… except for the desire for God
I was using the days off to ask myself what it is I’m wanting. I cycled through everything I could think of and finally reached the answer, “Peace,” and stopped.
Not security. Not even predictability. But inner peace in the face of all outer storms.
Again, as with love, I’m speaking of higher-dimensional peace, the peace that passeth understanding because the mind has fallen silent. (1)
And again I find that I can breathe that peace up from the opened heart.
Oh my, the answers are right here in front of me. The motivation, the willpower to use them to extricate myself from whatever is there is usually lacking. If it’s not going to help me with my update, then, sorry. I’m busy. …
I don’t think the Mother would consider that good priorities. I’d think peace comes first and busyness only later.
I’m now drawn to meditate….
Later….
In the course of my meditation, I saw that one thing that blocks realization and thereafter bliss is desire (vasanas are another): “I want.” (2) And what I want is usually some physical pleasure or satisfaction.
And not just desire for physical things, but for emotional things, acknowledgment, experiences, etc.
I immediately remember what Krishna said:
I am all that a man may desire
Without transgressing
The law of his nature. (3)
And flashing on that, I next flash on the purpose of life: The purpose of life is enlightenment, a voice told me during my 1987 vision. (4) The purpose is that God should meet God in a moment of our enlightenment.
So if we desire other things than God, well, that’s what the Company of Heaven calls a “scenic detour.” It’s not aligned with the purpose of life.
Lest you think that that’s God’s desire and not your own. Guess what? It’s yours too because … who are you? Hmmmm….
It’s God’s desire and my desire that we should meet and reunite.
I don’t think letting go of desire is something we have to do for our entire life, but just, solidly and deeply, for one moment.
We’re all servants this lifetime – waiters at the banquet of Ascension. (5) I don’t think we’re expected to be monks. The Mother wouldn’t allow me to become one by having too advanced a spiritual experience. (6)
Moreover, we’re being elevated to Ascension. As we gradually refine our vibrations, enlightenment becomes ever nearer to our reach. We probably don’t have as much to divest ourselves of as someone, say, in the tenth century. Our desires are probably becoming more refined.
Or disappearing. Our being overall is probably experiencing more love, which lessens desire remarkably. We eventually find that love IS what we desire, what we’ve been looking for, the treasure hidden buried in the heart. As the Mother said: “the love energy … is what Ascension is.” (7)
After my heart opening, I once found myself in an Ocean of Love, with me just a point of awareness. (8) So I know that love is all there is, outside of this point of awareness, dancing to the Mother’s cosmic music.
Ultimate love is what the Mother is; (9) the Father is said to be ultimate consciousness or awareness. (10)
Footnotes
(1) See “The Peace that Passeth Understanding,” July 18, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/07/18/the-peace-that-passeth-understanding/.
(2) See:
- Vasanas: Preparing For Ascension by Clearing Old Issues at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/05/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R16.pdf
- Desirelessness and the Still Mind at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/06/Desirelessness-and-the-Still-Mind-1.pdf
- Let’s Go! Let’s Grow! Vol. 6 Ego and Desire at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/11/Lets-Go-Lets-Grow-V6-Ego-and-Desire-R2.pdf
(3) Sri Krishna in Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher Isherwood, trans., Bhagavad-Gita. The Song of God. New York and Scarborough: New American Library, 1972; c1944, 71.
(4) See “Chapter 13. Epilogue” in The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Purpose-of-Life-is-Enlightenment-6.pdf
(5) See “Starseeds: Waiters at the Banquet of Ascension,”
(6) Divine Mother: Let me be very clear…. [if you had seen] the light [at Xenia, Sept. 18, 2018] as it actually is – yes, a million, billion suns – you would have simply departed. …
We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us – for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, ‘I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!’” (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)
(7) “Universal Mother Mary’s Ascension Splash!,”channeled by Linda Dillon, May 31, 2017 at https://counciloflove.com/2017/05/universal-mother-marys-ascension-splash/.
(8) See “Point of Awareness in an Ocean of Love – Part 1/2,” November 20, 2020, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2020/11/20/point-of-awareness-in-an-ocean-of-love/
(9) Divine Mother: My entire essence is love. It is the totality, it is the breakdown, it is the microscopic parts. I AM love. (“Video and Transcript: Universal Mother Mary’s Mother’s Day 2017 Message: Resurgence of the Tsunami of Love,” May 14, 2017, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/05/14/video-universal-mother-marys-mothers-day-2017-message-moms-gift-to-us/.)
(10) “That into which we merge ourselves in the cosmic consciousness is Satchidananda. It is one eternal Existence that we … are, one eternal Consciousness which sees its own works in us and others, one eternal Will or Force of that Consciousness which displays itself in infinite workings.” (Sri Aurobindo, The Synthesis of Yoga. Pondicherry: Sri Aurobindo Ashram, 1983, 395.)
“In the Vedas, reality experienced at the transcendental level is called Brahman. This term denotes a non-dual pure consciousness which pervades the universe and yet remains outside it.” (Swami Nikhilananda, Hinduism. lts Meaning for the Liberation of the Spirit. Madras: Sri Ramakrishna Math, 1968. 29.)