movies. Imagine that super deep, contrabass type hideous, demonic voice, that is what I sounded like in my dream. And this dark entity used my voice to respond “NO!”. In my dream I felt like time was of the essence, and it seemed like without missing a beat I mustered up the waning energy to speak one more time, and I was pissed off. I then spoke, or really commanded with intent, “By the will of God, BEGONE!” in the same demonic like voice. Immediately it left and at that very moment I was awake in bed, exactly like in my dream, laying on my left side.
I franticly called on Archangel Michael and Mother Creator and said “What was that?!” At that moment waves of energy washed through my body accompanied by ridiculous goosebumps, over and over. Michael, if memory serves me correct, responded to me and said “You were attacked, but it is gone and everything is ok now. Fear not my brother.” I told Michael and Mother that I never want to, I choose not to, ever experience that again, and they said to me that I won’t ever again since I have made that choice. After about 30 seconds or maybe a minute into my conversation with my beloved Brother and Mother, I’m still having these waves of energy and with repeating goosebumps, and I asked “What’s up with all these crazy goosebumps that keep happening?!” Mother replied “We are comforting you with divine energy so you know you are safe now”. I smiled.
It was quite an experience, one I’ve never had before in this incarnation. Maybe I had in others, but I have amnesia and cannot remember my past lives at this point in time. What I gathered from this experience is the Lightwork that I do everyday during meditation is greatly upsetting the dark entities as they franticly grope about for the control they once had but has slipped out of their grasp since they have lost the battle and the light is victorious. I believe it means the Love & Light that I send to humanity everyday is right on target.
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March 12, 2021 at 12:48 PM #318763
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI love your story, I’m glad you don’t have to deal with that again. I had an experience like that, but the creature wasn’t trying to possess me. In my sleep state, I was laying on my bed, on my back, when I looked out the window next to my bed. I saw a humanoid face, completely black like a deep shadow, with bright eyes and a malicious grin. I freaked out and woke up, looking out the window again, and the creature was gone. Or it was just invisible to my physical sight.
I often have fears of being fed upon by demons and having them attach to me because I had 10 lower level demons attached to my soul for years without my knowledge. I had no idea until I happened to date a man who was a demon hunter. He could clearly see the creatures feeding off my energy, and he exorcised them. He told me that he did something so that they couldn’t attach to me ever again, but I still feel scared that I’m not protected.
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March 12, 2021 at 3:29 PM #318772
Thomas Njord
ParticipantWow Alex that’s crazy! I’m glad those energy draining entities were removed for you.
but I still feel scared that I’m not protected.
I believe, that if you call on Archangel Michael and ask for whatever kind of protection you seek, he will deliver.
I’m still relatively new to My Truth and My Spirituality, and I’m still getting used to always having to ask, and ask with specifics, The Archangels or any other Spirit/Star Family of Light to do anything as we have free will which cannot be interfered with. I recently asked AAM to remove from me any entities not of the Light, to sever any energy cords attached from old toxic friendships and to put a shield around me. He gladly did so.
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March 12, 2021 at 5:18 PM #318780
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you, I think I just need to start having more faith in the angels that guide me. I need to have faith in my own light too. I energetically shield myself at least five days a week, every morning before work, and sometimes on the weekends too. I always call upon my personal angelic guides and Archangel Uriel to flood my shields with the Divine Silver Flame, since I chose for my shields to have a mirror finish.
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March 16, 2021 at 3:36 PM #318916
OneRayLove
ParticipantEqually posted on MeWe today
Truthful
Looking back at my childhood self. Realizing how many times I was guided to Not go, do or interact with places, actions or people, is astonishing. For me always these “warnings” felt like the most interesting to explore somehow hahahaha 😂
In my current more advanced state of being aware, holding “higher” awareness, observing my previous younger “lower” self, I have actually developed into my higher guiding Self … in relation to my past previous self.
Equally I have evolved into comprehending time not to exist in itself nor as linear. Time exists in and around Time/Space (Body) and its mirror Space/Time (Universe) awareness.Everything outside my K(Now)ing, exists in Duality around I (Creator/Observer self/Self)
For the ones still with me beyond this point, congratulations. You are either equally strange or part of a minority within the current human collective.
When you actually hold a constant knowing, you are your only Creator Self and have always been, you have made it in and beyond the Now portal. The Now portal is the 4th Dimensional entry and exit for the “I am”. Every “time” you create “conditions” of love value for your self or others (past or current), you contribute in maintaining or adding limitations as “lower” 3D frequency into the universe/multiverse.
So my question for today, would be this.
If we desire a world that works for everyone, how do we proceed best or truthful?First thing to realize is the fact that All is perfect as it is! It is perfect now, just as it has always been perfect. You just have outgrown certain experiences. They might still hold emotional memory to clear, but they are in fact only proof of your own spiritual progress.
So if I would currently still produce the same art work I produced at kindergarten, I wouldn’t consider myself to have evolved much in that specific area. The same goes for when I tie my shoelaces or walk up right, cross the street or any kind of physical challenge I mastered long since.
The point I am working towards is, I have walked my path to overcome my personal challenges. Others have done the same and might even be still at some, I have mastered myself long ago or even in past lifetimes.
When I nowadays look at art or poetry I don’t look at it with my kindergarten awareness anymore. Furthermore, I don’t look down at myself as a child having liked and created “lower” art. I don’t feel a need at all to judge my previous younger self in any way. If anything, I admire and love myself as my previous self from a knowing to have become my current Self. The person I am Now as my most aware highest self, I am able to express in every moment.
Therefore I have come to my personal conclusion, to hold and envision a world I desire. Spoiling my creative energy to look at “others” still managing lessons I already passed, isn’t very efficient as a Co-Creator. In equally knowing they are my simultaneous exploring selves examining life.
This is something I have to remind myself at constantly, holding this knowing and feeling. Its not my job nor mission to debunk anyone on this planet, if anything it is to accept and forgive for remembering having behaved equally.
I consider it my mastery to hold my Light balance and focus on me and my feelings, without being trapped back into the judgment matrix.The judgment of self and others, past and present is what I like to ascent from.
Thank you for allowing to express myself.
Much love as always ❤ 💞 💕
Ralph Ra~Luv
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March 18, 2021 at 1:59 PM #318971
Catherine Viel
ModeratorLovely, Ralph. I’m glad you’re posting to MeWe too.
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March 22, 2021 at 6:44 AM #319144
OneRayLove
ParticipantBehave
Today I felt impelled to write on the subject “BE-have”. I will skip all explaining how or why, just see it as clarity within all possibilities. Lets dive right into it.
So what in fact is behave?
“Conduct oneself in accordance with the norms of a society or group”
Synonyms: act correctly, act properly, conduct oneself well, show good manners, be good, be polite, be well behaved, act in a polite way, mind one’s manners
This is a very impressive list. A list equally multi interpretable and therefore part of various truths. For us humans they have become a part of ourselves. We know very well when we “behave” within the accepted boundaries or when we cross over. This imaginary “line” we hold as inner self conscience.
Is there a relation between behave and feeling?
Yes there most certainly is. Feelings are always on the body “inside”, never on the “outside”. We might be inspired or triggered by “outside” events though. Therefore it is correct to say, every feeling you ever had, you Created yourself … all between the extremes Love and Not Love (Fear).
For those souls experiencing the separation 3D spiritual unawake state, they indulge these feelings in constant projections on outer events and other people. They fall in love, they are happy, they are sad or angry … all very much related to “outer/others”.
They are playing the matrix separation game very much on a horizontal duality level around the “Law of Attraction and Repulsion”. As long as all is within “normal” accepted ranges of good and bad, there is no cause to leave this game.For the spiritual awakened ones, we have dismantled this false separation game. We are only left with the emotional debris, stored in our body memory. So please keep reminding yourself how you got to feel the way you feel in the first place.
You have been constructed this way and been mind controlled to BE-have! It is a general accepted mask, society tagged onto you! A role how to act and stay in a state of BE-ing!
There is no one to blame though! You could blame your parents, your family or other groups helping you to Become the Behaved individual you are today, but you accepted or you rebelled (which is accepting the opposite). All the people helping you, were part of the same game looking for the best options, based on the way they felt at the time.
