The energies keep rising. The Tsunami of Love does not stop. The Mother’s Plan moves on toward its climax.
What I notice is, and I can only speak for myself, that, as I continue to emerge (1), my sense of responsibility grows at the same time.
What is responsibility?
Responsibility starts with the willingness to respond. The will is there. We’ve gone from being unwilling to respond for one reason or another to being willing.
Where the will is directed, the attention follows. We begin to observe the territory we’re willing to respond to. We become aware, knowledgeable. It becomes an area of interest. We settle into feeling responsible for it.
I swear that I don’t think the important thing is the breadth of our responsibility – world this, galactic that. It’s the depth (2).
It’s how deeply we can feel our responsibility and what the best thing is we can do about it that seems to matter.
In my case, it would be to write about it.
What do I feel responsibility for? I suppose what I’ve felt primary responsibility for is to share what I know from the Growth Movement about clearing upsets – polishing the statue, as Plotinus would call it. (3)
I called our core issues “vasanas,” to link the subject up with what Hindu sages say about it. We already now them as “core issues”; “vasanas” adds another literature to the subject.
I’ve felt most responsible for actually sharing my knowledge of how to complete a vasana because it’s largely absent from the group culture these days and it’s what will help us free ourselves from the debris and residue of the old Third Dimension. After which, my guess is, we fly.
I feel I’ve accomplished as much as could be accomplished there. I put it out. How many read it is conjecture. How many understood it, further conjecture. How many actually completed a vasana, still more conjecture. But it’s out there.
Isn’t that the thing about lightwork? We have no idea whether what we do makes a difference. Or that one attack on us will thoroughly undo all the good that was done. One has to let go of ulterior motives for serving, other than the reward of love that service brings.
May I perhaps rephrase Krishna and say, as something I believe to be true: Love is all that a person may desire without transgressing the law of their nature. (4)
That’s how steep the path is, how austere.
(1) Archangel Michael prefers the word “expand” – it’s the same thing.
(2) AAM might say “the height” – again, same thing.
(3) For those looking for a roadmap to Ascension, here is Plotinus. Put what he says in modern terms.
“Let him who can arise, withdraw into himself, forego all that is known by the eyes, turn aside forever from the bodily beauty that was once his joy. He must not hanker after the graceful shapes that appear in bodies, but know them for copies, for traceries, for shadows, and hasten away towards that which they bespeak. …
“Withdraw into yourself and look. … Do as does the sculptor of a statue that is to be beautified: He cuts away here. He smooths it there. He makes this line lighter; his other one purer, until he disengages beautiful lineaments in the marble. Do you this, too. Cut away all that is excessive. Straighten all that is crooked. Bring light to all that is overcast. Labor to make all one radiance of beauty. Never cease ‘working at the statue’ until there shines out upon you from it the divine sheen of virtue….
“Have you become like this? Do you see yourself, abiding within yourself, in pure solitude? Does nothing now remain to shatter that interior unity, nor anything cling to your authentic self? Are you entirely that sole true light which is not contained by space, not confined to any circumscribed form, not diffused as something without term, but ever immeasurable as something greater than all measure and something more than all quantity? Do you see yourself in this state? Then you have become vision [or consciousness] itself.
“Be of good heart. Remaining here, you have ascended aloft. You need a guide no longer. Strain and see.” (Plotinus in Elmer O’Brien, Essential Plotinus, 40-3.)
(4) I am all that a man may desire without transgressing the law of his nature. (Sri Krishna in Swami Prabhavananda and Christopher Isherwood, trans., Bhagavad-Gita. The Song of God. New York and Scarborough: New American Library, 1972; c1944, 71.