Evin Prison: Going in alive, if even barely, and coming out dead

Please do not read this if you do not want to hear a grown man weep and talk about conditions that no one should have to go through

It’s ironic to me that, a day before my scheduled post on emergence comes out, I should face such a challenging situation that I feel I cannot remain silent.

But that is how I feel.  I need to say more and the more I need to say is intensely personal.

If I’ve said it before and you’ve heard it before, I apologize, but, as I said earlier, this is a hill I’d die on. And be proud to do so.

I’d have fulfilled my seven-year-old’s promise to my abused Mother that, though I could not help her then, I would help her some day. And this is me doing that. (I am weeping as I write this.) (1)

I retired from the Immigration and Refugee Board in 2006 because I didn’t feel I could hear one more tale of torture and murder.

I cannot tell you the worst of what I heard because there is no way, if you knew before what I was about to share, you would have ever wanted to hear it, it was so ghastly.

And it isn’t just Iranians. Afghanis, Chinese, Nigerians, Rwandans, on and on.

But right now it is Iranians who are being raped, tortured, and killed.

I am committed to all people on this planet being free – and this will happen. First with the Wave of Love and next with Ascension itself, the violent and the abusive will not come with us.

But there is the here and now. And here and now it’s Iranians.

To ask me to be quiet about it is to wave a red flag in front of a bull. I will not.

And there is nothing on Earth that I can think of that would dissuade me.

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I’m sure you noticed, but this is me emerging.

Emergence is often noisy and uncomfortable.  Things protrude and there may not be completion. But people discover as a result of it where they are deeply invested. As I am discovering right now.

And battling everything I stood against, as a refugee adjudicator – torture, murder, false imprisonment, etc. – runs so deeply with me that I would walk away from the blog tomorrow if I discovered that people reading me – not  reading the other editors, who are their own bosses – were doing so only for “entertainment” or other passing fancies.

My assumption is that people reading my updates are as committed as I am to seeing the people of the world freed from oppressive and arbitrary government.

If you are, then there is work to be done. All of us need to emerge from whatever holds us back to doing whatever we can to win back the freedom of the people of Earth from the dictators and other human-rights abusers, as I am right now.

One person’s emergence often causes a felt need among others to declare themselves, if even only to one’s own self. There can be some falling away, which is always regretful.

But you could not keep me quiet on this if you gagged me. Like so many people who have had to hear people’s awful stories – police, doctors, first responders of all kinds – I have paid my dues. Eight years of not being able to do anything because I’m a government official are now over. And so is my silence.

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With all of this in mind, I request that you now consider reading about emergence.  I just happen to have a good book in hand for all of us who want to engage in a study of that exact subject. And today is the very date I’m posting it. Just by coincidence. (Well, maybe not. Michael usually turns out to have had a hand in it.)

I believe that, in the months ahead, as we confront the chaos and mayhem in our world, we may find ourselves needing to break any conceptual bonds that confine us too.

I needed to remain silent as a government official. Now I do not. And now I am shouting from the rooftops, “I say that the people of Earth will be free.”

I say that. Steve Beckow, Canadian, person who knows what Iranians face. And Afghanis, and Chinese, and Nigerians.

I will not be silenced.

(Error: “based on the world” re: Buckminster Fuller should be “based on the world game.”)

If you wish to go further with the study, download Emergence at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/04/Emergence.pdf because this challenge may face everyone.

Footnotes

(1) This is the core issue or vasana that underlies my own resolve: growing up in a violent household.  See Vasanas: Preparing For Ascension by Clearing Old Issues at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2024/05/Vasanas-Preparing-for-Ascension-R16.pdf