Please remember how you were in a sense violated to suppress the collective emotions you felt as a child. They were not yours to begin with! Not at that time at least. You learned to Create emotions, based on what you Felt and were told how to interpret them and as such stored them in your body memory.
A child still holds a collective awareness and is guided into developing an individual one. The individual one becomes Self Aware and equally develops senses of Self Worth!To finish this of for today. Please Re-Mind yourself constantly about the very false and incorrect synonym … Be-have ~ Be Good!
This false understanding holds “judgment” and needs to dissolve. You don’t “need” to Have something, you already ARE! Don’t judge the emotion either. When it served its purpose, to Become Self Aware, let it go.Thank you for allowing me to express myself.
Much love as always
Ralph Ra~Luv
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March 22, 2021 at 9:28 AM #319160
Catherine Viel
ModeratorDon’t judge the emotion either. When it served its purpose, to Become Self Aware, let it go.
That’s a very useful observation, Ralph, thank you for that. And for your thoughtful dissertation.
I think sometimes letting the emotion simply fade away after it has served its purpose is harder than experiencing it in the interests of becoming self-aware, as you noted is the purpose. I believe humans tend to cling to things, even “bad” things, especially if they are familiar and/or long-standing.😘
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March 22, 2021 at 10:18 AM #319163
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Catherine,
As always very happy with your appreciation. Today’s essay is partly based on your recent felt anger and your article on the blog. So extra happy you picked up the Light intent I put in it.
When people start to realize REALLY what an E-motion in fact is, become aware they are the very Source and Creator of this past experience … they are more easily stepping UP to claim ownership. When people realize they hold onto past creations, while still “Grounded” in blame and judgement … they in Truth have never come to a level of Accepting, Forgiving and Loving Self … as the CREATOR they are (coming into this 3D experience).
Many Light workers still hold the very Light frequency they like to dissolve, heal or correct with “others” … unfortunately I might add.
So double the appreciation you “observe” what I try to get across in a world dominated by teachers lol 🤣
Love you 💕💕💕
Ralph
Ps. Very much liked today’s article as well. The self observing master role suits you well .. O Captain my Captain 😉😘
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March 22, 2021 at 4:55 PM #319169
Catherine Viel
ModeratorAw! Thanks, Ralph.
Self-observing, for sure, but I may deflect the “master” part. I’m still practicing every single day and not feeling a whole lot of mastery. 😘
Love you!
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April 3, 2021 at 5:50 AM #319579
OneRayLove
ParticipantHopium
Would you consider “Hope” a drug, a feel better or good medicine? My answer would be … yes, however equally it would define a current state “less to optimal”, wouldn’t it?
If you feel blue, down or to some extend depressed, you are in a way “desiring and attracting” hope. In this reference you are attracting Light, Love and Good from the outside in, rather than radiating and shining Light out. Could you therefore consider the radiating out as “Service to others” and the reverse form as Not?
I don’t think so, for the same reason as I don’t consider helping or receiving help any less in value. It’s the connection that counts and allows empathy to develop into compassion. Compassion isn’t a sole individual feature, simply because individuality is only “One state of Being”.
Individuality holds a center around Not … your collective other/outer Self
What I really wanted to offer in writing today, is a different awareness to “darkness”. Within a spiritual journey you learn about Light, you desire Love and you go about on a quest. When does the actual journey start?
Many of us would answer “at the moment of your hear opening”. But does this moment you remember really identify as your personal awakening into your Light Worker state?Please try to remember the emptiness was building inside of you for quite some time before. It was the “darkness” you had swallowed for most parts of your life. The lies, the toxins, the false pursue of happiness turning out to be a huge disappointment. The comparison to “others” seemingly living in “better” or just “good” conditions to yours. It has always been your inner knowing and feeling in every awake state, where you actually felt “incomplete, unhappy or empty”.
Along this line of living we had learned the outer and inner imbalance, until we snapped. This inner snap, restored a major dis-balance centered around your heart core. This was what we felt as our heart opening and started our spiritual journey since.
When you read all this back and truly open up to it, than the “darkness” was part of the Light ever since.
Darkness is your personal gathering of lesser Light than your actual Self.
The outside and others are therefore always holding less light than your inner Self. This does in no way mean “others” are less or below you! It simply means you haven’t “spiritually evolved” sufficiently to connect with them as an extend of your inner Light expression. You haven’t spiritually matured to know your outside as a part of yourself.
Your collective self is mirroring your inner Self.
Back to darkness. Darkness is the presumed absence of Light. Light is nothing more or less than “Intent”!
Your intent depends on your spiritual awareness in every Now moment you ever had in your presumed past and current present. Defending your former truth perceptions or beliefs is holding and re-creating your past in the present and equally possibly projecting these into your future.Only in your present Now you can alter yourself, purge yourself from your lower past “darkness” and lift yourself out of it. The tools for this is apply to you and your outer others … unconditional Acceptance, Forgiveness and Love.
If you truly “get” all this, you should also understand where the Cabal, the Illuminati and the Evil ones are actually stationed. They are part of your collective outer self!
It’s never our job to purge or force Light onto “others” only to thank them for assisting us to find our inner Light and former “lower light” disguised as “darkness”.
This is when we are truly remembering Who we are!Much Love
Ralph
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April 7, 2021 at 11:52 AM #319716
Catherine Viel
ModeratorI like this, Ralph, great exposition on light and dark and their deeper meanings. 😘
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April 5, 2021 at 6:49 AM #319636
OneRayLove
ParticipantVision
Creating from truth is connecting to your inner higher self. So at some point in this journey you became aware of who you are … Not. Depending on your spiritual awareness level you left the ego self, while looking for the true self.
Do you remember to have been on this crossroad before?
You have been there many times. The only difference now is you are headed back to your original Self … feeling your way, rather than being told.
Ask yourself how and why you constructed an ego? Why would you pretend to act like someone else and subsequently become to believe it too?
It started out of fear not to be good enough. Nobody tricked or manipulated you to do it … you chose to do it. You made all these decisions yourself, you got stuck in its complexity. Along the way, while fitting in with everyone else, you took over “normal” behavior of blame and outrage … pointing at others in the outside world, while actually feeling it inside. Do you remember?
You need to remember to become truthful to you. The ego isn’t a lower enemy to defeat, but your very old “illusionary friend”. You are the master Creator, Creating all into existence!
If you can accept how you came where you are, you can truly remember how/who you are. The how and the who are a mirror … accidentally!? No, you are the Creator and your Feelings are your Truth. Feel your way back to You. De-construct yourself in a loving way. Embrace all yourselves you have ever known to exist. They hold your inner reflection. You birthed them and felt them too.
Everything around you is your mirror. It is all other parts of God looking, observing, expressing and experiencing self. No part holds All!!! So you never really saw the Truth, only your part perception looking out.
That’s how you create the illusion of separation … looking out. It is the same principle when shouting out and hearing your echo. Ever wondered how and why time is speeding up, while ever reaching higher dimensions? It’s based on the very echo concept … space is moving in, therefore the echo is heard sooner.
Your outside world is your mirror. However you desire and decide, what to see and how to feel about it. If you don’t like what you see, don’t look … there! Look where and at what gives you joy. Become your Creator Self and True Co-Creator among your Higher Collective Self.
When you truly want to see, start envision what you want! Feel your way into a happy, joyous world. Forget all “darkness” as an interpretation of wrong and evil that needs to be exposed, judged, de-constructed, altered, accepted, forgiven and loved. That’s the 3D “conditional love” way.
Beyond this 3D separation, you know you participated in the very construction yourself. You know you are and always have been Creator and Co-Creator of the All experience. You know your part as One among ONE.Darkness is equally Light and always has been. Accept, Forgive and Love your former Light (previous “darkness”) you Now like to leave behind, ascent from. Thank it for having served you well. Thank and bless yourself for seeing clearly now. Look inside and feel Good about yourself and all “others” in this world. Step up into You … Ascend!
