When in meditation the mind begins to quiet, all cares lift.

The same effect would be achieved if I were immersed in transformative love or bliss.

These higher-dimensional spaces all have the effect of eliminating care, worry, concern.

All of them cannot arise without us backing out of the old identity – the constructed self – and the conditioned behavior that went along with it.

That’s why we’re “cleansing.”

Think of it: A whole planet cleansing. That’s an amazing feat in anyone’s books, I think.

***

I watched myself whip myself around the emotional spectrum this morning, as I lay in bed meditating. Having promised Michael that I would be a communicator first and that writing was my meditation, I immediately got up to make a note of it.

I was returning to bed to meditate at 5:30 in the morning (I keep odd hours these days) when there was a sudden jingle and crash. I had placed my cellphone on the chair beside me not realizing that it was piled high with things already.  A lone Christmas ornament had fallen off the chair onto the floor.

I had now caused a crashing sound at 5:30 in the morning and my mind began to play with that.

Oh, the tenant below will now complain. Fear and dread.

No, this is the West End. S/he’s probably cool. Placid state returns.

Warning. Lack of caution indicated. Fear returns.

But that may be one bullet in the gun later on. Dread returns.

Remember what happened at the other place when the nozzle fell from the shower in the middle of the night. Manager irate. I didn’t even know what it was that had happened. And, yes, I heard it too. Another wave of fear.

Wow! My thoughts were driving me crazy, literally and figuratively.

So that’s how the mechanism of the mind works! Our thoughts elicit an appropriate, conditioned emotional response. Each new thought brings a possible-new response. And around the emotional spin cycle we go.

Many different thoughts elicit the same emotional response – say, fear. So it isn’t the case that we can work easily back from the emotional response to the thought.

If I could figure out how to do that, that would be a major mechanism of the mind understood and bypassed.

Hmmm….

Wait a minute. This needs simply another variant of the upset clearing process.

We can identify the feeling and work back from the emotional response.

We can still use the mind’s “obedient servant” mechanism to ask it to call up a picture of the relevant thought and take the first thought that arises.

I don’t know if this will work. I haven’t tried it out yet. But I will.

***

As a result of observing my emotional reactions, I became aware of an anxious side of myself. When I asked my mind to throw me up the thought that triggers that response in this moment, I heard myself saying, “Watch out!”  My Dad was hitting me. So that goes back to age seven and beyond.
I “be with it and observe” and it releases its grip.

I’m now not in my anxious side.

Experiment One successful.