by Digger Barr
A gal I work with has been to 7 funerals this year.
Starting in March that is one almost every 30 days. These are not due to the jab. Four of them were motorcycle accidents. She is not overly spiritual but she is moving in that direction. I feel grateful to be in a position to help in whatever way she is receptive to. It would appear she is receptive and grateful in return.
October in particular has been a housekeeping month.
Keeping in mind the Kali Yuga and ascension of humanity, tools of the cosmic housekeeper are Retrograde planets that are helping bring to the surface anything that needs to be processed.
Geo-political issues are another.
Closer to home even the most mundane items are drawing attention to our inevitable shift.
For me personally, I have had to roll up my sleeves and get busy.
My favorite tool for this month, The Dustpan.
Have you ever moved something and seen a dust line? So you go get a rag to dust. Then you find larger debris like dust bunnies, leaves, bits of stuff you had no idea how it got here. So you move more items away from the area in order to sweep and find the mess was bigger than it first appeared. Pretty soon, everything is moved and the vacuum cleaner is running full force.
If you don’t do it, things can get pretty messy.
Once you’re aware of it, there is no excuse.
Then the vacuum cleaner breaks. The store is closed. The car won’t start. The tea kettle went past whistling and has now burned through the water. Mundane housekeeping has just shifted your attention until you finally have to ask, What the heck is going on?
Action is required and solutions don’t need to be complicated.
This is why I vote for the dustpan.
It’s simple. Doesn’t have any moving parts. It holds what it holds and can be emptied to be used again and again. Lightweight and handy it helps move the debris away with relative ease.
And so the clearing continues. But this time it needs to be cleared and removed. Doing the deep clean I found chunks of stuff that I thought I had previously resolved. These were not simple dust lines. These were hidden bits that demanded their own space and attention. This time I was more aware, less reactive and actually allowed the issue to play through. I examined it. I wanted to seek and assign blame elsewhere but put that thought into the dust pan. Those old thought patterns can be discarded too.
Each issue that rose up had its say; I acknowledged it; and sent it to the discard pile.
Thank you for your service. You can go now.
Just this past week was one challenge presented right after another.
My internet went out, my laptop broke and the washing machine stopped working. All while I am working through the core issues I thought I had cleared out. More victimhood, I lost my long time companion dog earlier this year and my son moved out to go to school. Abandonment issues soared.
I have been working very hard cleaning my house.
My physical house and my karmic house.
It is time for a transition into a new phase, a new era, a fresh way of living. In order to begin this new phase the old junk needs to go.
It is a struggle at times to let go of something. Especially if the attachment is strong.
For me, Lack and limitation, even thoughts of abandonment need to go.
Sitting at the laundromat I realized this opportunity as a gift.
This gift is to be able to create space making it available to fill with love.
Its time to Infuse all things that need healing with love.
Then I realized the action needed to be bigger than that.
It needed to be unconditional, no limits, no expectations, no excuses and no denying.
I believe you can love something, someone, yourself but still have expectations which may then lead to disappointment and thus more wounding.
This application needed full intent.
I gave it a go.
I infused myself with unconditional love and immediately felt the resistance.
Perhaps this is not for the faint of heart.
In order to give and to receive unconditional love you must simultaneously forgive and release all judgement and expectations of behavior, reactions and results.
Oh, is this what the Buddha was talking about? Let go of ALL attachments.
Believe me when I say I did not want to give up all the bits of me that easily.
And I was expecting certain results.
Let’s run the modified version of that ‘release attachments thing,’ shall we?
It was uncomfortable.This was my security blanket.
This was the very walls of my house that I have been building upon for years.
I started tossing things, Don’t need that, Don’t need that. Wait, not that…. Here are multiples of the same thing.
Really? Do I need multiple dramas, traumas over the same incident?
I tried to hang on to some. I might need that to hide behind, it protects me.
Nope, it’s gone. Out with the broken karmic modem.
It’s left me vulnerable and raw.
Here is the good news…
Not only is my vessel lighter, but it filled up very quickly with love.
This house is the house I want to go forward with.
Suddenly I wasn’t worried about lack.
I still am going to have to take action but that action now seems effortless.
Well, it’s getting easier. Not all the way there yet.
But I can see now where this road leads.
It’s endless by the way.
Some have called me a Pillar. Pillars are supposed to be strong, immovable, sustained supports.
This doesn’t mean Pillars are immune to what we are all going through.
If I can be of service by sharing my journey perhaps that is one way of providing support.
I am cognizant as well that this process has left me more sensitive and I probably will need to make careful choices, vibrationally speaking.
We are all moving through, and beyond our old attachments.
In reference to my friend’s loss, I share these condolences.
It is hard and I am sorry.
If our soul contract says it’s time to leave this realm and shift to the other side, then it is time.
To sustain our physical bodies through this shift may or may not be part of our soul contract.
For those that have done their service and are ready to transcend, thank you.
Thank you for all you have done and, I am sure, will continue to do.
For those of us still on this side of the veil, it is not easy. But we are doing great.
We need to continue doing our work by clearing ourselves and supporting each other with as much unconditional love as we can realize.
All things are in flux.
The shift is getting steep now.
Here we go.
Much much LOVE, unconditionally, to all