Performing My Last Rites

Following my last post on Surrendering to Divine Will, I continued to work on and process my newfound insight. This process continued for about one week. Then I had another breakthrough.

On the first day of the autumnal Navratri* as I was surrendering myself to the Divine, imagining myself melting into a sea of Divine Consciousness, I became aware that I also needed to allow the Divine Consciousness within me. So I did and was immediately flooded with bliss.

Each pore and cell of my being became super-charged with… I can only call it Grace. The words of the Divine Mother came back to me as she urged me to, ‘continue to work on this [surrender]’. This was another level of surrender for me.

​I became beset with typical Ascension symptoms for a couple of weeks afterwards as the sublime energies of the Divine Mother flooded through me. My physical body was stretched to capacity in holding this much Light.

As I have explained in my various Articles, DNA both stores and emits biophotons. Divine Love/Light gets translated into biophotons which affect our DNA, causing a recoding of the ‘junk’ sections which hold our personal akashic records and our personal karma, among other things.

The recoding of my DNA to match my newfound insights on Divine Will, enabled by the flood of Divine Grace, caused me to enter into a somewhat ambivalent state. I was super-charged with energy, so much so that I couldn’t get more than 2-3 hours of sleep each day. Yet I was physically exhausted and needed much rest.

​On the seventh day into the Navatri, as I was performing Havan** I was guided to perform my last rites- well, the fire offerings part of it anyway. Allow me to explain further.

Most Hindus cremate their dead, a process which is preceded by the offering of oblations into the sacred fire using Vedic mantras that literally consign the various organs and limbs of the body to the Divine. Fire from this sacred havan is then used to ignite the funeral pyre.

A funny thing happened as I started making the last-rites offerings for myself into the sacred fire. Did I say funny? No, it was anything but funny. It was the most terrifying thing that I had ever done.

My ego rushed to the fore, filling my head with dreadful thoughts of death.

“Stop!” My ego cried in mortal fear. “What if this is not just a symbolic surrender to God? What if you were to die a physical death as a result of this?”

My ego was hysterical at the thought of dying.

I observed my thoughts, but carried on. I was reminded of the words of Sri Krishna during my personal reading with channel Linda Dillon:

Sri Krishna: And this is also often based in a fear that if you abandon your beloved ego self that you will disappear. That in this integration [of Higher Self, i.e. Ascension]  that somehow, the Nari [my home name- short for Narendra] that you so cherish, and so do we by the way, that this will disappear and that is not the case. So when your dragon ego raises its fiery breath, simply smile and reassure and simply continue on. Yes, there are times when continuing on means being absolutely still.

At the time of this reading earlier this year I had no idea that this was the case. Now I saw it very clearly. My ego was afraid that surrendering to the Divine wholly and completely meant losing itself.

Sri Krishna and later on in the same reading, the Divine Mother, reassured me that integrating one’s Higher Self, or Ascension, does not mean losing the ego.

It took a little while of mental reassuring for my ego to finally subside. I finished my last rites with a sense of wonder and accomplishment.

What does performing my last rites mean in the context of Ascension? What comes next? Even now I await the answers.

Footnotes

* Navatri is a nine-day festival dedicated to the Divine Mother. It occurs twice per year during the spring and autumn seasons.
** Havan or Homa is a sacred ritual whereby oblations of clarified butter and grains are offered to the Divine via the medium of fire.