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Off and Running – Part 1/2

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My mission is to go up along with everybody else and write about it. My model is Everyman. My intended reach is global.

My brand of writing is usually characterized as “awareness writing,” sometimes as “ethnography,” and sometimes as “stream of consciousness.”  

Long.

Any enlightenment experience, short of Ascension (sahaja, vijnana, moksha), (1) as far as I know, waxes and wanes and can prove impermanent.

We retain some of the freed-up capacity but not the fullness of it (usually).

Which is why I’m in here today, scribbling away in stream of consciousness, while the experience I just went through and its afterglow lasts. I want a record of what just happened. My memory will not serve.

***

These experiences introduce us to the love that exists on the higher dimensions. (2) They introduce us to what lies ahead.

That love is the Prime Fact of everything we experience there.

I’ve been calling what happened “emergence.” A synonym is “breakthrough.” These are terms from the Growth Movement of the 1970s.

Unless we break through our fear and secretiveness around hot-button issues, our faces, after a while, reflect our fear and we act constrained.

That said, there are some people I know who within a month of my having had this experience will probably have a similar. That’s how the collective consciousness and the law of attraction and repulsion works.

I’m gradually remembering some of the events of the past two weeks that led up to this. It or they were triggered by someone questioning my support for the Iranian people, an arrow shot into the sky that found its mark.

I guess the Iranian people stand in for my Mother, who was abused.  And the Mullahs stand in for my Father. I said I’d help my Mother some day and supporting the Iranians against the Mullahs seems to be that day.

Add to that the horrific fact that reportedly 40,000 of them died for their freedom.

Add to that that I was a refugee adjudicator and sat on numerous Iranian claims during the very-tragic 1998 student rebellion. I know what happens in Evin Prison if protesters even get there.

I went off like a volcano.

I feel better getting that piece of the drama off my chest, as we climb together out of our core issues, programming, and conditioning. My questioner did me a service.

What a big fire a small match lit.

Namaste.

***

I believe that my emergence most likely will calm down and I’ll have invited all kinds of expectations, etc. But that goes with the territory.

I’ve been saying for years that Michael wants me to take a leading role in winning not only peace as in a cessation of hostilities but an inner peace as well. (3) I now see, after this experience, how that might be possible.

He graciously granted me an experience of deep peace some time ago now, which I’ve described elsewhere. (4)

On another occasion he said that I knew that at some point he’d be asking me to take a very global role in matters. (5) But I got him to agree that we could keep it to writing. (6) This is my love, not interviews or podcasts or lectures, etc.

As I said above, I’m to go up with everyone else and write about it – and be Everyman.

So I was forewarned. Just utterly ignorant. And I didn’t take it all seriously.

***

A little before this happened, I was at my wits end. I probably was doing the equivalent of kicking up and down in my bed. I know I was doing what spiritually equates to screaming my head off.

I was mired in so much work, repetitive work, that there was no time for contemplation.

Notice in passing, “screaming my head off.” I had to be at that extreme place wanting a breakthrough for Michael et al to grant my request.

I needed a bigger brain! You tell me I came here, I shouted inwardly, with my mental capacity as intact as the human body allows, that I see solutions more easily than other people (a higher-dimensional capacity)? (7)

Where is that mental capacity?

You tell me that my mind runs at the speed of a starseed computer. (8) And yet I have no short-term memory and haven’t since before 2012, when I protested to Michael and the Mother: How am I going to do what you want me to do with no short-term memory?

So I screamed at Michael: I need a bigger brain! And that was not very long before this sudden sickness and fasting suddenly started.

Remember that Michael engineers/influences events so that he can accomplish a number of things at one time.

Therefore, know that one of my three friends in life just went away for more than a month, making me a solitary monk again. What timing!

And so what happens?

I immediately start vomiting and vomiting and vomiting. I take a sip of water and vomit again.

I sleep most of the time for four and a half days, losing all interest in food and even water.

It took me a few days to realize, once I came out of it, what had just occurred.

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This is how emergence began.

Only, every other time I’ve “broken through” (I counted 23 by around 1992), I’d broken through on a single issue. (I gave them names: Flame in the Heart, the Silver Bullet, Porteau Cove, the Inner Universe, etc.).

