by Pamela Keibbe
https://www.lightraisersworldwide.com/knowing-and-experiencing
Dear friends, thank you for coming here today.
At this moment you are like a torch of light on this Earth because of your courage and perseverance, for you need both to face the fear within yourself and overcome it. Deep within your soul lives the longing to be yourself, to spread your wings, and to manifest here on Earth what lives deep in your heart.
It is precisely in the spreading of those wings that you encounter so many old fears, as well as pain, sorrow, and memories of abandonment. Those wings simply do not want to open; they seem weighed down, smeared with pitch, with old mud.
It can feel suffocating, that inner struggle to truly find your light and dare to place it on this Earth, for this Earth gives you love and kinship, but also often evokes fear in you. You are not here for the first time. Certainly not. You have been here many times before, embodied as humans in matter; you have met resistance, have experienced what it is like to be separated, to know isolation, and to not be accepted according to the commonly accepted norms and standards.
You come here with fear in your memory and with memories of being cast out. And this lives strongly in all of you even though you do not know exactly where it comes from. It often goes further back than just this current life.
❥ I ask you: feel this for a moment within yourself – this dark side of fear and defeat – and have respect for it.
Imagine how much courage it must take to make that incarnational leap again while carrying in your backpack so many fears and memories of not being welcome. Imagine how brightly that torch of light in your heart must burn, for you have done it anyway, trusting that this time things will go well, that you will find a way and a place on Earth that belongs to you and where you can let your light shine. And that place exists, and it is closer than you think.
Sometimes you are so overwhelmed and misled by your fears that you begin to think there is no path for you, that you feel hopelessness. But this is not true, for it is precisely in facing your fears and learning how to deal with them that the lightwork you intended to do on Earth reveals itself. Often you still see your own fears, your emotions of impatience, resistance, frustration, and disappointment — in short, the entire emotional chaos that can reign within you like a weight around your leg. You think: “If only I could get rid of that weight, then I could simply live the way I want. Then I could be happy in an easy and free way.”
❥ But in that block around your ankle lies your mission, that is where your calling resides.
That block is crying out for your attention. It does not want to be cast off and abandoned. It wants to be picked up and understood. It is not only a burden.
I want to explain to you what fear means, what role it plays in your process of becoming, and what your mission is here on Earth.
With an image I want to clarify this. Imagine that you are walking in a dark forest, just before dawn. Life is still slumbering, but could wake up at any moment. In that dark forest you walk, and you feel its mystery.
Imagine walking barefoot across the forest floor… or sitting beneath a tree and feeling the thick roots of that tree dive into the earth… or leaning against the trunk and feeling the life of the tree flowing through it… You are filled with a sense of expectation, a feeling of possibilities. You feel that the forest is alive and beginning to awaken. This makes you feel very peaceful inside. It is as if you already know it all, already understand it. The wonders of life are familiar to you: how the plants grow, how the birds sing, how the animals sleep and are about to wake, how life regulates itself in the great forest. It is so familiar to you. It is almost as if you created it yourself, as if you are the creator of it all. And you smile quietly to yourself. You enjoy the balance, the harmony of this place, and also the darkness — it does not bother you. You are not afraid in the forest; it is so familiar to you. The universe lies at your feet. And now you sit down for a moment, leaning against such a thick tree trunk, and you feel the contact with the earth. You literally feel the energy of the forest and the earth flowing upward through your fingertips and toes and embracing you. How happy the forest is that you are here! The forest experiences you almost as its creator.
Very quietly you sit there; you feel life beating through the forest, but also through yourself, through your heart; you feel it beating; you feel the blood flowing through your body, and that it is good as it is. Longingly, you look forward to the coming day with all the life that will then unfold, to the sun that will shine. You have full confidence that everything will go well and that you do not need to do anything. It is enough simply to be. It is as if you occasionally nod to the life in the forest and tell it how beautiful it is. That is enough. And the flowers nod and smile at you, while the birds seem to sing in a language you can easily understand.