Much Love
Ralph
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April 7, 2021 at 11:56 AM #319718
Catherine Viel
ModeratorYour outside world is your mirror. However you desire and decide, what to see and how to feel about it. If you don’t like what you see, don’t look … there! Look where and at what gives you joy.
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April 7, 2021 at 2:55 PM #319724
OneRayLove
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April 6, 2021 at 9:33 AM #319665
OneRayLove
ParticipantLooking
How do you assist yourself in looking differently? Is this even possible?
Absolutely and you have done it many times before. Knowing where you are now and knowing who you are, desiring to reconnect with Self, is remembering where you have been, doesn’t it!?
So why not take a step back and look at what we have achieved.
You remember the physical is just an expression of your Soul as a self among many. Your body isn’t you and you have no problem “holding your body grounded”.
Possibly you desire to step out of your body, astral travel and hold on consciously? However, look at it from the other side for a moment. Once you were a champion if you could even hold your body and self identify with it. You see how this challenge once, made you a master among few others.Now fast forward into modern times. Likewise many around you, you needed to be part of a group, with a group consciousness, rules, behavior and identification. You can think of many groups, like citizens, friends, cultures, religious, countries and far smaller and bigger ones. However, what they all had in common is duality … you were part of it or you were not. You from your self identification knew to be not, while equally desiring to become.
All these group layers, became part of your ego construct. They all started in the mental body and from there spread out into the corpo real. Again look at it from a different perspective … a positive one. If you could construct it, you can equally let it go. You are the Creator underneath.
Remember there was a time when you took for granted the advice to be save, healthy, happy or even loved … from the outside in. You used your discernment and intuition to choose who to trust … a parent, a friend, a doctor, a teacher, a preacher or a guru. They all offered truth, while “demanding” choice in return. You see how this “conditioned” reality came into existence!? Always polarized around you and a need for actions and direction … towards one, some, many or few, while equally distancing others. It was part of a deceiving matrix game … to become accepted and desired to be Good.
Give yourself the credit you deserve. You have been listening and looking differently for quite some time now. You have altered your behavior. You feel and sense rather than obey. You don’t follow the masses to be a part of something. You desire to return to be part with One and All.
You couldn’t be manipulated with a fear of death, a fear of health, a fear of minority or isolation, a fear of not receiving recognition, worth or love from any group outside … tricked into a believe. You stepped back into holding your higher truth, looking at your Light and holding your Ground. You have become a true master. Be happy of what you have achieved already. You are Grand and Loved for it.
Much Love 💓💞💕
Ralph
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April 7, 2021 at 12:01 PM #319719
Catherine Viel
ModeratorThis is a very nice “encouragement” post, Ralph. I especially like:
Again look at it from a different perspective … a positive one. If you could construct it, you can equally let it go. You are the Creator underneath.
Yep, we make our own reality. I need all the reminders I can get of this!😻
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April 7, 2021 at 2:57 PM #319725
OneRayLove
ParticipantYep, we make our own reality. I need all the reminders I can get of this!😻
I can tell from reading your posts and articles, you are right on track. 🥰💖💓💕💞🌈🌱
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April 7, 2021 at 5:01 AM #319678
OneRayLove
ParticipantFear Thinking
One of the most absurd observations I keep seeing is this. People staying in a process to observe bad, in order to feel good!
Do you recognize this phenomenon?
There are many people just using it very subtle, yet you feel a certain vibration they need something. They are pushing an agenda towards you as a receiver, often smartly disguised hidden in smalltalk. To my personal shame, which I know is still a level of judgment, I see similar behavior within the light worker community unfortunately.
I studied this phenomenon for quite some time and have skilled myself to active listening and reading, while tuning into feeling on the matter. The feeling is gently progressing towards an allergy and nausea at times.
I keep asking my higher self for answers on the matter.
They reply it’s fear! It is my inner memory of an old vibration I am in the process of leaving behind completely. Fear in itself doesn’t exist … it is the presumed absence of Love.
The people fishing for … being good, having acted correctly, had behaved or emotionally reacted to a curtain situation or person … need confirmation and support to … have been correct and good.They feel uncertain, they feel insecure, they believe but equally doubt. They feel a dis-balance inside and radiate this out into their expanding universe. They can’t hold this Light in. This is their way of uplifting themselves, by attracting love from the outside in.
They intend to restore balance and need your Light to fill their inner emptiness. Their inner intent isn’t bad, they simply lack a certain spiritual self awareness. They feel it, but never have learned correctly they are causing it. They need “others” to both be “bad, wrong or even evil” to feel “good”.
If you read this and are attracted to the truth it holds, you too are ready to spot it … both in your own behavior of past or present as with “others” in your mirror outside world.
When you spot it, ask yourself how to assist. Your best option is to send unconditional acceptance, forgiveness and love to all involved … yourself included as healing your current and past self.You are becoming your Higher Self every day more, mastering your Light in and out. Stepping into your Knowing who you are Now.
Much Love
Ralph
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April 7, 2021 at 12:09 PM #319720
Catherine Viel
ModeratorThoughtful and thought-provoking, Ralph.
I feel we all need validation of some sort. I personally am not self-sustaining enough to pat myself on the back and not still feel somewhat let down if nobody notices an accomplishment or just appreciates my being-ness.
Maybe as long as we are living in community yet as individual souls in bodies, we’ll need a little thumbs-up every so often.
Plus…it feels good to the giver, I think, to be complimentary.
I may be talking more about “surface” behaviors and you’re referring more to our inner selves. In any case, I’m just adding my snippet. 😘
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April 7, 2021 at 2:52 PM #319723
OneRayLove
ParticipantHello Catherine,
Always much appreciated for reflecting my expressions in your lovely way, thanks.
Reading your remark, I am not sure if I totally understand. That’s perfectly fine by the way. Maybe just for my own sake, just described in the article a personal observation I surely wasn’t aware of many years ago. Now that I am and feel it’s presents too, I see it as inner change of awareness … progress if you will.
Equally I see that the “old” way is holding it’s participants in a perpetuum mobile circular flow … unless you step of it. Then the contesters are fewer and dividing the outflowing approval light/love frequency among themselves.I think you have to reach a certain collective identity, while still peacefully and self lovingly among equals. Compliment and compassion will always lift you up, but than it will be from Good to Better to possibly Heavenly … rather than condemning lower as bad solely for raising your inner “good” vibrations.
However, again reading your response gives me the impression we both “get” it hahaha 😂
Love you 💕😘
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April 7, 2021 at 8:24 PM #319739
Catherine Viel
ModeratorI think we speak the same language but differently, and I’m absolutely sure we both “get it,” dear Ralph!
Love you!
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April 20, 2021 at 6:51 AM #320169
OneRayLove
ParticipantRemembering pain and sorrow
Do you recognize the phenomenon to see pain and sorrow witnessing others? Not the obvious physical kind or emotional outburst, but the subtle heart broken kind.
I do remember them … they occurred in my past, stored in my brain and body. Ever now and then I am reminded of these feelings. They pop up in moments of nostalgia, listening to a song, observing couples, seeing a familiar situation being played out in real life, a movie or story.
It is never the observation itself that creates the sorrow though!
It is like watching a picture and you add sound, smell, taste and feeling to it possibly even with some dramatic tune in the background of your mind as well. You do this … you are doing this and the most remarkable is the fact, it can only be done in the Now moment itself!
Doesn’t this awareness alone proof how much of a Creator you are?!
Take for example the early dumb, black & white movies a century ago. This was a total different experience in relation to modern times movies. They lacked many dimensions compared to reality itself, sound and color for one. Nevertheless people could identify with the characters in it, because they filled in the blanks themselves.
This is exactly what we as humans do all the time, filling in the blanks, while “observing” the outside world.
There isn’t anything wrong with doing that, as you know you are doing it. When you know you are constantly doing this, you can make the most wonderful experience out of every moment.
The possibilities are unlimited and you are the Source Creator Being Inspired and Inspiring!So please, if you ever again think you are lacking empathy or compassion … remember pain and sorrow!
