I’m watching the way I behave at the moment.
I felt a touch of despondency, I believe related to the feeling in the morning of beginning the ball game again.
Put on my uniform, step up to the plate….
The interesting thing was that I watched myself begin to respond to life from that despondency.
Not like I said, “Oh, hello. Welcome, guest. Come sit for a while.”
No, I girded on my armor and went out to … I don’t know what. Complain about it being too early? Say I just want to be left alone? Go back to bed?
Despondency was in the driver’s seat, even though there was no earthly reason for it.
But that’s how our reactions to feelings work, don’t they? We put our feelings in the driver’s seat?
How many encounter groups have I been in where the participant got in touch with their feelings and the minute they did their belligerence turned to sorrow or pain? Until that moment, their feelings were driving the car.
Believe me, I appreciate feelings, as you know. I regard them as the prime motivator of behavior.
But I don’t think they’re set up to lead us. Divine states, yes. But they’re higher dimensional states of consciousness rather than Third-Dimensional responses to things.
The key difference for me is that the divine states are transformative; feelings are not.
Higher-dimensional love transforms the situation; Third-Dimensional love yields to it.
If I’m in the experience of real love, negative feelings can’t get near me. It’s as if there’s a force field – and indeed there is – that keeps them away.
Feelings are wonderful. They’re the source of all richness as well as all grief. When we recount our favorite memories, watch how many consider their favorite memory to be when they felt their greatest – awe, joy, success! Or their lowest.
The difficulty arises if we have an angry thought while in 3D love. We often immediately drop love and take up anger.
In the higher dimensions, we’re lifted entirely out of anything remotely negative. That’s why you hear that galactics have trouble when we get emotionally upset. It’s not a part of their lives and is unpleasant for them.
They’re immersed in a sea of love, a love, as Mike Quinsey said, like we cannot imagine. Truly, it lies outside the world of our limited imaginations. (1)
If we knew what it was like (and we soon will), we’d wonder how we’d continue functioning in it. But that thought only comes up in our deflated, Third-Dimensional condition, not in their fully-inflated, fully-fulfilled condition. To them this is just how life was meant to be and should be.
Just as our minds ripen into higher-dimensional wisdom, so our feelings ripen into the divine states.
Until then, I want to remind myself that my feelings are not an infallible guide. Letting it all hang out was fine for a generation in revolt against war.
But a generation about to meet higher-dimensional beings now needs to rein in and interject a moment of reflection between feeling and response.
I think the times call for it.
(1) Here’s an illustration.
Persuaded by some intel guru, I ordered a throwaway cellphone, to make the one call to my 800# after the Reval. I paid $23 and this is what I received.
That’s a dime beside it.
This is a phone and it’s not a phone.
It has some features of a phone and it may even work. I don’t know. I couldn’t figure out how to use it and my fingers were too big, as you can see.
It certainly isn’t a phone in terms of convenience or practicality.
Our feelings are like the miniature cellphone compared to the divine states, which are like my real cellphone: Indispensable, invisible.