Then you hear a sound that deviates from the harmony in the forest. You hear a child crying. You hear how it screams pitifully, and you do not know why. Internally you now call this child. You cannot see it, but you send out a call, a signal to the child: come to me, I will help you. Then you start walking; you walk guided by your feeling. Then you hear the crying grow louder, the crying of a child who needs help, who feels lost, and must feel very alone.
Then you see the child appear on the path ahead of you
It runs toward you. You see that it feels miserable and lost. Tears stream down her or his cheeks and the little body is extremely tense. What do you do? What is your first reaction toward the child running toward you? What do you feel inside?
Kneel down before this child now and take it in your arms, because it needs help, it needs you. Tell the child something that will soothe it. Say whatever comes to you. It need be nothing more than: I am with you, you can rest now, you don’t have to be worried anymore.
Then the child begins to tell you what it is afraid of, what it has seen. Was there a monster or ghost in the forest? And has it been chased away? Has it lost its parents? Or is there something else? Give the child whatever it needs now. Take it in your arms, take it on your lap, give it rest and trust. Let your energy flow toward this child and envelop it with your love.
Now ask yourself: what is this child doing in this forest? In this serene, mystical wood where everything seems to have its place and its own destiny in a completely natural way? How is it possible that this child does not feel that unity and that connectedness here, but lives in fear?
This child is you, incarnated on earth in a system, an energy of illusions. This child has said yes to life, because it is here. But then it became entangled in the illusion of fear. In doing so, it feels helpless, defenseless, vulnerable. It is full of fear. This child represents your fear.
Now the question becomes how you deal with this child
It is about how much love and patience you can muster in dealing with this child. That will determine your day in the forest, because you are not here only to look at the forest, to take it in, but you are also here to let the light shine and to spread the energy of the forest in places where harmony, simplicity and balance are not self-evident. And for that you need the child, because the two of you form a team. The child is therefore not just a disturber of your peace or a problem to be solved, but the guide toward depth, toward facing your own fear. Why is this part of your process? Why are you called to this? What positive aspect does this fear have?
That you must form a team with this child, this frightened child.
The child within you represents your feeling, your passion.
In creation you can distinguish two elements. They are often seen as good and evil, but that is not so. The two elements that play a game with each other are the angel and the child. Other words for these are knowing and experiencing.
That wise woman or man that you were in the forest — that angel — is the one who knows. This being has a “primordial knowing” that does not even need to be expressed in words. It is an understanding of the unity of all things and of the safety and certainty that belong to that.
The child, on the other hand, is the pole of experience. The child does not know, but feels a great deal and feels deeply. The child represents the emotions, the feelings. In the angel there once was a desire to feel, to experience, to know very deep emotional contents, and to receive happiness and fulfillment within them.
The child represents the part of you that not only wants to look at a tree and enjoy its beauty, but wants to be the tree, wants to live, to grow, to bloom. The child therefore also represents the life within you; it is the adventurous part in you that seeks passion and freedom in order to develop and unfold itself. The child is the most vital and most powerful part of you, but it is also capable of pushing you to the edge of the abyss, into darkness, because it can lose its connection with the angel within you, the knowing part that understands and sees through everything.
So it is about recognizing your emotions in the here and now, seeing within them the child that on the one hand causes you so much burden — for that is how you experience it — but on the other hand is also the key to life, to passion, to deep feeling and experiencing.
Fear is a part of the inner child. It is not part of your being as an angel. In your angel-consciousness you know that fear is an illusion, that you can trust. It is about bringing that inner knowledge to the child within yourself. The first step towards this is not resisting the presence of the child in you, not seeing it as a ball and chain, but as a key to life, to penetrating the experience more deeply. The child – the vital part of you – creates expansion, ensures that the energy of God or home is truly radiated to parts of the universe where that energy is not self-evident. The child is the source of renewal and innovation.