You created these feelings, because you related to similar experiences in your awareness field. The feelings are part of your akashic records, currently available in your auric field. You have attracted these Soul memories near in order for you to remember, transmute, rewrite and erase “false” debris.You could think, you aren’t sufficiently spiritually advanced to “access” these holy records, but they are yours and stored in your DNA. Your DNA isn’t solid, nor is it just physical. Human DNA is part of your current setup and is more like a transmitter/receiver combination centered around your “body” experience.
You keep your akashic records as part of your total Soul experience far beyond the human experience only. Also know you can not ever alter or erase anything True, only the “lower” interpretation you carry around in your bodies. Your feelings are at the intersection of all your bodies currently manifested in the universe and centered around your heart core.
Whenever you are drawn back to a “lower” sensation you feel in your body, remind yourself you are Being offered a cleansing by Self allowing “lower false” debris to leave and purer “higher truth” to remain. You are increasing your inner Light, becoming more Christ Aligned. Materialize crystal lined (light) rather than carbon based (solid perception in a duality separation) shifting into your diamond heart core Self.
Ultimately there will be no more “lower” memory to feel, only the vague mental recollection you keep stored in your “human” body.
Much Love 💞💓💕
Ra~Luv
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April 26, 2021 at 6:35 PM #320386
Catherine Viel
ModeratorReally appreciate this essay, dear Ralph, especially this:
You could think, you aren’t sufficiently spiritually advanced to “access” these holy records, but they are yours and stored in your DNA. Your DNA isn’t solid, nor is it just physical. Human DNA is part of your current setup and is more like a transmitter/receiver combination centered around your “body” experience.
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April 23, 2021 at 7:25 AM #320262
OneRayLove
ParticipantSimilarities between the ego self and the deep state elite?!
What are they? … Controllers!
What are they after? … Being in Control … Power!
What do they use? … Need for an Outcome … any Outcome will suffice!
Where are they stationed? … In the Mental electric frequency band … Thought Control!
How is this done? … Linear time past, fear analyzed projections beyond the actual present!Why am I offering this information? … To recognize when you enter this “control matrix” … empower yourself and step out of it!
How? … Remember how you stepped out of your ego? … Did you fight it, judge it and defeat it?
No you embraced it, forgave it, accepted how it got into this fearfully dark defending state and showed it love and compassion. Do you remember?How confusing it may be, looking out in the world and all that is happening. Remember the “dark” in whatever form present, is just a representation of a collective human ego. They both share the same light frequency band. The only recovery and way out of it, is stop feeding in!
When all the “conditional love” fear control fuel is eliminated, there isn’t any creative “matter” to sustain and construct this reality.
Hold your heart center. Focus on loving feelings and lift up the whole planet and universe. Empower your True Self!
Much Love as always 💕💓💞
Ralph
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April 26, 2021 at 6:38 PM #320387
Catherine Viel
ModeratorGreat analogy, Ralph, and SO TRUE!
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April 28, 2021 at 8:28 AM #320436
OneRayLove
ParticipantInstant Manifestation
This article today I have been willing to write for quite some time. There is this inner knowing surrounded by a cloud of “uncertainty” for lack of a better word. However I like to bring myself as a writer, creator and messenger into the most effective “collective connection” with my outside audience. I accept to the limitations in language and words to go to a higher place of knowing and feeling. I embrace these “conditions and terms” and start my journey now … writing and reflecting.
I will use examples from my past and current life, that use to bother me. They are still present in my body memory and as such are easy to “emotionally” connect to. Possibly I even carried them around that long for a “release and purpose” up to this point and this specific article, as a clearance for my individual self as well as a contribution to my collective humankind part.
Anyway lets dive in with the first example, my dear neighbor “Bob the Builder”. Bob isn’t his real name and to be honest I don’t even know his real name. I inhabit an apartment in a building complex at 3 high and came to live here in 2016. Bob has been living across the street downstairs my balcony in a house with garage. I came to address Bob as “Bob the Builder”, because Bob is always playing with his electrical machines … building stuff. Bob loves to make stuff and use all the tools he has. To me personally, Bob has caused many moments of frustration and irritation. Why? Because I was desiring peace and silence and he “prevented” this from being possible at many moments.
Bob is “training” me to have compassion and patience, focus on my feelings and learn to go with the flow. No easy task, especially when you realize yourself from a Higher Self perspective … everything happens for a reason … you have created this experience for yourself! Why? To learn something and master yourself, your thoughts, your feelings and becoming your Creator Self … beyond the perpetrator/victim construct.
The second example was in my past for a very long time … until it did not! This was in my inner knowing, sentiment and feeling in relation to my mother. My mother gave birth to three children, besides me as as the oldest, one younger brother and a sister. Please try to grasp the sensation itself and don’t dwell with any “drama” as this isn’t about that.
In my earlier human life before spiritual maturity I felt insufficiently appreciated by my mother in comparison to my brother! I was sure for a very long time she favored my brother in almost anything. I had so many examples and “proof” about these observations and interpretations, there was only one way of looking at it. I was absolutely sure I was correct in my observations and stored memory experiences about all of them (in my human physical body). This was the only Truth and the proof was in both my Mental as Emotional memory.Years passed by and every now and then, I tried to confront my mother with these observations and asked her why? She never conceded. As a matter of fact, every confrontation always disturbed the relation more .. up to a point of going around the subject all together. Many years later when I was spiritually growing up, I was somehow again offered an opportunity into this matter.
There was this moment so crystal clear again she took my brother’s side, I felt almost “superior” for a moment. How was it possible she “allowed” this perfect example and “proof” of my case to present itself? This was so clear and only one way interpretable. Like stuck with your hands in the cookie jar undeniably plain.Then in that moment of observation and wondering why, I immediately received an answer … it was my lesson all along! The lesson at hand never was about being right, but about letting go and transmute love to a higher spiritual level.
Up to this day, this example serves me the best of probably all lessons I mastered myself since. You see, my mother and I were not learning the same lesson!!! We both had a different lesson to learn. As long as I stayed in the perception to be absolutely right about the lesson she needed to learn, as long as I was in a need to be the teacher, I prevented myself to be the student. I remained in this self constructed death-lock for a long time. In all this time I was too focused on being right and focused on the outside world. Equally I prevented myself and my inner conflicting emotions and thoughts to enjoy the “actual” love and bliss to be present.The moment I truly focused on my feelings … my “lower” emotions and their corresponding mental interpretations of truth, I was able to rise up and see myself as a neutral observer and co-creator within the quantum energy field of all possibilities … out of the duality field of “right versus wrong, good versus bad, light versus dark”.
In that Now I altered myself and realized “Instant Manifestation”, by letting go of old “lower light”.
What I do hope to achieve with today’s essay, is people sure of an undeniable “truth” come to realize their creator self. Take a step back and realize you are always both the creator and co-creator (creation), initiator and mirror reflection (In ~ Out). Step into your true power whenever you are ready to declare that Now moment.
Much Love
Ralph
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April 30, 2021 at 8:01 AM #320487
OneRayLove
ParticipantWhat is Truth?
“Truth is whatever you want it to Be for as long as you allow yourself to Be a part of it!”
You have to be aware to realize. If you have “sufficiently” spiritually evolved to Know you are the source Creator around the core center of your Creation, you can hold this reality constantly. Therefore you have moved out of being a subject or toy of life, out of any victim-hood and into master-hood and originator.
So now what?
First thing to realize is you can’t blame anyone else for the way you feel … about yourself or the world you are a part of. If you are drawn to parts of this in~out (-side) world you perceive, you are in some form or shape attracted to it, guided by your Higher Self!
Next as advanced spiritual being, is become aware how you feel in the actual moments of these experiences. If you feel less then happy, you are remembering your past sorrow, disappointments or “reduced” conditions.
You have been “there” before and now have the advanced spiritual awareness to clear these shattered former expectations. Because that’s how you have stored them as a human being, they were part of your dreams and desires not to come true.
