November 4, 2024
While I’m eagerly anticipating many truths to emerge, one of the areas I won’t be delving into is the child torture/SRA/cannibalism thread of the demonic storyline of Earth, present and past.
I didn’t use to be so squeamish. I watched all of the X-Files; now, just recalling some of the more horrific episodes (such as “Home”) is extraordinarily repellent. I also used to read Stephen King books, as well as violent and gruesome murder mysteries by the likes of Sara Paretsky. No more.
Since I avoid fictional bloodshed, whyever would I want to immerse myself in stories of the real thing?
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I might start imitating an ostrich pretty soon. We’re encouraged to Be There for fellow humans who are likely to drop into shock when Truths start emerging in the mainstream. I can appreciate the logic and the call to spiritual duty that summons us. I also appreciate my own limits. If I can barely stomach knowing about the atrocities I regretfully believe have plagued Planet Earth, I’m not about to hold the hand of someone hearing about it for the first time.
This really seems like a place for professionals to step in. Would an inexperienced layperson be called upon to talk someone off a suicidal ledge? How about setting a broken bone or removing a bullet? The argument might be made that anyone on a trajectory of awakening that’s more advanced than that of the “unaware masses” is somehow qualified to help out in such instances. That might be so, but I wouldn’t want to be a responsible party if someone suffers a meltdown upon being dumped into the vat of Truth.
I realize that those who call themselves Lightworkers (or some variation thereof) gamely take on challenges that aren’t for the spiritual novice. It seems every channel I read of late, every awakened podcast, exhorts me to be ready for the unaware to wake up. Be there for them in whatever capacity we can.
What if I have no capacity? What if I choose not to willy-nilly support every Normie In Need who crosses my path?
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One of the “spiritual truths” many sources posit is that, while we’re Lightworkers now, karmic balancing means that we’ve played in the darkness, too. Somewhere, in some lifetime(s), we have been the Angels falling from grace. We have committed the atrocities. We have been the Dark Forces we now recoil from.
So they say.
I think I’ll wrap myself in whatever might remain of my Free Will and elect to disbelieve that. I can choose to believe I was never THAT bad, that monstrous, that evil. While I’m at it, I’ll also let myself off the hook of mandatory selflessness awaiting Lightworkers who agree to support the masses in their hour of need. If I feel moved to do so, I will, but it won’t be a “should.” It will be a “want.”
