by Digger Barr
When I get tripped up, it’s usually over my own feet.
I watch myself make things harder than they need to be.
I watch how others do things the hard way.
From a distance I wonder why they do it that way when they could have done it this way.
And then I do something similar.
Who am I to cast stones when my house is wrought with error?
Or is it an error?
Mistakes are one way in how we learn.
I have long operated under an image of doing things in a highly efficient productive manner.
I pride myself on daily accomplishments.
I set targets and strive to meet them in precision with a high standard for stellar results.
In a way there is nothing wrong with this.
It actually seems to be a rare quality that provides guidance for others to aspire to.
But there is something about it that is distracting.
If it consumes you it can lead to misdirection.
Is this really what we are here to do?
So what is the balance?
I watch myself, watch others and remind myself not to judge.
They are doing what they need to do. They are learning how they need to learn.
If it is something that directly affects me, I can offer assistance, guidance or even teach.
The key here is to ask if they want help. Then it is their free will choice and it was meant to be.
But if it’s not my path, let it be.
I watch myself and wonder why I do things the way I do them.
Many times I just end up laughing and shaking my head.
Other times I can get quite frustrated and remind myself to have patience with me.
This is the feminine side stepping in showing compassion and gentleness in a nurturing way.
The yin supports the yang.
Is this balance?
I have so much to learn and the challenge will be to learn how to walk in balance .
Finding the balance of the old hard fought battles and a new light inspired way is about blending experience into aspiration, creation, acceptance and flow.
Merging this into a whole new understanding requires a serious look at letting go of what I thought I knew.
Letting go of who I thought I was and how I see myself.
Yes, I can set my focus and push to get things done.
Do I need to do that ?
No. If I can focus but let go of the drive and allow the flow of things to come to me, I wouldn’t have to be working so hard.
When I realized how much simpler life could be I suddenly shifted in the idea of ‘who I am’.
A shift that evolved quickly when I adjusted my focus.
I feel lighter than ever.
I look around me and want less stuff. I am ready to release my accomplishments.
My hard fought winnings are no longer necessary. Trophies of living do not reflect who I am and may even hold me back from emerging into my full self.
The process of release is one of change and it is not easy. A lot like dieting, it requires full commitment and mindfulness of practice.
But when done in love it emerges as an intangible journey that flows more freely.
Waves of light from within connecting to the infinite vibration without.
The image that comes to mind for me is from the movie Avatar, when they connect the fibers of their tail into other living beings and the energy flows between them.
This connection is miraculous and brings such a feeling of peace and calm, words do no justice.
As I release my baggage and stretch my wings, I prepare for next time my human self gets tripped up.
Getting up and dusting off will be a reminder to have fun along the way. This is part of the adventure.
Much like making mistakes is a learning process, Maybe falling down is a way to get grounded.
In this way I can also stay grounded and not get too far ahead of myself.
This too could be an important part of staying in balance.
Change your mind, change your life.
With all my love