Jennifer Crokaert ~ Ashian: Inner Death

April 30, 2023

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Ashian: Blessings to all who resonate with these words.

Jennifer: Hello! Well, as you will no doubt know, we have a full schedule today!

A: Indeed! The idea we seeded has germinated.

J: Germinated. And died! For the past few weeks I have been going through an Inner Death. I only got your ‘memo’ saying that what it’s called a few days ago. Guys, can I say, it sucks. Massively. And that’s the understated version of what I want to say about it. So please, do your thing and make it seem wonderful… or at least tolerable.

A: You are dying beautifully!

J: That is not a compliment I ever wanted to receive… but thanks. I guess!

A: All humanity is in a process of Inner Death at present. Some are more aware of it than others, and it is more pronounced among those who are Light Workers, Love Holders.

When you chose your birth plan, you included in your life template the eneregtics of the 3D, to ensure you could survive in the dense energy ~ you wanted to ensure you didn’t crush under its weight. To do this, many of you went down through the levels of consciousness over many, many lifetimes absorbing the worst pain of humanity; being weighed down by cycles of lifetimes was your way of creating ‘gravity boots’ for this incarnation.

If you had arrived, fresh, light and pure, and this was your first lifetime, you would not have survived ~ that was the purpose of many miscarriages:* soul family who come for a short time to share with you their high vibrational light. Despite the pain their departure causes, they flooded you with their light frequencies, changing and evolving your physical and spiritual bodies.

But we digress. In order to transform the 3D matrix from density to light, from carbon to crystaline, you had to evolve through that density, excavating the layers of density ~ which is your inner wounding and pain ~ by bringing it to the light (consciousness) and loving it. That was the shovel and trowel you used to dig your way out of the 3D matrix.

Many, many of you are now nearing completion on that phase of the assignment. You have taught (by modeling and being yourself) the first syllabus: Course 101 ~ burrow out of the density by bringing light and healing to old wounding and pain.

The next syllabus is beginning: Course 201 ~ how to live in a crystalline body. Alongside another course: 202 ~ how to shape a civilization based on Divine Truth.

But to return to our archeological analogy: after your excavation there is a lot of left over mud. This includes the families and friends who you chose, and who are outside your ‘vibe and tribe’ as you call it, homes, jobs and even countries that no longer serve you, as well as all the rules you learnt about how to function in the 3D world.

Your Inner Death is the transmutation of that inner mud ~ all that no longer serves you ~ so that you are free to move into the next highest expression of You. It is a quantum elevation. It is not linear, therefore, it is more profound and intense than anything you have experienced before. This is your crystalline essence coming to the forefront, dissolving the old 3D carbon matrix within.

As the inner scaffolding is melted, your outer world will change, too ~ from moving homes and locations, to changing relationships.

J: You’ve got that right. Over the past few weeks I’ve lost track of the number of days when I have literally not been able to function normally. I felt like I was mourning ~ but for whom was a mystery to me ~ yet I also felt like I had the flu, and had finished a marathon…without training for it.

A: We do ‘get’ the enormity of how each of you experience this complete breakdown of your inner world. It was a false ‘matrix’ that you agreed to hold, a matrix that was intensely uncomfortable because it was not in alignment with your true essence, yet despite that, letting it go is deeply painful. We have witnessed your feelings of loss, grief, confusion, anger, apathy and listlessness.

J: Thanks! That paints an awfully nice picture of me! But it’s true. I have felt lost, without a compass, direction or meaning. Without energy.

A: Allow that to be. You are not through the process yet. Clarity will emerge, step by step, because you are aligned with revealing and expressing your highest purpose for the highest good of all. That is ‘true North’ on the spiritual compass: revealing and expressing your highest purpose for the highest good of all.

J: Dare I ask ‘how long does it take?’ I can feel your answer already ~ darn it.

A: As long as it takes. It’s a process.

Be gentle, because that is using 5D energy to heal your 5D heart. Kindness, gentleness, forgiveness…. all the fruits of the soul will nourish you and move you forward with greater speed and ease. Where possible, avoid reverting to the 3D programming of ‘push through’, ‘power through’, overcome, try harder, or any thoughts about failure and weakness.

J: Duly noted. Will this make the Ascension jump easier? Will there be a solar flash for everyone to experience this? How does this Inner Death align with all we have heard about Ascension to the crystalline?

A: We will say this: Ascension is a process. Some complete that process faster than others; this is because they have already ascended in other times and places, and they came here to serve as coaches and mentors to those experiencing this for the first time. Millions have come for this purpose.

Those who are coaches and mentors will assist those who experience the process as a series of significant jumps. The Galactic Sun is always sending high energy light flares to raise the collective frequency. And yes, there will be some notable jumps as well, to fast forward the process, so to say.

J: Ok. Sadly, my brain is now scrambled again. I dearly hope that rewiring is completed soon. I don’t feel that I can continue too much longer.

A: Yes, your brains are being completely and utterly rewired. You are fusing the left and right hemispheres so that you may use your expanded senses ~ telekinesis, telecommunication, etc. ~ as well as communicate more fully with your Higher Self than you are currently able to.

J: Yes, mine is fully melted so I await new abilities eagerly! One last thing: a butterfly (or maybe it was a moth, but I’m going with butterfly!) landed on my window as I was typing this. I never saw that before ~ thank you. There’s no better metaphor for inner and outer transformation than a walking creature that melts its body and uses those building blocks to create a completely new body that flies.

Thank you. With so much love from me and all the wonderful people who email me to say they value your insight.

A: It is always our pleasure. We are here in service to the Divine through our service to all of you.