Now that I’ve identified a vein of irritability lying just below awareness and coloring all I say and do, it’s up to awareness.
Now I observe it as in the background at all times.
Irritability is how I get my way.
I breathe into it and it feels like a very thick fog. I recognize that as lethargy. (1)
And I notice that the two are related – irritability and lethargy. I use irritability to get my way and then blanket the scene in reality and in memory with lethargy. No wonder I can’t remember my own perpetrations. Is that something we all do?
I consider irritability a vital weapon of self-defense. And lethargy along with it, I now see.
Of the four means of presencing the Self (push, pull, be with it, and invoke the universal law), I’ll choose the fourth.
I invoke Archangel Michael and the universal laws of sacred purpose and as above, so below to take away from me this remaining breastplate of irritability and lethargy.
I invoke Sanat Kumara and the laws of karmic dispensation and elimination to relieve me of the karma that has me feel residually irritable.
I invoke the Divine Mother and the laws of change, sacred purpose, and grace to hold me to a path of truth, love, and peace.
Now the task at hand is to raise this background feeling of irritability to surface awareness and then keep it in awareness until it pops. That is, until I get the original incident that had me choose irritability as a lifelong career choice, so to speak. Once I get that, I expect the core issue (or vasana, latent tendency) underneath it will lift. (2)
Footnotes
(1) On lethargy, see
- “How the Fog of Lethargy Operates,” June 6, 2024, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2024/06/06/how-the-fog-of-lethargy-operates/
- “The Blanketing Mechanism Called Lethargy,” October 2, 2023, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/?p=348441
- ”Leaving the Fog of Lethargy,” September 7, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/09/07/leaving-the-fog-of-lethargy/.
(2) See Vasanas: Preparing For Ascension by Clearing Old Issues at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/05/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R16.pdf