When I look at myself for indications of progress, I find myself encouraged.
I’ve done so much looking in dusty corners and cleaning out the attic, that I feel more confident.
I haven’t looked at some of the skeletons. I was a woefully-deficient young man …
(Stop the camera. You’re about to craft a story of your perpetrations that will have you emerge looking good, Steve. Save it. You’re beyond that.)
That’s one of the most encouraging signs of progress: I’m “beyond” being stuck in my vasanas (or core issues) and story. I’m beyond being self-serving and letting it stand for more than half an hour without bursting out laughing.
I’m beyond saying all those thoughtless, angry comments in response to someone else perpetrating. How could I have said so many irritating remarks? As my Dad was fond of saying, who do you think you are? It took me 76 years, but I’m starting to grow up.
I didn’t raise kids so I didn’t have the grinding and polishing effect of parenting. Remind me not to try to shape my companies in my image. That would be a mistake
I see that, when I go down through enough vasanas, I reach a place where I can take my attention off myself. I’m no longer a mass of defensive postures, lies, trap doors, and escape routes. I’m protecting a lot less compared to even a year ago.
I have physical indications of progress as well. The arthritis in my hands is 95% gone, thanks to the Divine Mother. The arthritis in my knees is clearing up. I’m commanding the manifestation of my 7th-Dimensional merkabah (crystalline light body), as far as is consistent with my soul contract.
I feel about age 28 as it is, whatever my body says. I don’t feel “old” and I may never. In ordinary times, which this is not, I fantasize that I’d feel 28 all my life and then die. The only difference is this lifetime I won’t die.
I’m invoking the universal laws every day for the return of my merkabah and for reunion with my Angelic Self. I was about to say “for merger with my Higher Self” but my merkabah IS my Higher Self. (1)
I like this sadhana or spiritual practice. (I thank Kathleen for piquing my interest in the universal laws again.) I can say that I feel increased relaxation pursuing it.
I’m prepared for merger to take some time and, when it comes, you got it … it’ll probably be toned down somewhat so I don’t vacate the ranch and go to the big city.
When I contemplate the work ahead setting up Michaelengelo & Partners and expanding the Golden Age of Gaia, I almost keel over. BUT I can at least contemplate it now whereas before I was more or less a blank.
All of this demonstrates an expansion of horizons and mental capacity.
(1) The merkabah is Seventh Dimensional; my Higher Self or Oversoul is also Seventh Dimensional, as Michael and the Arcturians say. The arrival of my merkabah would be merger with my Higher Self.
I have actually merged with my Higher Self – whether my Oversoul or not, I’m not sure – on one occasion. See “‘Is This What You’re Looking for?’ – Part 1/2, August 21, 2017, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2017/08/21/289210/. I’ll post that account March 26.
(2) Steve: I had an experience at a meditation workshop [in March 2011] in which I felt regal. It was a partial [truncated: no bliss] experience. Can you tell me what that part of me it was that I accessed?
Archangel Michael: … Your Highest Self, your Oversoul, is very regal.
Steve: So that was an experience of the Oversoul.
AAM: Yes. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Sept. 13, 2011.)
The Arcturians: Seventh [Dimension] is your Oversoul. (The Arcturians in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Suzanne Lie, March 17, 2013.)