I seem to have had nothing but crises go off lately – my bank account was hacked and $2000 taken, (1) my printer suddenly stopped giving good prints (2), the landlord just announced a summer-long balcony reconstruction project, (3) etc.
This is very useful. My Gawd, I’m reactivated! Yippeee! (4)
We can’t deal with our core issues (vasanas) unless they’re up.
How long have I been describing the quality of higher-dimensional peace to you. And now – there are no accidents – (5) I find myself at the opposite end of the spectrum.
This is not-peace.
And seeing it and feeling it has me appreciate more about peace. If I were just in peace, and never its opposite, peace would fade into the background of obviousness and I’d think no more about it.
Not being in peace has me reflect back on it, out of which I learn more about it.
I can only dig back in memory to tell you what peace feels like. In peace, I feel solid. When I check my stance, it’s naturally, completely stable. There’s no wavering.
In peace, I feel no issues arising. I feel no thoughts arising. I’m just here and feeling wonderfully relaxed and yet strong.
When I now look at this state of peace, I hypothesize that it’s that stable because almost all issues with life have fallen away. We’re in a place of complete acceptance.
So peace would seem to involve complete acceptance of what life brings. Put a bookmark there.
The higher the state, I believe, the more it resembles Mother/Father God. That’s the meaning of the “divine qualities,” is it not, that they resemble God?
Peace resembles God. Love resembles God. Bliss.
This state of no-peace that I’m in does not resemble God. It resembles everything we say about and associate with darkness.
Fear, anxiety, hopelessness, etc., arise. They unstring me. Or rather, in the experience of them, I unstring myself.
In my student days, I’d push things to the limit and end up in a nervous breakdown. What did I know? Nowadays I can’t afford the luxury.
There being no accidents, I’m quite sure this serves a purpose. Perhaps to wake me up from the Pause. Perhaps to have me reach a level of activity, after a long Covid shutdown, in preparation for the probable-fast pace after the Reval.
I may also be given this experience to see what not-peace is. No sense spending all my time in peace and allowing it to fall into the background without thoroughly getting what it is. And an experience of not-peace seems to do that by backlighting, providing contrast. (6)
I’m learning so much in this space. Like, to say “no” to any more crises that I don’t have to involve myself in. Choosing my battles, that is. Just plain seeing to my own needs for the sake of self-preservation.
So today is for the observation of, experience of, and learning from the state of not-peace. We used to call it stress, but that masks the quality of the state.
In not-peace, there ‘s cognitive dissonance, inner turmoil. There’s a weakening of the inner foundations. It causes the house to come tumbling down, which is one level of meaning of Jesus’ saying, a house divided against itself cannot stand.
The next place to go, as I push my edge, is to accept all that life brings me without losing my natural state of peace. And then…. And then….
Footnotes
(1) Adding insult to injury, my bank is now fining me for a $1600 overdraft!
(2) Print drum replacement. No big deal in the end.
(3) Have to store inside the apartment everything that was outside, for an indefinite, unspecified length of time. Seventy-six plants (not mine). For how long? My friend’s whole garden, potentially ruined.
(4) Divine Mother: Sometimes the situations where you have deemed and judged that a mistake has been made is often the greatest opportunity for learning and change. (Divine Mother, “The Gift of Trust,”November 21, 2009, at https://counciloflove.com/2010/05/the-gift-of-trust/.)
Cf. “OK, I Feel Upset. … Oh, Great!” September 17, 2010, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2010/09/17/ok-i-feel-upset-oh-great/
“Yayayayay! We’re Reactivated!” November 19, 2010, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2010/11/19/yayayayay-were-reactivated/
“On Looking like a Fool … and Getting It” at https://goldenageofgaia.com/spiritual-essays/on-processing-vasanas/on-looking-like-a-fool-and-getting-it/
(5) “There are no accidents or coincidences. Every occurrence and every opportunity that you experience during Earth life has been prepared or allowed for before you incarnated [in your soul contract].” (Saul in “What is a Soul Contract?”,
“As you can clearly understand, you are all in here to learn through your experiences and nothing comes your way by pure chance.” (SaLuSa in “What is a Soul Contract?”,
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(6) If I recall correctly, a definition needs to say what something is and what it isn’t. Therefore both comparisons and contrasts are helpful. In this case, I’m seeing what peace isn’t; I’m learning from seeing the contrast.
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