by Digger Barr
https://gaiasgardens.guru/
What purpose does Hate serve?
Of the multiple emotions I have tried to examine them all.
I have run personal experiments trying them on to see, feel and observe how they affect me.
I have seen what affect my emotions have on other people and made note of how my practice progressed.
I noted their responses and how their responses then interacted with my emotion.
I have not intentionally done that with hate but I have felt the emotion. Who hasn’t right?
It has been my conclusion that emotions serve a purpose and that we have them for a reason.
Even anger which many gurus steer people away from as being negative and undesirable I have found is useful and even necessary in the right situation.
I have not considered hate as one of these useful emotions.
Unless of course to use it as a measure of comparison.
One major difference from anger, jealousy, fearfulness, paranoia, happiness, sadness and giddy goofiness is where hate resides.
While anger can arise in a flash or slowly surface as a slow burn, hate burrows deeper and deeper away from the surface.
Hate can be boiling beneath the surface and not be seen unless triggered.
After I experience a moment of anger it usually fizzles out.
Then I am typically apologetic for any foul behavior that emotion may have influenced.
I don’t see hate as being able to release its grip in this way.
Hate is a difficult emotion to resolve.
If allowed to fester it grows. The deeper embedded it becomes the harder it is to transmute and release.
I would say that not only is it harder to release, it becomes more desirable from the individual’s point of view.
They may not want to release the grip hate has on them.
Almost like it justifies itself every time it rises to the surface. “Yeah, I am here and I am more correct than ever.”
Hate is a cancer that grows and has such a hold over its host they actually want to feed it rather than find a resolution to rid themselves of it.
Of all the emotions, hate is the worst feeling of all.
When experiencing the dislike for something so much it turns into hate, the feeling tears and rips at the insides of my soul.
It feels rotten. It hurts and it makes me crazy.
I want to hurt others so they can feel the pain that I am feeling.
I thought, They should be punished for opposing my ideologies.
Anyone that believes in what I hate, needs to change their mind or be punished for their differ thoughts.
It becomes personal.
If they do not accept how I think, they are my enemy and I will hate them.
And anyone else that agrees with them must also be hated.
The cancer grows and grows. It really is an awful feeling.
Fortunately for me I have not felt hate in a very long time.
I can still strongly dislike something but dropping into the cesspool of hate doesn’t appeal to me in any way.
From what I experienced when ‘Hating”, it was an absorption into a very dark and negative condition that turned me into a raving frothing monster.
Even remembering it and writing about it drops my energy into an uncomfortable place.
When I think of this emotion growing amongst my loved ones, I get emotional too.
My emotion becomes one of sadness at the pain they must be feeling.
What caused them to register so deeply in this agenda that they are now stuck with this cancer?
I take a deep breath and wish for them to be relieved of this burden.
There are many causes and we can discuss those from sunup to sundown and still have not covered them all.
I will sum it all up and just call it the darkness.
The darkness has found them and has taken a hold of their minds.
And now it only takes a trigger word or idea and they become frothing monsters.
They lose the ability to hear.
They lose the ability to think clearly.
They seem to have lost the ability to climb out of this rut and they certainly don’t see how it affects themselves detrimentally.
They would not accept a hand up when offered.
They can only see and feel the hate for anything that doesn’t fit in their box.
There are safe subjects and there are safe activities, but once that line is crossed, the gloves come off and glazed eyes take over.
When I first experienced hate, I would say it was justified.
But I did not like how it made me feel either. So I attempted to change how I felt.
I knew I could not change the past or change the person, but I wanted me to feel better.
What I did was forgive this person for hurting me so badly.
It did not require forgetting about the crime or the harm I felt.
It was a simple decision to forgive them and know that one day they would have to be accountable.
And that day would be their punishment.
Nothing I could say or do would be punishment enough and so I let go.
I let go of needing to punish them.
I let go of needing to see and feel them hurt as much as they hurt me.
I let go of the need to hear their apologies.
Even if they did, it wouldn’t change things.
So I put it in the hands of God and let go.
‘I forgive you’ I said to no one.
I was only 15 years old and I kept it to myself.
I said goodbye to my self inflicting wounds and started to heal.
A huge weight floated off my chest as I knew I had discovered a universal gift.
The gift that forgiveness brings to those who practice it.
As I watch the effects of hate eat its way into the hearts and minds of troubled individuals, I want to share my experience and success with them.
They are not ready for it. Well, some might be but it isn’t up to me to tell them what to do.
It would only trigger them again and then they wouldn’t listen.
In many ways they have become trapped.
But I can still do what I know to be helpful.
I can ask for forgiveness.
I can send forgiveness.
I can practice forgiveness.
To the perpetrators of the harm we have all experienced;
“I forgive you. I will not forget. And neither will you. You will be held accountable. There will be a day of reckoning. But to those whom you have recruited to perpetuate your hate and pain, I ask for them to be released from this cancer at once. Return our loved ones to us. ”
Dear Lord, Help them clear this dark energy that blinds them so deeply.
To my loved ones, I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you
To my country, I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you
To the world, I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you
For world peace and the healing of humanity I adhere to the following practice.
The Hawaiian practice of Ho’oponopono mantra: I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you
It doesn’t matter how you choose to forgive.
But in my experience it makes you feel so much better.
In order to heal the world we can start with one person at a time.
We start with ourselves.
With love and gratitude
Digger25