This morning started with me checking to see what time Costco opens.

In my Google search, under that info was “who owns Costco.” Hmm. . .

Blackrock. . . then came a search “who is Larry Fink” CEO of Blackrock, and I found a video because I wanted to get a sense of who Lawrence Douglas Fink is.

In another video. . . he said he had a good childhood in Los Angeles, city of angels, in the 50’s and 60’s. His Mom was an English professor and his Dad owned a shoe store.

No need to watch these videos, the first is from June 2021, the second 2017. I put them here to give context to my journey of reflections, mirrors, as within so without.

We often call ourselves Lightworkers, and according to understandings of Divine Qualities, Universal Laws, Dimensions, our mastery is the ability to stand back, not take sides, to equalize the energy within ourselves so we don’t take sides. Therefore we can send LOVE (the movement of the Divine Mother) to everything, good, bad, ugly to balance in our WORTH with compassion, LOVE.

What was interesting as I was contemplating Larry, who seems powerful in an Earthly sense, was the sorrow in me.

Curious, I allowed this sorrow to well up, no resistance to it. . .

As I let go, I felt power structures within my self let go. . .

I felt my self being vulnerable. . .

As my Divine Feminine energy rises within me it’s easier to allow this old sorrow of lifetimes to let go. . . to be more vulnerable with my self, and in front of others. . .

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My Father died on December 13th. He was a really good man who loved projects, from building log homes to spice racks, in community and at home. He died in the evening; my brother phoned me.

It’s not that we weren’t expecting this; his energy was diminishing; he was sitting more, sleeping more, not as energetic, but it was still something not expected at this time.

I miss him in physicality while celebrating his evolution to the Light knowing he will be cheering us on from the other side.

On December 25th, we gathered in the family home to be with Mum.

The place I was asked to sleep that night was beside my Mum, in my Dad’s spot.

For several days before Christmas, my Father had been asking from the other side, for me to help with something. I had said, “Yes” but hadn’t delved too deeply into what it was.

Beside my Mother that night I was wide awake, not really in any kind of distress, curious more than anything. I had forgotten my Father had asked me to do something, and as I realized I wasn’t going to be sleeping I prayed. I practiced LaHoChi. I invoked Universal Law. . .

Around 3 or 4 am a lot of energy enveloped me. It was intense, vibrations throughout my whole body.

I was lifted and I remember consciously deciding, “No, don’t take me farther.” The energy wasn’t comfortable. (I didn’t understand to be no resistance at this level).

There was a cutting, a separation of the energy, and I was back.

Interesting to note, in the Thoth Tarot, the Death card is a skeleton and a scythe.

The next day, around family I navigated everything, holding my self in the middle.

But the following day when I arrived back at my apartment, I “fell” deeply into sorrow and engaged with it for several hours. . . but what was unusual this time, was I was lifted out of it, up high into a state of bliss and joy.

Conflict & Defeat card from the Psychic Tarot: the golden energy of self-Worth is all around us; allowing the other side to lift us up into the feeling/knowing of it is heavenly.

Feel to heal, no resistance to the old energy,
has taken on new meaning of self-Worth.

Thank you, Dad.

What I’m finding is, as I Am deeply vulnerable, allowing my self to feel — not denying my feelings — I Am a deeper sense of balance within.

In that balance is deeper knowing self-Worth.

Those old feelings are not something to deny.

As we have no resistance to them, we balance within.

Self-Worth is our birthright.

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This brings me back to Larry Fink. As I was watching the videos, up came more of my old sorrow to be let go. . . and the knowing of my responsibility to send LOVE without resistance into the field.

As individuals and a planet we are balancing slowly and surely. There will be no failure this time. We are coming into our Collective Consciousness.

The Buddha taught us in the Law of Attachment and Detachment that Ascension is balance in all areas, and he listed them.

So using the Law of Intention and my I Am, I remind my self everyday now, asking for help from Lao Tzu, St. Germaine and the Buddha:

I Am a Perfect Relationship (with my self)
I Am Financial Abundance
I Am Perfect Health
I Am a Happy Family
I Am Fully Embodying My Mission and Purpose

I invoke Sanat Kumara
and the Universal Law of As Within So Without
As Above So Below, Balance,
in Gratitude to the Higher Realms

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