Good morning, everyone.
It is Dec 29 2021 and welcome to Planet Earth.
My morning started early as most of my awakenings do.
My super loving cat jumped up on the bed as she always does. Time to curl up close and purr with no regard to whether I was awake or not.
As long as she doesn’t get on my pillow I have no problems with this behavior. This morning however she decided to be a pillow potato. I reached up to get her down. I felt my temper flare and then got very angry. I was gentle with the cat but really had to put myself in check.
Allowing the emotion to flow through me I watched it and realized it was not the cat at all. I was feeling a real nasty energy.
Okay, I asked, is this an entity or the collective? What is going on here?
My sense was that it’s the collective and probably more specifically the energy of the people I’ve been working with lately.
Wherever it originates, with an understanding this was a greater feeling and not my own, I said let’s take charge of this, shall we?
The image that came into mind was an old GE or Frigidaire dial like on a stove or washing machine. On this dial were a variety of emotions listed along the outer edge in a circle with the raised handle in the middle. Classic white.
I turned the dial and flipped thru a variety of emotions trying to decide what it is I wanted to feel. The cat decided not to stick around for this and jumped off the bed. The dog however decided we were getting up now so had moved into position ready to accept a head pat or ear scratching.
Gratitude. I turned the dial to gratitude and reached out to pat the dog. MY animals are the most lovingly patient if not persistent pair and I’m lucky to know them. So with my new found disposition, I got up to let the dog out.
It was a wicked cold burst of air that greeted us and I could not wait to get back into my warm bed. There really was no reason to be up this early if at all.
So back into the warm covers I went and promptly fell back to sleep. I was awakened once again by my sweet dog with a bedside doggy alarm.
It is a fun sound she makes. Not really a bark but more of an inhale that rattles in her throat like a frog. It’s so funny but also has so much meaning. Like hey, it’s time to be up and why are you still laying there?
So I came into awareness of my body and realized I did not want to move. I could not move. My arms and legs felt like they were held into place with magnetic locks.
Is this the 1000 lb weight Steve was talking about?
I checked in again and knew that if I really wanted to move it would take a great deal of effort. I wasn’t awake enough yet to apply that effort. So I just lay still and observed this phenomenon. My emotions from earlier had been dialed way back (haha).
There really wasn’t much emotion connected with this heaviness. if I had to describe it further. it would seem more like being trapped, with no energy, purpose or desire. It sounds kinda bleak but I didn’t pick up on any despair.
My dog hit the side of the bed with a definite opinion on what I should do.
Alright, it’s time to break this hold and put forth the effort. There is nothing like the actions of freewill and determination. May that be the force that is always with us. No other force can hold me back.
Well, that and I have a coffee addiction and it was time to brew some morning joe.
I gotta tell you this day is far from over and the going so far has been off kilter. The coffee-making went sideways like I have never seen before.
I managed to make a pot of coffee but also a mess strewn across the counter of spilled grounds all wet and sloppy. It is still unclear how all that happened.
The air in the kitchen was so cold I decided to crank up the woodstove. Or rather try to start a fire and am still attempting to get one burning as we speak. I am a fire sign so being determined to get on the other side of this morning called for some flame. With the wood not cooperating, this called for some incense and I lit a candle. Yup, I’m going to burn my way through this craziness.
It will be prudent to be careful considering how this day was unfolding thus far. But again I have the tools to master this moment. I’m hoping retrospect will give us more information on what exactly is happening today.
In the meantime, I’m going to focus on the now and keep my own dial turned to whatever my freewill determines it to be. As the energies run amok, keeping my awareness on what I want to create and how I want to feel will not be hijacked by some outside source. No matter how cold and inhospitable the outside world may get, the flame within will glow and guide me to where I want to be.
Love you all
May you find beauty in everything