How deep did I want to go with it?

Around a half hour ago I had a revelation. One of the interesting things about it was that I was conscious of having it.

I saw that how deep the revelation went depended on how deep I was willing and able to go with it. I’m leaving aside the toning down of experiences which would take me away from my soul contract.

I had a revelation and a revelation about the revelation. Two for one.

What was the revelation? Quick. Before I forget.

I’ve been saying to myself that I can’t be committed to the divine qualities because, if I do, I’ll make more friends. And I can’t make more friends because I use friendship time for writing. That’s how I had the matter rigged up.

Besides, I need to be in deep concentration much of the day and it isn’t consistent with many friendships.  Interruptions are the bane of writers.

So, based on my reasoning, I made a lifestyle choice: I don’t want a large number of friends.

So therefore how can I commit to the divine qualities?  Commit to the divine qualities and you have a lot of friends, right?

That’s my dilemma.

Big battle raging. Then suddenly someone – not me – says “I’m committed to the divine qualities, not to people.” What?

Hard saying. Your first reaction may be to draw back. God? Anti-social?

Well, not God. Probably my guides or Michael.

But to make a distinction between the two – divine qualities and people? It would never have occurred to me.

You mean one can, without offending, decline contact? (1)

I’m now restored to choice. I’m committed to the divine qualities and:

(1) I don’t want to make too many friends because I write.
(3) I’m happy with a small circle much as I have now, within which to practise the divine qualities.
(2) I’m concerned to leave friendly people in good shape if I decline overtures. I’ll have to do it gently and politely.

At the basis of my difficulty is the fact that the situation isn’t either/or. I’m committed to the divine qualities and the rest is also true. From that point on, I’m called upon to choose.  (2)

Simple observation to some people but, with my set of vasanas, big revelation to me.

Phew! What a relief.

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But that’s only half the revelation. The second half was the revelation about revelations.

To return to it, I clearly saw that, barring divine intervention and moderation, how deeply I went with the revelation simply depended on me – what I was willing and capable of.

So this was not an idea. This was not an experience. This was a realization of a kind I call a “revelation.”  Minor in its impact, perhaps, but still decisive. It resulted in a change of mind and behavior, which usually only comes when we have a deep realization about something.

How we receive the revelation and what we do with it is also important. What to me are simply “ideas” in my mind when viewed from one perspective are in fact inspiring insights that alleviate conflict and explain otherwise “mystical” processes when viewed from another.

I didn’t have to get off the train where I did. I didn’t have the energy for going further, which supports what Matthew says about the desirability of taking care of the body, etc. I got off the train of revelation where I did but the train kept on going – without me.

I had around two or three minutes to “be with it” before I had to engage again in social conversation. With that it receded into the background.

Archangel Michael would probably call that a “snap.” And each time we have one, he said, we go up a level. (3) I don’t know about the last part, but whether or not it’s a “snap” or just an “Aha!” depends on what I can and will allow.

Then, as always, I’m left with more questions than answers.

I have to wait for the next revelation to answer them.

Footnotes

(1) I had a reputation for being blunt in certain  circumstances. Underneath that is a vasana of not caring what people think of me. Underneath that is the hurt of feeling rejected by my father.

(2) The fact that I had the divine qualities and social contact somehow causally linked was preventing me from seeing that I’m “at choice” with both of them. The one needn’t entail the other.

I was giving – and do give – my power away.

(3) Archangel Michael: Think of how every time you especially enter the transformative love, that is a snap. It is not the full dramatic snap but it is a snap. Each time you are progressing up what you can think of as a level.  (“Archangel Michael on Snaps, Expansion, and Ascension,” June 6, 2017, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/06/06/archangel-michael-on-snaps-expansion-and-ascension/.)