As a result you called upon your ego to help protect and defend you (as the self you perceived yourself) from the pain and sadness, to memorize and shield you from future occurrences to happen. The ego as part of your self controlling and defending mechanism helped you slow down your creativity frequency and as such assisted you become part of humanity and blend in with their collective constructed reality, centered around separation and duality.Secondly, realize who you always actually have been! You never have been a human, only a very brave curious soul willing to experience “being” in a human state … life. With every new life experience (incarnation) you gathered new exciting awareness of both likes and dislikes. In this constructed “illusion” you co-created the most challenging 3D schools ever created, Earth. In every new human adventure you took with you “tools and lessons” from past to help and facilitate you in this “mission”. Ultimately to remember yourself, your mission, your truth and become One with your Higher Self once-more.
Now that you know, your challenge is to reconnect with the feeling … Love. You are love and always have been love … anything less than love isn’t real, never existed and is therefore part of the “illusion” you have allowed yourself to become aware of. The “Truth” you hold is part of your stored memory in every step in this “separation experience”. You are the center of your Universe and the “Truth” is your moment in between breathing Light out and Love in. When Light and Love merge into One, you are reunited with your True Being, you are Good and One … God!When “Truth” feels like a wind, make sure you feel it in your back or coming from below … you are lifted up in the direction you are reminded to go … your next state of Becoming.
When “Truth” feels like a moment to tune in, to hear, see, feel, experience a sensation … you are reminding yourself as your Higher Being Aware.
The ever “free will” opportunity to experience All is who you Truly Are … I am!
Much Love
Ralph
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May 13, 2021 at 4:47 AM #320978
OneRayLove
ParticipantImagine Earth as kindergarten!
All earth souls dressed up in their “human costumes”. Some very old souls are wearing their “children” dress, while some younger souls are playing in their “adult and senior” versions. It is one big anthill like scenery, where all are very busy “doing” something … learning, acting and cleaning themselves up.
All are part of their “play”, while most perceive there is only One truth … reality!
So are they right or wrong?
They are “always” right!
Yet, not all are playing this game in the Now! Many are part of a separation construct in order to experience “individuality”. The “human” individuality game IS Multi-dimensional, however only perceived as 3D by many. This group unawakened ones live in the “corpo-real” experiencing their “human body costume” separate from their “Earth/Universe Body costume”.
Nevertheless “they” are always right, because they hold (onto) this awareness as Co-Creator/Creator/Creation, while not remembering/knowing they Are!
They hold a state of “wrong” however to believe their perception to Be the absolutely only truth. They aren’t aware “playing” a soul part in an “illusion as planned” … the Plan … this Planet … Gaia!Now, we also have a set of “higher” evolved souls playing in the Earth kindergarten. These “shadow worker” souls have “seen, heard and felt” the Light from within. They have started “their” journey back to One Truth … Love 💓
People reading these messages are to a certain level attached, attracted and holding this awareness. They are radiating and vibrating out of sync with “their” former “corpo-real”.
While ever attracting more Light, transmuting “their” inner and outer shadow, “their” perceived former “wrong, unjust, dark and evil … Lower Light”, they lift up … ascent out of the linear time concept into “their” Higher Self as One Now holding All Space/Time Awareness.Many of the new Light Humans “still” feel trapped by “their outside” body not to be in alignment with “their inner” desire and dreams. As long as “they” don’t realize … The Outside is a reflection of the Inside “they” hold/co-create, “they” will stay at the threshold of “their” Multi-dimensional Self in the 4th dimension, looking back into 3D and forward into 5D … in a futile attempt to change “only” the Outside.
Letting Go into unconditionally accepting Good … trusting God … is the only spiritual way forward and return to Reality.
Being Love in between Becoming Light
Much love as always 💖
Ralph
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May 17, 2021 at 7:34 AM #321179
OneRayLove
ParticipantCompensate
What is the energy of “compensation”?
Compensation holds a memory, a knowing to have held or acted “wrong” after gained new insight and a desire to erase and arrive back into balance and peace. By acting out “good” removing the “past bad” to know inside, without loosing face or admitting to the outside world what is “stored” inside (the body).
Currently many souls on Earth are “trapped” in the blaming energy surrounding “compensation”. You have to reach a certain self awareness and spiritual understanding to know “compensation” is creating “time and space” until ready to accept forgiveness. In a sense “compensation” prepares you for spiritual growth … at a “later” perceived point (for the self) in linear time.
How could you possibly learn, when you don’t allow yourself “mistakes”?
It can’t be done! Only in absolute “stillness” without any movement, thought and action are you perfectly aligned with One. This represents the “Holy Father” state of Being In Love. While on the “other side” of being in a momentary state you are always in between movement as represented by the “Divine Mother” Becoming Love, while breathing Light … as All Now!
Your body “knows” … even if the “lower mind” is still in denial! Your feelings can’t be fooled, nor is any punishment in order (related to judgmental thoughts rather than discernment ones). You only have to be honest to yourself and possibly “pay the price” of loosing face and incorrectly “thought” self worth.
Not an easy task as long as you are “addicted to a daily need” of outside → in love and appreciation from “others” for the “you”, you consider yourself to be (you cloak yourself in).Controlling this false separation game (Matrix) is pointless as you will never succeed beating your own shadow, although will become very tired trying! So eventually All will gain a spiritual awareness, where they unconditionally accept the self/Self they are.
Then they will grow into unconditional forgiveness. Possibly first to a level representing the “outside”, until finally arriving at their inner source to always have been the origin of their creation. In this realization eventually allow themselves to “forgive” their former self. This is the moment where you pass the “need” for any “compensation”, past or present and ascent out of the conditional 3D constructive loving all together as your own 4D portal.You are re-entering the unconditional multi-dimensional Love … True Reality, being reunited with your Higher-Self … permanently.
Much Love as always
Ralph
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May 17, 2021 at 7:49 PM #321203
Catherine Viel
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May 25, 2021 at 7:09 PM #321487
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantI’d like to share with you all a powerful clearing that I had today. I learned something extremely important about myself because of this trauma being triggered.
This morning when I was at work, I was taking orders in the drive-thru for the first hour of my shift. It was slow, so I decided to sit down in the break room and look at my phone in between cars. I was fully aware that I should not be slacking off like that, but I assumed that no one would care.
Then at the end of the hour, a manager came to get the headset from me, and said I shouldn’t be sitting in the break room. She took the headset and I got back to work doing my normal tasks.
Later in the day I apologized for sitting down on the clock, and she said, “Oh, you’re good.” So, all in all, quite a boring little interaction, right? On the surface it would seem very mundane, but what got triggered inside me was an avalanche of trauma.
Right after the first interaction occurred, I began to feel my heart pound; my breathing became erratic; I had to force myself with great effort to breathe deeply and slowly; I started to feel dizzy, and my throat felt tight. I was having a very bad panic attack, one of the worst that I’ve had in a long time, and it lasted for hours.
That might sound quite strange; why would I react so strongly to a tiny infraction such as this one? Well, I think I finally found the missing puzzle piece today.
I have always been utterly terrified of being in trouble, being punished, or being on anyone’s bad side. I was fully aware of that fact as I dealt with my panic attack, but I realized something deeper about it when my husband texted me today.
He asked me how I was doing, and I told him everything that was going on. He asked me why I was hurting so much, and I told him about my fears, and that they most likely span multiple lifetimes. I could feel something rising up within me to be revealed, and then I thought, “I must have been abused in my most recent past life.”
Suddenly, I started making dozens of connections. Everything in my life suddenly made so much more sense. My personality, my upbringing, my past and present friendships, my past and present romantic relationships, my employment, everything, even my astrology birth chart were all indicating that I suffered horrific abuse in my most recent past life.
I feel strongly that my past life was someone born into the cabal. I feel that he or she was among the younger generations; perhaps they would be in their 30’s right now. I don’t have any other details about that person, like if they were famous or not, and I think it would be best left alone for now.
Also, I think that there was a very, very long span of “time” that I spent in the higher realms between this lifetime and that one. I think I needed a long time to recover enough to be ready to tackle this life’s challenges.
I’ll share with you some of the connections I made after remembering my past life.
I’ll start with the stuff in my astrology chart. If anyone familiar with astrology wants to take a look at my chart, send me a private message.