[As an aside to what I’m about to say: Archangel Michael once said to me in a reading that, up till now humans had been mastering a single virtue or, in my words, breaking through on a single issue. Now he wanted us to master all the divine qualities or, in my words … well, let me get back to that. I’d call that Ascension.]

This “emergence” was not like any other breakthrough I’ve experienced. This was not breaking through on a single issue. This was a doffing of the entire suit of armor that we call “character armoring.”

The muscular holding patterns yielding to relaxation. The memory purged of all traumatic memories.

This was a dropping away of all programming, conditioning, old baggage. (I hope it lasts.)

Notice the similarity to Da Free John’s experience of his Sahasrara or seventh chakra simply falling away.  Going beyond the seven-chakra system is Ascension. (9)

OMG, I’ve been here before.

At an enlightenment intensive, I got through a monster core issue and, on the other side, do you know how I felt?

Blissful? No. Ecstatic? No.

Normal.

What a joke.

And I feel normal now. That’s all. Just normal Steve.

It’s like getting a second chance on life.

(To be concluded tomorrow.)

Footnotes

(1) See:

(2) See Love Like we Never Imagined It to Be at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Love-Like-We-Never-Imagined-It-to-Be-R17.pdf

(3)   Archangel Michael: Your job is to participate and to lead in a worldwide peaceful revolution, for peace the time is now. …

And we do not mean an absence of war. We mean the presence of peace as you have been describing it. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Feb. 18, 2011.) (Hereafter, AAM.)

(4) See “First Glimpse of the Natural Self,” February 21, 2017, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/02/21/first-glimpse-natural-self/

(5) Archangel Michael: You have known that the time would come when we would ask you to work very much on a very global level. And this is the beginning of that undertaking. You have already built a very firm foundation for this to occur and for this we thank and bless you.
  (AAM, Nov. 30, 2011.)

(6) Steve: When you say world leadership, is that in communication? Because I can’t think of an area that I lead in except communication.

AAM: Yes, it is in the arena of communication and it is also in the arena of, particularly, how one communicates. (AAM, March 28, 2018.)

AAM: You are a writer. You are a communicator. That is the mission that you have chosen throughout time and space, and we want to tell you what a good job you are doing. Do not doubt yourself, and do not allow the fears, the drama, the chaos of the human interactions affect your knowing of your mission and purpose. (AAM, April 10, 2012.)

Steve: If I carve out a lifestyle kind and attentive to the needs of awareness writing, are you alright with that? That’s really my first love?

AAM: I am over the moon with that! You can do the writing and I will do the art and music! (AAM, Aug. 2, 2017.)

AAM: I beg of you, do not assume that, when you write of what you are calling “the inner work,” that this does not have profound effect because the focus of the leadership movement, right now is on the inner work. (AAM, June 7, 2015.)

AAM: On the list of things to do, let [writing] always be the last thing that falls off. (AAM, Feb. 7, 2013.)

(7) AAM: You have come to Earth with a significant mental capacity, shall we say, that allows you to see solutions and thought patterns and ideations more clearly than many. (AAM, Aug. 3, 2015.)

(8) AAM: Yes, your mind is connected. You have done your work. And very often you are connected to what you would think of as Universal Mind. And that’s why we laugh when you say that your veil is thick. Your veil may be thick on your eyes but it most certainly is not on your brain.

And so you are keyed in and it is running at the speed of, shall we say, a Starseed computer. (Archangel Michael, “The Master Electrician Rewires a Starseed,” Aug. 4, 2011, at http://stevebeckow.com/2011/08/the-master-electrician-rewires-a-starseed/.)

(9) Da Free John: In February I passed through an experience that seemed to vindicate my understanding. … I saw that what appeared as the sahasrar, the terminal chakra and primary lotus in the head, had been severed. The sahasrar had fallen off like a blossom. The Shakti [or energy, kundalini] , which previously had appeared as a polarized energy that moved up and down through the various chakras or centers producing various effects, now was released from the chakra form. (Da Free John,The Knee of Listening. Original Edition. Clearlake, CA; Dawn Horse Press, 1984; c1973, 117.)