I’m sorta half-taking Sunday off. I’ve been kicking back and enjoying my favorite puzzle game. I think it’s called Tangled Ropes.
I have to win each game to get to the next level so there’s a sense of challenge to it.
Now here’s where it gets interesting. I do win each game. That is a fact and that is an “accomplishment” each time I win.
And then there’s something entirely different and it’s this “something” that I’m pointing at.
There is also a sense of accomplishment, which is entirely separate. AND, having closely observed it over time, I see that it arises, like love itself, from the heart.
In fact the sense of accomplishment feels like [love + pride + helpfulness], all mixed together. I’ve created a behavior pattern over the years that I associated with “accomplishment.” Having heard, from my parents probably, “Aren’t you proud [of your accomplishment]?” my sense of accomplishment is partly pride now.
And helpfulness: My Mother, again probably, is being helpful in taking an interest in my accomplishment. I hear it in her voice and adopt that as part of my behavior pattern as well. All of that is fact.
I’ve always conflated accomplishment and the sense of accomplishment. That’s meant that the sense part of it has gotten little attention.
But here today, observing myself while playing this game, I experienced my sense of accomplishment as a divine state. I experienced love coming up from my heart, mixed with pride and a desire to help. This level of experience was a world above our ordinary, everyday level.
It’s the same with mastery and abundance as divine states. There are mastery and abundance as facts or factual situations. And, as I’ve experienced and written up, there are mastery and abundance as states of consciousness, as divine qualities. (1) And they are worlds apart.
A pipefitter can have mastered their process without experiencing the divine state of mastery. An Ebenezer Scrooge can have rooms full of gold without feeling abundant.
Every time I play my game, I win. Every time I win, I experience a sense of accomplishment. And when I experience a sense of accomplishment again and again, I respond by relaxing.
And when I actually do relax in my life, I see that that is truly what is missing. Amid the chaos and turmoil, I am doing the unorthodox today and relaxing. I can’t believe how daring it feels but also how restorative to my sanity.
Footnotes
(1) See:
- Love Like We Never Imagined It to Be at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Love-Like-We-Never-Imagined-It-to-Be-R17.pdf
- The Nature and Significance of the Divine Qualities at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/Nature-and-Significance-of-the-Divine-Qualities-3.pdf
- On the Divine Qualities at https://goldenageofgaia.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/07/On-the-Divine-Qualities-R9.pdf