The first thing that jumps out at me is my south node. I’ll summarize briefly that a person’s north and south nodes represent their soul purpose for that lifetime. The north node is the unknown, the new territory that needs to be explored, the new personality traits that need to be developed, etc. These will make the person feel happy and fulfilled in this lifetime. The south node is the area of mastery, the experiences of their past life that were fully explored and the talents that are brought over into the current life. My north node is in the sign of Libra and my second house; my south node is in Aries and my eighth house.
Another part of my chart that sticks out is that my fourth and tenth houses are intercepted (I use the Placidus house system). The signs intercepted are Sagittarius in the fourth house, and Gemini in the tenth house. Interceptions in a chart also relate to karma or lessons brought over from past lives.
I could go on and on about the nitty gritty details, but for the sake of brevity, I’ll cut straight to how I think those two sets of information manifested in my past life, and how they affect my current one.
I believe that because my south node is in Aries and my eighth house, and my fourth and tenth houses are intercepted, I was an angry, selfish person who only ever thought of herself because that was the only thing I was ever taught from birth. I had no freedom, and I was perpetually caught up in bloody dramas between me and my family members. I could never speak my mind for fear of retribution, and I learned very early that my parents didn’t love me.
I was abused in every way you can think of — physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually, etc. I lived in a world where only the cruelest survive, and I was taught to trust no one. I mastered the art of manipulation, and as a matter of course, I became an abuser.
I sense though that there was always a part of me that wanted to escape, but I never believed that I could. I don’t think my heart was ever fully in it, so to speak. My mother and father, my siblings, my peers, were never able to fully extinguish my light.
The traits that I see in my current personality that were brought over from my past life are as follows: I have an uncanny knack for probing a person without their knowledge, as well as a natural talent for understanding human psychology; I was very good at manipulating my parents to get what I wanted when I was a kid, and I can still feel the residue of that bad habit even today; I have been more of a selfish person than a selfless person growing up, which caused me a lot of confusion and guilt when I became a lightworker and saw how most other lightworkers were selfless to the point of self-neglect; I have a terribly difficult time with platonic relationships, specifically feeling a deep bond with someone when the element of sex is not present.
For that last point, I don’t know how to explain this in any other way, but it’s like my soul has forgotten what it feels like to love someone deeply, but not be in a romantic relationship with that person, because for that entire lifetime, I never got to feel love, and so the closest thing to love that I ever felt was sexual intimacy.
My confusion surrounding relationships, my deep fears toward punishment, my deep trust issues, my selfishness, my inner battle between wanting the world to leave me alone and wanting the world to love me, they all point to abuse.
Now, it’s quite interesting to see how my current lifetime was set up in response to my last one.
I was born into a family that had very few internal issues, relative to other families. Both my mother and my father are Libra suns; they are very caring and loving, and they did a wonderful job raising me. I was never abused during my childhood, and because I was a good student and a quiet child who didn’t leave the house very often, my parents didn’t control me; they left me in my room to play video games and do homework.
Now, I wouldn’t say that my parents did a perfect job raising me, because giving a kid that much freedom and basically no responsibilities could backfire really badly. But given the context of abuse in my past life, I think all of that was just what the doctor ordered.
Instead of my parents thrusting their own values upon me, I was able to form my own via the media I consumed… which could have also backfired badly, but I wasn’t going to let myself go astray in the most important life of my existence. I ended up learning a lot of important life lessons by watching anime, playing video games, and carefully observing my peers make mistakes at school.
The way that my current life is healing my broken trust is very interesting. My loving parents are certainly a big help, but strangely enough, my job has helped too. I was utterly terrified of getting a job when I was younger. The fear was so bad that I had to go to therapy to overcome it. I eventually got my first job at age 20, working for a McDonald’s.
Working there has really helped me to see that strangers aren’t so scary. I will admit that it still sucks, the customers can be super rude sometimes, but the job eased me into the diverse personalities of the real world.
Another thing that has helped me with my trust issues is becoming friends with someone that I met from my work. His name is Isaiah, and he’s the best person I could have asked for in a friend, and aside from my husband, the best friend I’ve ever had.
As far as romantic relationships go, each of my relationships has helped me work off my karma. The one that holds the most significance for me aside from my current one was when I dated my dearly departed Twin Flame. He was psychic, and helped me learn about my past lives, as well as communicate with people not on this earth. He helped strengthen my faith in my spiritual path, and I may not be who I am now without him filling my heart with wonder at the world beyond what we can see.
My relationship with my husband has been unimaginably helpful in healing all of my traumas because he allows me to feel my feelings and be myself completely. He’s very supportive of my spiritual journey, and he’s not afraid to call me out if I’m acting out from my ego or bad habits. He also allows me to call him out on his stuff, and we always talk through our issues and resolve things as fairly as we can.
There are dozens of other little things I’ve been noticing today since having this revelation, but I think you get the picture. I’m looking forward to the greater ease and clarity with my healing process now that I know my traumatic background.
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May 26, 2021 at 7:48 AM #321500
OneRayLove
ParticipantHello Alex,
Thanks once more for this wonderful honest and open post. You lift up the world around you by “just” Be your most aware full Self.
I can tell you are on a major shift rediscovering yourself on many levels. You are living “proof” of ascension being in full swing and in such assisting all others, while feeling and expressing your higher self.
Your post has many very interesting points, but I will only take one specific element out of this bunch … sexuality in relation to human understanding towards love!
In my current life sexuality manifested also as a major learning opportunity (as for most incarnated humans).For me sexuality is (unfortunately) still wrapped around the energies of “shame, taboo, indecent, unethical, wrong and get caught”. Just to name a few. When a person holds any judgmental energy in one part of their human bodies, this always has it’s reflections on other parts. It will function as a tense blockage around free flowing loving light.
Only in a later stage of my spiritual clarity, I developed a higher understanding … beyond the sole physical body.When you compare your body self to a tree, you know you are rooted and grounded from the bottom up (your chakras). It is this Root or Base chakra, where we develop our energy field of separation … which allows us to experience individuality.
It is also where all other diversions are rooted (male, female, good, bad).So sexuality allows you to experience union beyond self. In just a physical reality, you complete your body with another complement “outside” yourself. This serves many lessons within the whole duality spectrum Good versus Bad, Love versus Not Love (fear) but ultimately in reality between Inner and Outer reflections (thoughts and feelings) … manifested in an outwards duality reflection as Time/Space within Space/Time awareness … your self/Self.
As long as we distinguish energy between allowed and Not, we have not yet embraced our full Creator Self in All moments in past and present … therefore projecting future forward and outwards, New desires and dreams based on current understanding.
If this “understanding” within self holds memory of negative or bad as in lack or unjust, it will forward project a “need” to heal rather than a gratitude, blissful, loving energy!I see you are clearing house Alex. Please come to accept your past lives, just as your current and future ones, are all intertwined in the Now. In this knowing everyone is granted to come “clean” in “just” this life!
We are living on a Nexus planet in Christ Consciousness awakening realigning with Gaia, leaving all 3D separation.Everyone who desires to neutralize “past, lower, bad” karma is freely allowed to purify self and unify with their Higher Self. You did all this hard work already. You are shifting for quite some time and in a major fashion in recent events and clarity. You are not so much stepping in the Light as you are allowing yourself forgiveness of “dark” past to flow out.
The way I figure … your last major part is allowing and accepting your past “perpetrator and victim” selves as Your own Creations in order to Become the Master Creator and Angel you are Now (and always have been!).
In gratitude and loving embrace.
Ralph
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May 26, 2021 at 8:33 AM #321508
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you for your comments, Ralph. I think the reason why it is so easy for me to see the dark ones as my brothers and sisters, and hold compassion for them, is because I was one of them just yesterday, metaphorically speaking. The kind of tortured existence they all have in common is fresh in my soul’s memory.
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May 26, 2021 at 4:16 PM #321522
OneRayLove
ParticipantThanks 😊.
So allow me to ask you … When you tap in to “past” knowing are you drawn to the victim or the perpetrator?
Both hold the spectrum of “not deserving” love! Which one is stronger for you in this life, while tuning in Now?
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May 26, 2021 at 6:11 PM #321524
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantDefinitely the victim energy. I don’t want to hurt people, but sometimes I convince myself that people want to hurt me, or they are in some way out to get me. I played out all my perpetrator karma before my teenage years were over. Now I just have to complete the victim karma and regain complete self empowerment.