All of you feel called to place your light in this reality. All of you carry memories within you of the energy of home, of how it felt in that forest with its simplicity, peace, and mystery.
Your challenge is to take the hand of that child, the one that seemingly disturbs the silence in the forest, and to trust the child. To feel that it has a positive core, that it is innocent, and that it wants to live, love, and be happy. And that you can help it regain trust. It is important that you listen to the child and that the child within you listens to you. It is not a one-way street. You are each other’s teacher.
How does this work?
At the moment you feel fear, anger, or sadness within yourself, it is important to imagine that you are that angel, that wise one or that magician who is standing in that forest, and that you take the child with you. That you welcome it, and that you bend over the child and ask what it needs from you.
Sometimes it is only a feeling, only that inner knowing again, that beating heart: that you know that things naturally find their way, that they unfold well. Sometimes you only need to give this trust to the child, and then the child can also begin to give you positive messages. The child can be very specific; it says: I want this, I don’t want that. You, the magician, know countless possibilities and you play with those possibilities in your hand like a juggler with balls. In essence, it doesn’t matter to the wise one what he does, but the child in you is specific. It wants this, and not that. It wants this kind of house, and not that kind. It wants a certain kind of work, it seeks a particular form. Not because it must, but because the child experiences that it can best express itself there. The child seeks the joy of creativity and fulfillment in specific things.
❥ To move forward in your life, to take steps toward inner fulfillment, the cooperation with the child is therefore very important.
It is about listening to each other mutually. As long as you fight your emotions, that play, that teamwork, cannot come into existence. The first step toward self-healing is therefore always to see your emotions in the eyes of the child and then to take it with you, to embrace and welcome it; then ask what it needs from you. When the child feels relaxed and trusts you, it can also give you guidance and hints by saying: I want this, I want that, I feel like this, I enjoy that. And then you can go on your way together.
The part in you that is fearful and that blocks you always also contains the key to the future, to the direction you want to go. By thawing the fear, the child can begin to speak. In the child resides your passion, your fire. And it also contains something mysterious. Sometimes it wants something simply because it wants it, because it feels that way. You cannot reason that out. And yet the child shows the right way.
If you can follow the child within yourself and trust that things will appear on your path when they are needed, then life becomes a little magical again. Then you no longer need to rationalize and analyze everything. You only need to hold the child’s hand firmly. Then you will notice that reality begins to cooperate to make your desires come true.
Always remember, whenever fears block you, that there is a child knocking at your door, and that in truth, this child comes to help you put things into matter, to truly incarnate. Make friends with this child within you, and speak to it. Give it the time to release its fears. Think of how this works with any child you know. When a child has to let go of fear, it needs patience and trust. Give this to yourself as well.
You have all made a long journey through many lifetimes. In those many lives, you have also experienced many fears. Resolving these within yourself is not something you do casually, in passing. And it is also not a brief stop along the way.
No — it is the very purpose of your journey to resolve these fears inwardly
For that is precisely the energy you then have to share with others. If you can be patient and loving toward your fears, you truly make peace with yourself — with on one side the extreme of the knowing angel, and on the other side the fearful child that can create so much upheaval in your life. See that it is a child. See that it is innocent. If you can feel that unity within yourself and live with your fears in this way, then you become whole. You no longer fight with yourself. And that relieves an enormous amount of tension, thinking, and worry. Then you walk the path together. It becomes an adventure — open yourself to that. Every moment you spend in love with your inner child, with your own fears, you take a step forward on your path, and your light begins to shine more strongly again. In doing so, you touch others in the world, sometimes without noticing it.
You are supported on your path. You are not alone. The cosmos, the energies around you, want you to find your way on Earth. For the intention is that this Earth will once again become as beautiful as that forest — full of mystery and in harmony with itself.
You are leading us there, and for that we thank you. You are like torches of light. Believe in that! Believe in your own light, and have patience with yourself — with the parts that are not yet in the light. I believe in you, and I send you my light and love.
Jeshua