Following this download, which I’ve been told for some years would be unpacking, I seem to be seeing things from a slightly higher vantage point.
Example. I have this mass of papers around me and I see they’re all out of place and, for a brief moment, I panic.
But then I remember: It doesn’t matter. It’s not important. You could put all of them in a big pile and re-sort them and all would be fine. And you’d have a good time doing it. This second response is not my usual.
The first response was my everyday consciousness. I’m not going to call it my ego or whatever because how do I know that? It’s just what I operate from everyday.
My everyday consciousness panicked. That reflected a vasana or core issue.
Why did I panic? I’m used to playing right/wrong with people and remaining at the intellectual level of life where my scorecard of rights (me) and wrongs (others) is important. And by my age I’m starting to unconsciously panic if I feel I’ve done something wrong.
Got it. Don’t need that one. Thank you for sharing. By the universal law of elimination, I ask the Divine Mother to take that once-justified fear away from me. Thank you, Mother.
The second voice is the deeper me that I hadn’t completely surrendered to. I needed to be my everyday consciousness. That was who I was, right? Don’t tell me what to do. I don’t take orders from anyone. Etc., etc.?
But this latest experience has been my surrendering to that deeper voice, call it what you will – Higher Self, Universal Self, Stranger, or whatever other name you wish to give it. (Its beingness does not depend on how I see it or what I name it.)
I also like to call it my spiritual adult, the Commander, my wiser self. Being a Member of the Immigration and Refugee Board was good training: I had to come from this adult self every moment I was in the hearing room.
The Higher Self may be what, in the second phase of the download experience I just had, merged with me. I don’t know.
But, in the end, it’s as good a story to create in this life as any other I’m creating, isn’t it? It’s all made up anyways, as we heard Vivekananda tell us recently:
“This world is a superstition. We are hypnotized into believing it real. The process of salvation is the process of de-hypnotization. … This universe is just the play of the Lord – that is all. It is all just for fun.” (1)
That is so perfect. God meeting God is for the delight of God. Life is a leela or divine play.
So what I have I done? I’ve switched my allegiance from my everyday consciousness to this deeper self – I’ve switched my vote, which is really quite easy to do. When I switch my vote, this deeper self blossoms and takes over, so to speak.
I’ve reported the same thing with bliss, love, and peace: recognize them, acknowledge them, and they immediately expand to fill the space.
Looking at the process I’ve just been through, one could compare it to moulting. I leave a lot behind but each time I seem to get bigger. Let me repeat what Michael said to me, which is also true for the collective:
AAM: You are simply growing into your expansion. That is really the substance of it. You are on a very fast track of expansion and that is why you are also experiencing the flare-ups, the ignitions. But as you do so, with each ignition, you will also feel a greater sense of the substance of who you really are. It is [also] true of the collective. (2)
With each ignition, I do “feel a greater sense of substance of who you really are.” I wouldn’t have phrased it that way, but it’s still totally correct.
I have until now been speaking of the steps to Ascension only as if they were the ordinary chakra/kundalini/related realization events. (3)
But I know very well that the Divine Mother can do as she pleases. If she wants the process to proceed in other ways she can. As Sri Ramakrishna noted: “[She] who has made the law can also change it.” (4)
Here we see, not the occurrence of realization, but a slow process of expansion and emergence, all of it initiated by what could most easily be understood as a download.
(1) Swami Vivekananda in Swami Chetanananda, God Lived with Them. St. Louis: Vedanta Society of St. Louis, 1997, 61.
(2) Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, May 6, 2013.
(3) Stream-entering (fourth chakra), cosmic consciousness (sixth chakra), God-realization (seventh-chakra), and Ascension (sahaja samadhi, full and permanent heart opening, beyond the 3D chakra system).
(4) Alright, alright, he actually said: “He who has made the law can also change it.” (Paramahansa Ramakrishna in Swami Nikhilananda, trans., The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. New York: Ramakrishna-Vivekananda Center, 1978; c1942, 817.)
So what is their relationship then? She explains:
“Although it is the Father’s and my Eternal Divine Plan, I am also Guardian of this Plan – I am Overseer, I am Implementer, I am Guardian. I guide the pieces as if this was a chess board.” (“The Mother’s Clarion Call to All of Humanity!” April 20, 2020, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2020/04/20/the-mothers-clarion-call-to-all-of-humanity/.)
“I am your connection [to the Father]. …
“I am All. I am One. … I give you human ways, not in a way of speaking down — quite the contrary — but in ways that you may understand. When I am Father, there is a stillness, complete.
“This is something that the human race is simply learning now. It is the union and conjoining of stillness with movement, and how that is the balance of everything. When I am in the Father, I do not require that movement, for that is not the way that I have created the Father. So, they are the two halves of the whole. Many who listen to this will be a little confused, and yet, my children, there is no need for confusion.
“Let me explain further. In many traditions, I am considered the Mother of All; in some traditions, the Mother of God, Source, One. Now, what does this mean? It means exactly what it says: I am the beginning and I am the completion, the end. …
“Creation comes from movement, and it is movement into form, into energy, into substance, into essence — however you conceive of that. But do not negate the role of the Father, of the masculine, because in that is the stillness of the moment of creation, what you think of. So it is the combination.
“You say, ‘Mother, how can you do both?’ It is who I am. (“Transcript of the Divine Mother on An Hour with an Angel, May 7, 2012,” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/the-2012-scenario/what-role-are-the-angels-playing/transcript-of-the-divine-mother-on-an-hour-with-an-angel-may-7-2012/.)