Life is a workshop for me. My life is just one long experiment, one long journey which rises and falls and morphs and takes scenic detours.
All the time I’m learning about myself.
Why myself? Because you and I are tasked with just one mission: to know who we really are. That’s the only job in life that never leaves.
No matter whether I win the Olympics, climb Mount Everest, or become richer than Warren Buffett or Bill Gates, that task remains as the only one that was ever given me which I can’t turn down, delegate or get rid of.
In fact, when the final secret is known, I see that I set that task for myself.
So anything and everything that helps me to discriminate between what’s Real about me and what’s not is the most precious knowledge of all.
And what I’m used to is being around people engaged in the same experiment and sharing or comparing notes on what we’ve learned so far. (1)
Hey, I just got that loneliness strikes me after dinnertime every night. I see that my alertness and aliveness go up the more I ride my bike. I just saw that the difference between being in my natural state and not being can, at certain key times, be my awareness of that state. I could be in it already and not know it if I’m not aware of it at the time.
There aren’t enough people walking the awareness path in my everyday world (or I have no time or ability to meet them) to have conversations with and so I write. And this works. It’s fulfilling.
What are the rewards of the awareness path, the inducements, the gifts?
The breakthrough into a higher state of awareness carries with it bliss and exhilaration. Existing in a higher state brings with it transformative love and unitive consciousness. Everything worth experiencing – satisfaction, aliveness, full self-expression – exists in these higher states.
As if transformative love was not enough of a reward unto itself, it sweeps most conditions away (I notice it didn’t sweep away the feeling of loneliness). Unitive consciousness makes everyone our friend and removes all traces of fear or antagonism.
And as we go further up Jacob’s ladder of consciousness, the rewards get greater. They include remembrance of our higher-dimensional identities, an end to the need to be reborn, recovery of our powers of creation, a vigorous and malleable lightbody, abilities to multilocate and the list goes on.
From this vantage point, the arising of an unwanted condition like loneliness is not a fatal blow. It’s just the next thing to be processed in the experiment called “my life.” I approach it with the same social-scientific interest I would anything else, even in my pain and dismay. In fact, pain and dismay become the next thing to be examined and observed. And when they lift under the dissolutive power of awareness, it’s like a summer day.
We are after all awareness at essence. Nothing more. The more aware we are, the more we are ourselves.
Nothing is ever lost on the awareness path. Everything is grist for the mill.
(1) “Used to” in the sense that my formative adult years were spent in the Growth Movement, where the awareness game was the best game in town.