Andy and Jupiter
Archangel Michael: When your heart is clear, not simply your mind, but your heart and your fields – because if your heart is clear, your fields become clear – then you are in direct alignment and service to the Mother and there can be no mis-step. (1)
The number of people on a bus who are looking at their cellphone the whole time amazes me. I imagine in my mind asking one of them a question and showing up for them like a commercial, with them waiting for the “Skip” button to skip me.
We are losing connectedness. We are unbonding. I get to see it from another angle hanging out with Andy. … I must suggest to her that she change her first name for protection. To Juno. Then we’d have Jupiter and Juno, king and queen of the gods.
It’s her foster parents who are abusing her. I don’t think they’re clever enough to travel and come after her even if they could locate her. Apparently she is the last of her four sisters to leave. The parents were using their social assistance to fund their own addictive lifestyle and abusing them if they protested.
It’s like all the world’s misery showed up on my doorstep – not actually, but internally – and I’m asking myself: What will I do? If I don’t help, who’s to say anybody will? How can I face you if I walked past this one without responding? In what way am I pathfinding?
My landlord won’t let me take her in because of her dog. Shall I drop everything and find her permanent, pet-friendly shelter? Yes, but with the proviso that if there is any deviousness in what results to call me.
I never wanted to be a father, because the only role model I had was a violent son-of-a-bitch and I didn’t want that lineage to continue. But I now see that the next place for me to go is to assume a fathering perspective, to take responsibility for my world from that position. I’ve gotten through my father hatred and now latent protectiveness and a willingness to act is emerging.
I became a rescuer and a defender, creating a defensive couple front with my mother. And the rescuer is now assuming a fatherly posture. I can feel the push in me. Not in form yet, but in spirit. After the Reval, it will be in form as well.
I’m now seeing what Werner Erhard was meaning when he described what responsibility really is.
Werner Erhard, Graduate Review, February 1980; from https://wernererhardquotes.wordpress.com/2016/06/28/if-not-you-who-if-not-now-when
Responsibility begins with the willingness to take the stand that one is cause in the matter of one’s life. It is a declaration not an assertion; that is, it is a context from which one chooses to live. Responsibility is not burden, fault, praise, blame, credit, shame or guilt. In responsibility, there is no evaluation of good or bad, right or wrong. There is simply what’s so, and the stand you choose to take on what’s so.
Responsibility begins with the willingness to acknowledge that my self is the source of my experience of my circumstances. And yet, on occasion, some people think that I think accidents do not happen – or would not happen, if I were ‘really’ responsible.
I am sure you will understand my occasional dismay when I am asked questions of this sort. On reflection, I usually recall that such questions derive from a well-intentioned (though perhaps limited) view of human dignity, an intention with which I can align myself, since my own intention is precisely to show that the experience of responsibility is enabling, not disabling.
I have no interest in the justification of circumstances or producing guilt in others by assigning obligation. I am interested in providing an opportunity for people to experience mastery in the matter of their own lives and the experience of satisfaction, fulfillment, and aliveness. These are a function of the self as context rather than thing, the self as space rather than location or position, the self as cause rather than self at effect.
I am not saying that you or anyone else is responsible. True responsibility cannot be assigned from outside the self by someone else or as a conclusion or belief derived from a system of concepts.
I do not say that you or anyone is responsible. I do say – with me, you have the space to experience yourself as responsible – as cause in the matter of your own life. I will interact with you from my experience that you are responsible – that you are cause in your own life and you can count on me for respect and support as I am clear that I am fully responsible for my experience of you; that is to say, from my experience of the way you are.
Ultimately, one experiences oneself as the space in which one is and others are. I call this the transformation of experience. At the level of source – or context – or abstraction – I am you. That is beyond responsibility.”
Werner Erhard is, in my experience, one of the greatest teachers – especially of entrainment (using mass media and mass workshops to reach students) – that America has ever produced. The compliant mass media crucified him. Some day he’ll be recognized for what he contributed to those who had ears to hear.
I needed to escape the leftover trauma of life in a violent family before I was ready to be anyone’s family. And now, after seventy odd years of struggle, I have escaped it. But I won’t transition into a “territorial” family. That box is too small for me any longer.
People will assume the manner in which they want to serve as lightworkers, the role they want to play, the attitude they wish to adopt. After the Reval, and before, the role I wish to assume is one that takes responsibility for his world and does what he can, even if sometimes it’s only to listen.
This is my world and I can’t live with myself any more unless I become universal in my outlook. And take decisive action.
This is my response to the chaos that has erupted, by the design of the dark figures in our society. I feel a fatherly attitude emerging. Remember that the only movies I had in my head were of a violent father. That turned me off fathering. But I am beginning to feel the urge. It’s a big statement and I can see the memes coming.
Not to become a target for scams. Not their father confessor for a dissolute life. Not anything deviant or corrupt. (Don’t bother me with honeypots. Michael won’t let you near me.) (2)
I wouldn’t call this my role as much as my leaning, orientation, or attitude. It’s how I prefer to enter into events already underway and act from that role or perspective.
What might your (conscious or unconscious) attitude or leaning be?
Footnotes
(1) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Dec. 11, 2013. (Hereafter AAM.)
(2) Steve: Can we also arrange a signal that will tell me that a woman coming to me is coming to me because I have a lot of money and she has malintention, so to speak.
Archangel Michael: We will not allow that.
S: Oh, very good. If I’m relieved of that worry, that would be very nice.
AAM: Yes, we will make the signals very clear. And you will feel a severe sense of discomfort with that person should that person even approach you. (AAM, Oct. 11, 2013.)