(Concluded from Part 1, yesterday.)
You know how, when you switch your computer on, the system tells you: “Automatic Update waiting to be applied. Restart required”?
Well, the moment I settled down into experiencing my dismay, it was as if the system got an update. The update was the application of the bug fix called “loving yourself.”
Recently I said that I didn’t get “loving myself.” (1) Another turn of the spiral of life and I didn’t get “Big Steve” and “Little Steve.” Still another turn and I heard the message: “Be a friend to yourself.” I got the message on that pass.
Now the security update and bug fix called “loving yourself” has just kicked in and invites a restart.
I’m now beginning to feel the dismay. I’m planning to experience it through to completion. (2)
The first thing I notice about it is that it seems endless, like a mountain lake that turns out to be 600 fathoms deep. It mingles with the sadness at my Mother’s death in a housefire.
Endless. I almost swoon when I try to experience it.
Notice that I’m experiencing the vasana related to my Father at a still deeper level than, say, a year ago. Vasanas just seem to unfold themselves and unfold and unfold.
I chuckle when I hear someone say they’re through their vasana. Ooooooh yah.
Having lain down to experience dismay through to completion, I now fully opened myself to what a minute ago had seemed so endless that I almost swooned.
Now knowing the value of loving myself, I began by drawing love up from my heart and circulating it around my field of experience – “loving myself.”
And then, for a moment, I laughed heartily at something, I can’t remember what. And instantly I found myself in bliss.
This rapid transition from laughter to bliss is identical to an event that occurred on Sept. 27, 2015. At that time, I also laughed at something while walking to a meeting and suddenly found myself in bliss. The two transitions are identical.
My rule in these circumstances, if I were the listener, would be to not take the speaker back into the upset. I’m free of dismay. Let it be. Time to stop processing.
Let’s do a review of what just transpired.
At this moment, I feel blissful and in this space all is wonderful.
Like shame, worry and stress before it, dismay just disappeared. I drew up love from my heart. Bliss followed it and swept dismay away.
Whether this sequence of events shows that dismay has no objective existence – it exists now only in our minds – or whether it shows the ease with which bliss arises – and sweeps away dismay – the net result is the same. Dismay had no “staying power” any more. Its existence was simply buttressed or held in place by my mind. As Matthew Ward said:
“Although Earth and all of her residents are in fourth density location-wise, the majority of the populace still is within third density awareness-wise.” (3)
The old Third is gone. It’s just waiting for us to discover the fact. (4)
All of this combined, and adding in all the work going on behind the scenes, is moving us along a trajectory towards freedom from all burdensome states of being. Each step forward in our gradual Ascension brings us closer to endless love and bliss.
(1) See “A Lesson Learned on the Sacred Spiral Home,”
(2) I view this work that I’m doing as like the bulldozers that demolish the existing structure (vasana), removing debris, and preparing the site.
(3) Matthew’s Message, October 19, 2014, at https://www.matthewbooks.com/mattsmessage.htm.
(4) See “It Awaits Our Discovery,”