Pat has an extensive background as a social worker working with ritual/Satanic abuse victims.
Integrating Evil & Divine
Pat Legere, Retired Social Worker
Today I feel the intensity of both evil and divine in the world. It’s hard when you realize you have lost innocence. Innocence is there when you see all love and beauty in the world.
The world is full of good things – people who are cheerful and caring, air that is refreshing to breathe, food that is delicious and nutritious, friends who we have great fun with, laughter, lovely music – a world filled with opportunities for exploring and learning. Innocence is so sweet and easy.
As you grow up in the world you see also the ugliness – a parent whose temper flares from frustration, deep sadness with loss, the pain of losing a friend or rejection from people you wanted to become friends with, experiencing ridicule or bullying, failures of all kinds – there are a myriad of ugly experiences.
I feel deep sadness that the world is not the wholly beautiful place I imagine it could be.
Wanting to contribute to happiness in the world, I decided to go into the ‘helping profession’. This brought on an even higher knowledge of both good and evil in the world around me.
Listening to thousands of people sharing their inner experiences in the present and past of their lives, I witnessed a lot of suffering that I would otherwise have not known about. Those stories were sometimes told of more minor pain that, nonetheless, robbed them of enjoying life. There were also the extreme cases of severe and ongoing tortured abuse.
Each person on this planet experiences both joy and pain – and a loss of innocence. I used to have a poster in my office that had the picture of a clown. He had the painted-on smile and his real mouth was very sad. The poster read: ‘Share with me your sadness, I’ll share with you my joy.’
But it’s the sharing process that brings out all the pain and also joy. Some of my most devastated ‘clients’ were also visited by angels. Some shared almost magical good experiences that happened in the midst of chaos. It would take many books to write about the many experiences I heard about in listening to and caring for people. They taught me so much!
In today’s world, there is a major exposing of so much ugliness. There is a very evil group of people who have been running the world for centuries, if not millennia. Most of known history was written by those people as well.
They want you to think of life and history in a certain way – with them being the heroes. Wars, famine – struggling with all kinds of destruction and depravity – were ‘normal’ in a world full of inadequate people. They carved many lies into what we learned and hid their motives and interference.
Some say our purpose for being here on this Earth is to learn to manage our inner evil potential and choose the divine within us to shine through. That is a loaded statement! Are human beings inherently both evil and good? We can only speak for ourselves so I will tell you how I experience myself.
I know in my heart that I am inherently good, loving person. That doesn’t mean I don’t feel angry and even potentially aggressive to ward others at times.
I guess people get angry about a number of things. Some get angry about their lot in life – that they weren’t born in a wealthy loving family, for example. Some get angry that they aren’t able to control other people to get what they want.
I don’t think I’ve ever been angry about those sorts of things. What does make me angry is when people hurt other people, especially hurting more vulnerable people, like children. Some of the unfairness in life can make me angry for a time but mostly when people exert their power and status over others.
How would I like to treat the person doing the harm? The ideal is to be able to help that person become more aware of the harm they did/are doing and to sort out where that energy has come from. Usually there’s a wounded child within them that needs healing.
I’ve known people that have come through that and become a person who refuses to harm or overpower others. With due diligence they can stop their ‘automatic’ behavior to harm that they learned in response to others who have hurt them in their past.
First they have to become aware of the harm they caused and motivate themselves to want to change. This can be quite tricky as many have convinced themselves that their behavior was warranted or deserved or understandable.
You can ‘justify’ almost anything if you want to. Learning to not do that so you can become a caring, responsible person is worth the inner struggle. My sincere wish is for everyone who has been harmful/abusive to others – that they would learn and grow so they learn to never be like that again.
Some people are very locked into the quest for power – even addicted to it. They are unable and unwilling to feel controlled, hurt or overpowered by others. They are also unwilling to feel guilt or fear.
Some train themselves to enjoy watching a ‘weaker’ person in pain. Some learn to be indifferent to it – blocking any sense of compassion for victims. Sometimes there are powerful people in their group who they would not challenge but if they get overpowered by those people or anyone else, their immediate need is to harm and control someone else.
They don’t think about it – they just do it. I really don’t think we, as humans, can heal those kind of people. I wouldn’t want to see them ‘suffer to learn a lesson’ but would want them ‘contained’ where they were unable to harm anyone else. I doubt they are ‘rehabilitatable’.
From having spoken with 1000’s of people over the years on an intimate level, I do believe humans beings are inherently good, woven from the divine, if you will. I also believe that as the evil ugliness is being exposed world-wide, the intense divine light energy is also coming out in extremes.
People care about their fellow human beings. We want to create a world where no one hurts others, regardless of who they are – a world where ‘service to each other’ is the mainstay. In such a world we could re-capture our innocence and use every opportunity to become creative.
Pat Legere
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