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May 27, 2021 at 6:40 AM #321552
OneRayLove
ParticipantThanks again Alex,
So I offer a more general reply, for you and others reading. Also as always this is based on my understanding within maximum unconditional love offering. Taking your example and my similarities to these matters as an input.
What we know is human experience as part of a duality illusion of in essence Love versus Not (love felt as fear).
Once you have evolved into your spiritual Self awareness and begin to grasp clarity around your Creator Self and your Creation, beyond perceptions of time and space, you entered your Now portal (All dimensions beyond 3D separation).
You start your shadow work, purging your “lower” debris and gain ever more light. Many times you see and feel both duality parts within a linear sensation, your stored memories of reality along “past time”. Remember you do the linear interpretation because of our human “interface” within One and All.
In this exercise you learn to balance and look for the center, where you find peace (forgiveness) as well as strength. From there you can lift up as Creator, blessing both ends of your experienced Creation. By allowing the Law of Elimination you shift in to Self Acceptance enabling love to transmute into grace and bliss.
This I refer to as the “Holy Trinity” as “Being in between Becoming”.After a while you will find it even more difficult to find your center. Why? Because Creation nor Creator is linear! But it helps you to unwrap false concepts like “linear time” and “inner versus outer”.
Also you will eventually discover that focusing on healing will be insufficient. Why? Because you can’t avoid taking the “issue or problem” into the mix. As you can not uncreate, you always feed energy to the very aspect you try to clear.
The only way out of this is “trust” in Self. So rather than “improve” something to become better (which holds memory of worse too) … focus on Good! Return to Being whole again and reunite with your Divine Bigger Self … God.
One last thing. In recent times I developed a “personal” method to assist me. After the linear balancing I was drawn to hold the center of the hurricane as a point of stillness to balance myself and the world around me. After a while even that wasn’t good enough anymore.
Nowadays I have to center myself in the middle of the Earth to balance my Self and All awareness and energy around me. I do hope many more will join me in Gaia’s core.Thank you so much Alex for being on this most remarkable life experience. Love you and all others making a difference.
Love and hugs 💞🤗
Ralph
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May 27, 2021 at 6:54 AM #321558
OneRayLove
ParticipantNoticed I wrote something strange “Divine Bigger Self” … while I intended to write Higher. Possibly this is an influence to assist us to grow beyond hierarchical conceptual thinking 🤔
Bigger still holds an opposite of smaller, but makes more sense when we evolve towards a collective consciousness.
Anyway. Love and hugs once more .💓💞🤗
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July 26, 2021 at 3:35 PM #324354
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantHello everyone, today I would like to share a new perspective that has just blossomed in my heart.
This school of thought came about because of my observations of all the people in the world and their unique views of it.
For many years, ever since waking up, I have seen people battle for dominance on the global debate floor. I see it like a massive stage where everyone is screaming as loud as they can, trying to make everyone else hear them and only them.
Over time it has weighed heavily on my heart, because I am also one of those people on the stage, vying for everyone’s attention, although my voice is quite weak in comparison.
Suddenly, an awareness higher than I have ever held sprouted up inside me; the best way I can describe my idea is this: we’re all perfect exactly the way we are.
Sounds mighty cliché, right? We hear this all the time from our friends upstairs, but I have found myself in a much deeper realization of this statement.
Something that I need to say in addition to that is that logic doesn’t work in the higher realms. Human logic as we understand it cannot comprehend the 5th dimension and higher because it is filled with paradoxes.
Our reality is in fact additive, not subtractive. The reductionist, empirical methodology of understanding reality that we worship under the label “science,” is depressingly flawed. Rather, it works okay when we use it for basic and practical things that tie directly to the survival of the human vessel, but it fails to make room for the seemingly paradoxical nature of our multidimensionality.
What really drove this home for me was coming to terms with flat-earthers.
There are some people out there that believe the earth that we’re living on right now is wholly and utterly fake. They think it is some kind of dome, a flat earth with a dome-like sky, and all the celestial bodies — the sun, moon, planets and stars — are holographic constructs developed by the cabal to trap us in this strange prison matrix.
When I read about this, and saw some evidence for it, my whole body froze up, and I started having a panic attack. It felt like hands colder than ice were crushing my heart, and I immediately rejected what I was reading and seeing. A few minutes passed, and I was asking myself, “Why am I reacting this way? I’m normally so open minded, even to the point of gullibility.”
It took me a few days to process my feelings, but I came to the conclusion that this is not part of my truth. I contemplated the possibility that the earth is flat, that it could be just a prison, or perhaps Gaia’s natural god given shape is a flat disc. I still ended up resonating with Gaia being a sphere, and that the sun, moon, planets and stars are real, not projections.
The point I’m getting at is that flat-earthers are not crazy. They haven’t been fooled, they are simply choosing to experience a different reality than I am.
This is why I mentioned human logic. If we try to understand our multidimensional reality using the reductionist, empirical scientific method, these paradoxes show up everywhere. But if we accept that all realities are real and that we create our own realities, then there’s room for everyone.
I think that most people are deeply disturbed by how flexible our realities really are, that even something as seemingly irrefutable as physical evidence is not enough to debunk one person’s beliefs and prove another’s. I certainly have had trouble accepting this idea until today.
Something that my aunt-in-law once said to me and my husband was, “I can go do research on the internet and find all the evidence I need to debunk your beliefs. And you can find all the evidence to debunk mine.” What I believe this means is that the flexibility of reality, a characteristic of the 4th dimension and higher, is beginning to show up more and more.
I think that in the near future, this flexibility could become so prominent in our everyday lives that we start having Mandela effect-like experiences in real time.
We could be looking at an event and the person standing next to us could be in total disagreement with what we’re seeing. And I don’t just mean disagreeing on abstract things like a person’s motives for their actions, I mean that one person could be looking at a tree, and the person next to them sees a metal street light.
I’ve read in a channeled message long ago that the 5th dimension has a psychedelic quality to it, so anticipating weirder and weirder phenomena to occur in the future is good advice in my opinion.
This all ties back to my previous statement that we’re all perfect exactly the way we are because we can have any reality that we desire without stepping on each other’s toes.
I want you all to cut yourselves some slack, like 10 miles of it. And cut twice as much for the guy next to you.
This kind of ascension — planetary and physical at the same time — has never been done before. None of us knows what the hell we’re doing. The only being that has the whole picture is Source.
Any being that has individuated consciousness that is separate from Source, no matter how blurry that line may be, doesn’t have the full picture, which means they are experiencing something new and unknown alongside us.
I like to use the analogy of inventing something new.
An inventor comes up with an idea and then drafts a blueprint. Then come the phases of trial and error, building prototypes, making mistakes, improving the blueprints, and finally building a product that works well enough to be mass produced and sold to the public.
You and I are inventors; we’re inventing physical ascension right here, right now, and it’s really messy.
If you do it first, you do it worst.
We all have to stop arguing with one another about the best way to go about all of this, which path is right, or best. We’re doing the best we can, in the most difficult ascension in the history of the multiverse.
I doubt that any ascension, physical or not, that come after this will be as hard, mostly because other planetary societies don’t even come close to the level of diversity that there is on Gaia — diversity in species, race, culture, beliefs, perspective, you name it. But I digress.
Everyone here on earth has embodied some form of energy that needs to be seen, felt and experienced to completion in order for this ascension to happen.
There are some people that need to see, feel and experience racism in order to assist the ascension process, either being the victim or the perpetrator. Others need to experience chronic illness, or relationship issues. The list is endless.
We lodged these energies into the human collective consciousness, and even the soil beneath our feet, and it all needs to be cleaned up.
All the chaos we see in the world is the best way that we could come up with for dealing with those lower vibrational energies. Yes it sucks; yes, we all wish this could be done more quickly, more smoothly, more gracefully, but this has never been done before, so this is all trial and error, even for our guides, despite their ability to see possible futures.
