I was in elementary school. I am sure of it. Lying in bed, early one morning, contemplating the thought of infinity.
That is what most elementary students think about, is it not?
I lay there imagining the outer banks of the galaxy and then pushed beyond that point. I kept going until I thought I had gone far enough and then tried to find an edge. A seam. A corner of the box.
How could it keep going on forever? It was so mind boggling that suddenly I knew then I would never be able to understand it.
And so I asked, why won’t I be able to understand it?
And then I knew that my brain – thus, the human brain – was not capable of understanding it. I knew that our human brains were engineered to be limited. We could only think about things in terms of boxes. Things within boundaries and with limits. I accepted the fact that I may never understand infinity in this lifetime. Not with this brain.
Realising the reality of infinity would have to wait. I had to be satisfied with the concept of it, but not the ability to fully understand it.
I did however realize it was ok to think outside the box because I learned in this process that there was more to what we know and that is okay.
This expansive way of thinking has gotten me into trouble a time or two. And that’s okay too.
I know that there is so much more out there and someday the box minds will know that too.
Looking back at this thought process I can see now that I was given downloads of information. Maybe because I wanted so much to understand and kept asking questions. Within myself the answers were provided. All that we need to know is already within us.
Later in college when I read about Socrates. I knew what he said to be true. Not that I was right but that Socrates was right. The universe had already shown me this to be true.
What I am enjoying learning today is that that is how things are, but, actually, there is so much more than that.
By accepting that the mind is limited I limited myself. Which is probably something I needed to do at the time. It would have driven me crazy and I would not have fit into society. That has been a struggle enough as it was.
Once again I find myself searching for the edge of the galaxy and beyond.
By stretching and exercising the mind I have opened a level of awareness that has moved beyond the mind and found that the center of understanding lies within the heart.
This is where infinity can be found. In the energy of creation, expansion is endless. And when fed and nurtured by the fountain of love it becomes infinite.
Perhaps that is why we are told if it is not of love it cannot be sustained. For those things that are not of Love are finite and thus the energy of its creation will run out and it will cease to exist.
There are a growing number of you out there that will read these words as I did those of Socrates.
Not that I am right but there is something here that you already know to be true.
When we look to others to hand us our knowledge we are adding a bigger box. Each day we may expand and add another big box.
Deanna Barr is a spiritual artist guided to help facilitate the empowerment of humanity. Her journey blends seeking harmony with nature and living in balance while connecting fellow travelers with Gaia and realizing her blessings. Raised in a multicultural family, Deanna writes under the pen name of Digger and explores the human connection to spirit through many mediums of art including painting, metal work, gardening, landscaping and of course writing. With a degree in psychology and experience in Kundalini yoga, Shamanic practitioning and natural healing, she offers spiritual insights for other seekers. Connection to spirit is her way of living and she enjoys sharing this process.