Due to a financial decision several years ago — feeling at the time everything was in Divine Order (and still do to this day) — I’m in thousands of dollars of debt.
With gratefulness to the pandemic, my trusty sewing machine and many face mask orders, that debt came down substantially over the summer (and I was able to donate over 350 masks, as well). Also, my reading days in the centers I work at, are booking up more and more.
But two days ago I was triggered by an external event that made me feel everything I’ve been doing is of no value and the financial piece came up front and center as a mirror. I was staring at a reflection of debt, of lack of self-worth.
I’ve had similar triggers in the past that cause me to want to leave the planet. It’s that strong, and this one was no exception, but my guides and guardians were very patient as I fell into the old feelings.
I like to say, “Feel it to heal it. . .” and then with mastery to find the gratitude for the old situations — somehow, someway — but I refused. The resistance was strong. Finally, talking to a friend with a similar background, the conclusion was made that we are in gratitude for the past to be done. It was that simple.
I Am Gratitude for the stages in this journey, that were full of stress, anxiety, sorrow and fear, to be over.
I Am Gratitude
for the old to be done.
We’re in the 7th dimensional growth pattern Now of Christ Consciousness, of unity and community, balance and harmony, we just don’t realize it fully, but we are here. The past is done, and Now it’s time to focus on what we’re doing right — I Am Worth — within and without.
I Am Value
translates into holding
that light on for the Collective.
Consciously seeing is focusing on where we are moving into right alignment.
Examples in Vancouver are our City Council is working on decriminalizing possession of small amounts of drugs, building more treatment centers, and renovating the cockroach, bedbug infested SRO’s in our Downtown Eastside.
Highlighted by the pandemic — I Am Gratitude — many things out of alignment are being addressed now.
I find myself easily consciously crying these days, releasing sorrow on what feels to be a Collective level understanding its being done for many, while remembering at the same time, value of self.
Our guides and guardians value us consistently.
We are here to feel our VALUE, our worth,
to know how Loved we are,
then to witness that
VALUE realized without,
in our communities.