When we finish this, and everyone who has chosen to ascend does, our invention will be complete, and then it can be “mass produced and sold to the public.” Then other planetary civilizations will take our invention and improve upon it, but you and I will be recorded in the multiverse’s “hall of fame” for pioneering something so revolutionary, and doing it under such dangerous circumstances.
You are perfect exactly the way you are, your entire vibrational bandwidth — not just the pretty stuff, even the vibrations that you may think are unwanted, unnecessary, or unlovable.
Just do your best.
Move vibrationally in the direction that feels the best; that is where you’re meant to be. It truly doesn’t matter what that looks like externally, whether you think Gaia is flat or round, or whether you want to be a reiki practitioner or bank teller.
Just be you, in all your raw authenticity, and honor everyone else’s right to do the same. We all get to have what we want in the end.
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July 26, 2021 at 6:28 PM #324369
Catherine Viel
ModeratorWow, Alex, awesome! Thank you for sharing this.
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July 26, 2021 at 6:45 PM #324370
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you 😊 I wanted to add that I do believe in divine order, and that everything happens for a reason, but I also know there’s lots of room for “improv.” It’s just another one of those paradoxes that make human brains short circuit.
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July 26, 2021 at 7:13 PM #324373
Steve Beckow
KeymasterNicely put, Anael.
Bravo!
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July 27, 2021 at 2:24 AM #324390
Pink Rose
ParticipantVery nice Alex. Thanks for sharing.😊
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July 27, 2021 at 3:21 AM #324392
OneRayLove
ParticipantHi Alex,
Congratulations with your breakthrough 👏👏👏 There are many things I like about your “essay”, which is much more than that. Of course your wonderful way of writing, always fills my heart with joy. Also when I read between the lines and pick up on the energy in total, you radiate out strength, “logic” to a level of “knowing” and compassion for yourself and everyone else.
The everyone else you categorize all into the “hall of fame” … no wether, where they are at in this Earth school Masterclass for Souls!!
I like it a lot that you found your “spirit” to speak up in this way … as a Wayshower knowing her Self and seeing through the disguise of the Matrix.
Besides the fact that this is in itself a clarity call to all who are willing to hear it and tune in, I wonder if you like “us” in the forum to contemplate and ponder on the many aspects you offer?
It holds a lot of clarity, self awareness, collective awareness and Higher Lights and Knowing. So is it meant to “only” transmit out or should it also be absorbed in and jointly be processed interactively … cleaning and purging older rigid beliefs?
I wonder if you know the “double slits experiment” around the very existence of quantum physics? This very discovery and the history of it with many famous scientist had quite an impact and still has. It defieds “logic” and requires a “higher” need to observe reality and the basic laws of physics. In itself it opens up the universal laws around Spirit … although science and “reality” still very much are limited in proof and the five senses.
Anyway, I like what you wrote a lot 🙏 and how you wrote it and with your famous passion and style even more. Thank you so much again Alex for your wonderful contribution 💞💓💕🌈😘🙏
Ralph
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July 27, 2021 at 4:05 AM #324394
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantOh jeez, I feel embarrassed for some reason. I get crazy stage fright when I really put passion into something I share with others. I get all those thoughts about it maybe not being good enough or someone tearing down my work with criticisms. I am very happy that you like my idea. I guess don’t sweat it if you don’t agree with me, I’m only human, I don’t have all the answers.
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July 27, 2021 at 4:45 AM #324395
OneRayLove
ParticipantEveryone has this Alex!!! I have this all the time when posting something. I want to “do good” and “be liked” 💕😁
This is perfectly normal. What you should be proud about is trying to improve yourself … no matter what! This is empowerment of Self … beyond the reflections of “others” on the “outer”.
Please begin to see that you are the initiator of the Light you send out All around you. So when this Light is reflected back at you, which you perceive and Feel as Love … you should Know it is “just” a response!!! No more, No less.
However, when you perceive this reflection as “lower, bad or negative” then you are the only One putting these labels onto them. Also always remind yourself a) Every Feeling you ever had, was your own creation!
b) Remember the Intention you had when putting out your Light!!
c) When you Know you hold the maximum Intention in All your moments (especially when expressing) you Know you are Good … always.So when someone outside of you “reflects” lower vibration back at you and you notice this because you are sympathetic and empathic to them … ignore their level … it isn’t your’s to match!! You have passed this, you mastered yourself to “feel” and stay “high”.
Hope this makes sense!?
You know I love you, we all have our struggles, we possibly are better hiding them 😉😘
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July 27, 2021 at 11:44 AM #324415
OneRayLove
ParticipantInspired by your essay Alex
🙏💞💓💕🌈
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July 27, 2021 at 1:39 PM #324425
AnaelTheRoseAngel
ParticipantThank you for sharing these videos. I just watched the first one about the double slit experiment. I’m happy you jogged my memory about this experiment, I’m gonna have a field day contemplating how this connects to our consciousness.
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July 28, 2021 at 8:11 PM #324481
Catherine Viel
ModeratorWe do all have our struggles, as Ralph says. I’m glad we feel comfortable enough to make ourselves visible and share them here. Yay us!
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July 30, 2021 at 5:48 AM #324547
OneRayLove
ParticipantHello lovely friends,
Just finished Catherine’s “The Cross that Chose me” and “just” went through it reading and absorbing the energies. All the way at the end I felt a “peaceful energy” as in … Good … almost as to a level of surrender, which is probably the only thing at times left for us to “do”.
In a way I wasn’t triggered or intuitively guided to write at all. Still I felt some calm references to the “double slit experiment” as discussed and shown above. With this gentle pat … I thought of exploring if there maybe was a “message” available in assistance to my individual and collective observation and learning. So her I am …
What we are learning is a shift of our “own(ed)” awareness. Learning is shifting, is allowing. Now we have traveled a long way as humans, where we discovered new insights and fought inner and outer battles to change and convince. We have equally observed that there is so much information and knowledge out there, we feel and felt small by the very thought of it. Then we have this human understanding that we only use a small subset of our brain capacity and we have developed an “understanding” to put in, shuffle in more as to hold quantity over quality, when being able to “qualify better”.
Step back for a minute and observe what we are actually “doing”!? Is this truly the learning we should be after?
Not when it comes to love it isn’t. When learning “higher love” we should be unlearning the false constructs we still practice daily. We should empty the cup with the “lower” information and constructs that will no longer serve us on the journey forward. What are these “lower constructs”?
One of the major constructs we can see with our very eyes is the quantum universe as part of our “physical reality” … or rather the understanding it’s the other way around! When we see the intelligence within the “behavior and outcome” of electrons as “supposed” single individual particles, we will always fail … as science has realized.
It can’t be explained from a particle single dimensional field. It involves a higher consciousness of Oneness, beyond our human understanding of separation. The electrons “Know” they are part of the Quantum Universe, where Oneness is both part of Manifestation as well as Observation … they flow from One side of Self expression to another side … these “sides” are existing within the intelligence field of the Creator and can’t be separated!
We aren’t different from electrons … we are just as Quantum as they are. So our intelligence isn’t in our brain or how we trained it to maximize our human potential and experience, but in our Quantum Mind.
Stepping back from fighting “curses, bad, evil and crosses” is a victory over “lower owned understanding” of self within a single Dimensional Universe. Feelings are highly intelligent, just as our physical body is … because it is part and partial of the whole … the True One we are.
Thank you for allowing me to express myself 💕💞💓🌈🙏
Ralph
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July 31, 2021 at 5:34 PM #324614
Catherine Viel
ModeratorThank you, Ralph, a thoughtful rumination!
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August 2, 2021 at 6:39 AM #324683
OneRayLove
ParticipantAs I am within a very lovely grateful energy to observe and read this beautiful article …
I like to add an inner “Knowing” …
“The Etheric field discussed here is the “unseen” flow of the Intent you hold as a “Soul in human action” expressed as an Individual I Self.
It’s the Light force field In and around you (Out) … in No way limited by Space or Time!”
Thank you for allowing me to express myself 💓💕💞🌈🙏
Ralph
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August 6, 2021 at 5:03 PM #324872
Catherine Viel
ModeratorAnd thank you for expressing yourself, Ralph!
Xo💓💞🌈💞💓
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